Here I stand
My jantung beating out of my chest
Here I stand
Trying to leave it all to rest

I'm taking small steps forward
Big steps backwards
'Cause this is the last where I wanna be
I'm swallowing my fear
And I'm gathering my courage
'Cause you're the last person I wanna see

But if I wanna get over this I need to get through this
There can't be no healing without pain
And I can't conceal it
And I won't believe it
That all of it would've been in vain

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
anda didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
anda never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place anda will never reach

There anda are
Judging me with those ice cold eyes
There anda are
Mocking me with that fake evil smile

I'm strong yet so vulnerable
I'm broken, not unfixable
The tears are just a symptom of my closure
I'm fragile,yet so untouchable
I'm distanced,yet so reachable
Facing anda is something I need to do for closure

'Cause if I wanna end my agony
I need to walk my agony
All I ever want is just to breath again
And if I wanna prevent my jantung from dying
I need to stop hiding
All I ever want is just to live again

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
anda didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
anda never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place anda will never reach

Do anda remember all the words you've said
Are they still spinning around in your head
When anda look in the mirror do anda feel guilty
Do anda regret,do anda feel sorry

I wanted to leave this hell behin me
So I needed to break free
Find my wings and just flew away
But if I wanna vanquish my demons
I need to face my demons
And you're the scariest one I've ever seen

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
anda didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
anda never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place anda will never reach
You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
anda didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
anda never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place anda will never reach