Just a little one-shot I wrote while listening to Faith Hill's Like We Never Loved At All. Set during Sev's 7th tahun at Hogwarts :)
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You never looked so good
As anda did last night . . . .
There, walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon . . .
The quarter moon was bright and high. Between it and the reflection off the lake, the entirety of the Hogwarts grounds was bathed in a silvery light. Two figures – one tall and masculine, the other smaller and lebih feminine – strolled confidently across the lush grass, laughing and holding hands. They were obviously a couple and, just as obviously, enamored with each other. They paid no mind to their surroundings – not the beautifully shimmering lake atau the dark, shadowed trees. They did not see the pale face, half obscured oleh shadow, watching them from a detik story window. The face was twisted in pain and misery; the eyes were bright with un-shed tears and crinkled around the edges as they squinted at the besotted pair; the bottom lip was being bitten into in order to stop any noise from escaping. It was the utmost torture for Severus Snape to have stumbled upon Lily and James' little rendezvous, but he was at a loathe to interrupt them and let them know he was there.
But I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life
How can anda just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye?
Don't anda have the slightest feelings left for me?
Lily hardly ever even looked at him any more. At first, after the fight, Severus would catch her eying him, disappointment etched into her features. But now . . . Now it was like their friendship had never happened. Lily never acknowledged his presence, no matter how hard he tried. If he sat near her in class, she never turned her head towards him. It was killing him.
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Occasionally, Severus would comfort himself oleh telling him that Lily was in just as much pain as he was. Sometimes, when he spoke up in Potions class, he could swear that the carefully blank expression she wore around him would crack. Just a little. Her eyes and mouth would soften and her eyes would, very quickly, dart to him and then away. She missed him – he knew she did – but she was so stubborn and he had hurt her so badly . . . This was her way of dealing. It wasn't that she'd actually forgotten about him, it was just that it was easier for her to pretend he didn't exist. It made it easier for her deal with the pain he'd caused her. There was no way his first friend could have simply forgotten him and everything they'd been through . . .
. . . I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well . . .
Although, Lily didn't seem to be halted oleh their separation. She was just as brilliant as always, just as bubbly (on the occasions he heard her speak). She was dating James now (which had almost killed him when he found out) and had made friends with his friends. It was a very common site to see the four of them sitting out on the rumput talking, atau to see her studying with Lupin. No, despite what had happened between them, Lily seemed perfectly happy with her life.
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
Which just made everything that much worse. Severus was beyond miserable. He had no true friends – once he'd become a Death Eater, he'd realized what Lily had been saying all along: his “friends” were evil, malicious, and did not give one iota about him. But he was stuck now, trapped in this living nightmare of pain. The Death Eaters were nothing like Lucius had promised and Severus had found out far too late.
Did anda forget the magic? . . .
Did anda ever miss me . . .
He was alone now. The Death Eaters found his lack of enthusiasm for the kill to be boring and weak. They shunned him as much as possible. And, after his fallout with Lily, none from the other houses would give him the time of day. It hurt, to have lost everything in one big swoop.
Did anda ever miss me . . .
James tangled his fingers in Lily's hair, smiling a predator's smile, completely oblivious to what he had. He pulled her face close to his . . . Severus looked away. He turned away from the window completely, letting the tears flow as he dashed back to the common room.
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You never looked so good
As anda did last night . . . .
There, walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon . . .
The quarter moon was bright and high. Between it and the reflection off the lake, the entirety of the Hogwarts grounds was bathed in a silvery light. Two figures – one tall and masculine, the other smaller and lebih feminine – strolled confidently across the lush grass, laughing and holding hands. They were obviously a couple and, just as obviously, enamored with each other. They paid no mind to their surroundings – not the beautifully shimmering lake atau the dark, shadowed trees. They did not see the pale face, half obscured oleh shadow, watching them from a detik story window. The face was twisted in pain and misery; the eyes were bright with un-shed tears and crinkled around the edges as they squinted at the besotted pair; the bottom lip was being bitten into in order to stop any noise from escaping. It was the utmost torture for Severus Snape to have stumbled upon Lily and James' little rendezvous, but he was at a loathe to interrupt them and let them know he was there.
But I'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life
How can anda just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye?
Don't anda have the slightest feelings left for me?
Lily hardly ever even looked at him any more. At first, after the fight, Severus would catch her eying him, disappointment etched into her features. But now . . . Now it was like their friendship had never happened. Lily never acknowledged his presence, no matter how hard he tried. If he sat near her in class, she never turned her head towards him. It was killing him.
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Occasionally, Severus would comfort himself oleh telling him that Lily was in just as much pain as he was. Sometimes, when he spoke up in Potions class, he could swear that the carefully blank expression she wore around him would crack. Just a little. Her eyes and mouth would soften and her eyes would, very quickly, dart to him and then away. She missed him – he knew she did – but she was so stubborn and he had hurt her so badly . . . This was her way of dealing. It wasn't that she'd actually forgotten about him, it was just that it was easier for her to pretend he didn't exist. It made it easier for her deal with the pain he'd caused her. There was no way his first friend could have simply forgotten him and everything they'd been through . . .
. . . I hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well . . .
Although, Lily didn't seem to be halted oleh their separation. She was just as brilliant as always, just as bubbly (on the occasions he heard her speak). She was dating James now (which had almost killed him when he found out) and had made friends with his friends. It was a very common site to see the four of them sitting out on the rumput talking, atau to see her studying with Lupin. No, despite what had happened between them, Lily seemed perfectly happy with her life.
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
Which just made everything that much worse. Severus was beyond miserable. He had no true friends – once he'd become a Death Eater, he'd realized what Lily had been saying all along: his “friends” were evil, malicious, and did not give one iota about him. But he was stuck now, trapped in this living nightmare of pain. The Death Eaters were nothing like Lucius had promised and Severus had found out far too late.
Did anda forget the magic? . . .
Did anda ever miss me . . .
He was alone now. The Death Eaters found his lack of enthusiasm for the kill to be boring and weak. They shunned him as much as possible. And, after his fallout with Lily, none from the other houses would give him the time of day. It hurt, to have lost everything in one big swoop.
Did anda ever miss me . . .
James tangled his fingers in Lily's hair, smiling a predator's smile, completely oblivious to what he had. He pulled her face close to his . . . Severus looked away. He turned away from the window completely, letting the tears flow as he dashed back to the common room.
