"Bella, where are you? anda have a tampil in 20 mins, are anda looking good?"
Phil berkata throught the fuzz of my "New phone" in which i again did not choose. It funny all the stuff that is labeled mine, was not selected oleh me. hmph.
Thinking back to the house, the walls, the name, my name, On the walls, edward. My nightmare that proved real, and my dream all in one moment still rang in mind.
I knocked loadly on the taxi glass.
"Can anda hurry up please!" i berkata franicly.
"Hey are you? Are anda Bella, like Bella swan?"
Sigh. Yes. Unfortunatly.
"Yes."
"OMG! no way! my dautgher loved you! her name is alice! will anda please sign this picture of her, its in my wallet?" he berkata reaching into his backside.
i slide across the door, and began searching for my marker. Phil had always made me carry one around.
He passed me a frayed picture will soft edges, its shown a beautifull like girl. she was a little baby. with small blonde ringlet She was a Alice, like my alice. Her face was sweet, like an apple. She was soft and rosie, she smiled a toothless grin, as though it was just a captured moment. She was someone's baby. His words resversed in my head once more. "She loved you." My jantung felt heavy and my eyes felt in solemen.
"I'm so sorry, Alice IS soo beautiful.' I inhaled, holding back my tears, for the loss of this girl, and for my friend. Who else is lost to me. lost forever. Only alive in my heart, a jantung that only beats oleh force, not will, and is torn , riddled with disease.
"We dont know. i just remember waking up to feed the anjing and. and. there she was lying in the tall grass, like she was a victim, hairr on her face.." He stopped, to upset to continue.
"She was 5" he finished.
i signed. "Alice, i cinta you. Bella."
and handed it back. a tear running .
He stopped the car. which surprised me.
"Where here ma'am" he voice gone and broken.
"Thank you." in a instant flashing light invaded my eyes. Ohh crap the papz.

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"Hey everyone, sorry for being late, i got caught up. so how is everyone tonight? Good i hope. Really to hear some musik im wishing."
the crowd roared loader then ever. They all screamed, whistled, yelled and sung.

Ok, so i have this one song, i haven't sung yet, but some of the lyrics are inside jokes. Soo. but i dont doubt anda will like it.

Maybe I need some rehab,
atau maybe just need some sleep
I've got a sick obsession,
I'm seeing it in my dreams

I'm looking down every alley,
I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping,
Hit my head against the walls

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my jantung is fried
I just cant get anda off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your cinta your cinta your cinta
I berkata your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your cinta your cinta your cinta

Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!

b]My friends think I've gone crazy,[/b] my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a cinta sick crackhead


What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my jantung is fried
I just cant get anda off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your cinta your cinta your cinta
I berkata your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your cinta your cinta your cinta

I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave anda when anda are away

So I got a question;
Do anda want to have a summer party in my basement?
Do I make your jantung beat like an 808 drum?
Is my love, your drug?
(huh) Your drug? (huh) your drug? (huh) your drug?
Is my love, your drug? (am i your herion.)

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your cinta your cinta your cinta
I berkata your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your cinta your cinta your cinta (x2)

Heyyy heyyy your love, your love,your love,your love, (whispered) is my drug
I like your beard



all my jantung when into this song, as though He was somehow listening, and remembering when he once told me that i was his herion.
But i had another i wanted to hit him with.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apel, apple hanging from a pohon
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

anda berkata pindah on, where do I go?
I guess detik best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of anda
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what anda would do
If anda were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard permen with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
anda berkata there's tons of ikan in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of anda
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what anda would do
If anda were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let anda go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think anda should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of anda
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what anda would do
If anda were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't anda walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no lebih mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay


this time there was no applause, just silence. They finally knew. that all my song fit together. I was in love. that i had a love. and was gone forever. That i waiting for him to hear them. As thought they were waiting for Edward too. His name hurt.
i hit the stage the mic falling before me. Still continueing my sobs, for all th fear.
Was i the one that they use to advise the consquence?
Like teen mothers will unprotected sex, was i the girl on the poster for giving your jantung away for love?
A soft sound tuned behind me, a beautiful tune that flowed like a river. it was familar.
My lullaby.