have anda ever been stuck in aplace where anda dont want to die but anda dont want to lve either...

um...... I'm pretty young, so a situation like that hasn't happened yet, but there are many times unhappy with who I am, since in school I don't talk that much, so no one really talks to me, but at halaman awal and when I'm with my friend who lives a few houses down from me, anda can't me to stop talking. I wish I could be like that all the time, but I can't. If I had a wish, that's what I'd use it on. Though I've never really had thoughts of suicide, I've been thinking about leaving this school to start over, but at the same time, I find mysefl not wanting to leave either. I'm so... I don't know, something.

Whats wrong OT? This is the detik thing I've seen today about anda feeling suicidal.


But I completely know what your talking about. I've been there, done that. I was caught up in something really bad back 1~2 years yang lalu and my parents about had a cow. I felt useless, depressed, lonely, sad needless to say it was my lowest point. I had MANY thoughts of suicide, many different thoughts of how to kill myself actually. I came at one point so close as to doing it I might aswell have, but anda know how they say before anda die your life flashes before your eyes? Well I swear my life did and my family, friends and boyfriend (at the time. We're no longer together.) kept flooding my thoughts and I couldn't do it. I knew they needed me, even when I thought they didn't.

OT, even though it may not feel like it, your needed and your wanted. I hardly know anda and anda mean to me. anda make me laugh and anda probably don't remember but I sure as heck do..you've taken up for me on here and I appreciate that. Don't do anything rash, just take a deep breath and relax hmm?