_______________HEAVEN AND HELL_______________
I feel like there’s a monster inside my mind, clawing its sharp, black fingers at me and making me think that nothing will ever be the same again.
The voices are calling out to me – their voices screaming, like serigala howling when’s it’s a full moon, at me: “Give it a shot Annie!” “Your so-called friends at school don’t care about anda anymore!” “Don’t anda want to feel that blood trickle down from your cuts?!” “What are anda waiting for?” I try not to listen oleh covering my ears atau hiding under my blanket to keep those voices out atau even crying just to let them know that enough was enough.
I hate feeling this way.. All the dark voices keep lurking around the back of my mind when I’m alone.. they tell me to do all the horrible things to myself like swallowing pills, giving myself cuts in my arms, going up to edge of a high cliff somewhere and just jump to see what it felt like to fly… atau worse–get a gun and pull the trigger at my head, blowing it wide like a popped balloon before it sailed down to the ground…
I want to stop crying myself to sleep every night..
I want to stop all the hurt, the pain, the loneliness that I feel when I’m oleh myself
I want people to stop feeling sorry for me..
I want everyone, even me, to feel happy and not think that this is the last tahun we’d all be together
I want to be happy inside and not feel sad about everything all the time..
I want.. everything that’s happening to me now to stop and wash out of my body
Sometimes I feel happy and blissful when I’m with all my friends and family, and even my pets who always make me feel at halaman awal and happy.
But when I want to say something so darn important to someone all these negative thoughts swarm my mind like a hive of bees stinging me painfully.
My life is like torn between Heaven and Hell..
One hari I’m so happy.. selanjutnya thing anda know, everything grows dull and silent and suddenly, I’m swallowed up oleh darkness and pulled down deep, never able to reach the surface again..
Under this smile that I have on my face.. the happiness, the joy and the kindness.. there is a girl who just wants someone to
Understand her
Help her
Hug her
Let her know that that ‘someone’ would be there for her
Hold her hand and tell her know that everything with her – her problems, the pain – would disappear
Be there for her.. and never let her go atau leave her side
Do anda know me all that well?
Do anda know what my true feelings are?
Do anda know the girl who sits oleh herself?
Do you? Do anda really?
I didn’t think so…
Who am I to pertanyaan the impossible?
_______________PEACE & LOVE_______________
SILENT CHILD.
I feel like there’s a monster inside my mind, clawing its sharp, black fingers at me and making me think that nothing will ever be the same again.
The voices are calling out to me – their voices screaming, like serigala howling when’s it’s a full moon, at me: “Give it a shot Annie!” “Your so-called friends at school don’t care about anda anymore!” “Don’t anda want to feel that blood trickle down from your cuts?!” “What are anda waiting for?” I try not to listen oleh covering my ears atau hiding under my blanket to keep those voices out atau even crying just to let them know that enough was enough.
I hate feeling this way.. All the dark voices keep lurking around the back of my mind when I’m alone.. they tell me to do all the horrible things to myself like swallowing pills, giving myself cuts in my arms, going up to edge of a high cliff somewhere and just jump to see what it felt like to fly… atau worse–get a gun and pull the trigger at my head, blowing it wide like a popped balloon before it sailed down to the ground…
I want to stop crying myself to sleep every night..
I want to stop all the hurt, the pain, the loneliness that I feel when I’m oleh myself
I want people to stop feeling sorry for me..
I want everyone, even me, to feel happy and not think that this is the last tahun we’d all be together
I want to be happy inside and not feel sad about everything all the time..
I want.. everything that’s happening to me now to stop and wash out of my body
Sometimes I feel happy and blissful when I’m with all my friends and family, and even my pets who always make me feel at halaman awal and happy.
But when I want to say something so darn important to someone all these negative thoughts swarm my mind like a hive of bees stinging me painfully.
My life is like torn between Heaven and Hell..
One hari I’m so happy.. selanjutnya thing anda know, everything grows dull and silent and suddenly, I’m swallowed up oleh darkness and pulled down deep, never able to reach the surface again..
Under this smile that I have on my face.. the happiness, the joy and the kindness.. there is a girl who just wants someone to
Understand her
Help her
Hug her
Let her know that that ‘someone’ would be there for her
Hold her hand and tell her know that everything with her – her problems, the pain – would disappear
Be there for her.. and never let her go atau leave her side
Do anda know me all that well?
Do anda know what my true feelings are?
Do anda know the girl who sits oleh herself?
Do you? Do anda really?
I didn’t think so…
Who am I to pertanyaan the impossible?
_______________PEACE & LOVE_______________
SILENT CHILD.
Once Upon A Time..
There was a little girl who was happy...
Until she grew up...
The mirror..
Something that scares people..
The person looking back at them is someone they don't want to see...
"Hey I just met you, and this is crazy! But your fat, so slit your wrist maybe?"
Words that will forever run through my head...
The mirror is the place where truth is,
Until it gets out of hand
Thinking oneself is fat when really all they are, are bones..
People live there life oleh the number at there feet,
Praying it's not over 100 atau even higher then 90
To be skinnier is the goal that people would even die for
That's all they want is to be skinny until there bones show..
This becomes peoples life and making them self skinny...
It;s killing teens today..
There was a little girl who was happy...
Until she grew up...
The mirror..
Something that scares people..
The person looking back at them is someone they don't want to see...
"Hey I just met you, and this is crazy! But your fat, so slit your wrist maybe?"
Words that will forever run through my head...
The mirror is the place where truth is,
Until it gets out of hand
Thinking oneself is fat when really all they are, are bones..
People live there life oleh the number at there feet,
Praying it's not over 100 atau even higher then 90
To be skinnier is the goal that people would even die for
That's all they want is to be skinny until there bones show..
This becomes peoples life and making them self skinny...
It;s killing teens today..
This is a song I made up!
~wHISPERS~
Until the End of time,
Until the end of me,
You'll be the death of me,
I dare anda to menyeberang, salib the line,
Because something curl waits for thee.
~Singing~
Broken inside
Feeling alive
Forced to defy
Who casts me aside
I'm waiting to be
Broken inside
Losing my mind
Gasping for life
Crashing through times
That drive me to find
The darkness behind
Will never run dry
But all still stand
~Chorus~
Deep down inside
I know that your the death of me,
And I dare anda to menyeberang, salib that line.
Because deep down I know
That I'm broken
I'm broken
~singing again~
The thinning line between
anda and my sanity
Is quickly fading
I'm slowly sinking
Into Insane world we called love.
Takes just a breeze to cause a storm
Takes just a breath to cause a scream
It takes me to cause a tragedy
And slowly fading away...
~Chorus canon~
Deep down inside
I know that your the death of me,
And I dare anda to menyeberang, salib that line.
And deep down inside I'm fading because...
I'm Broken...
~wHISPERS~
Until the End of time,
Until the end of me,
You'll be the death of me,
I dare anda to menyeberang, salib the line,
Because something curl waits for thee.
~Singing~
Broken inside
Feeling alive
Forced to defy
Who casts me aside
I'm waiting to be
Broken inside
Losing my mind
Gasping for life
Crashing through times
That drive me to find
The darkness behind
Will never run dry
But all still stand
~Chorus~
Deep down inside
I know that your the death of me,
And I dare anda to menyeberang, salib that line.
Because deep down I know
That I'm broken
I'm broken
~singing again~
The thinning line between
anda and my sanity
Is quickly fading
I'm slowly sinking
Into Insane world we called love.
Takes just a breeze to cause a storm
Takes just a breath to cause a scream
It takes me to cause a tragedy
And slowly fading away...
~Chorus canon~
Deep down inside
I know that your the death of me,
And I dare anda to menyeberang, salib that line.
And deep down inside I'm fading because...
I'm Broken...