In my core my blood runs slowly and quietly.
Like water, gently gliding down a stream.
In the center of Summer.

All it takes is a look.
Not a look of gentleness, sweetness, atau pride.
It's a look of disappointment.
They make my veins stop solid.
Like Winter among the earth.

I am never seen radiant, fiery, blessed.
Just a feeling of emptiness.
I need to die away and fall to the ground.
Like the leaves of Fall.

Never ever wanting to be reborn
In Springs bliss.
Like the birds flying free above me.
Just to start the lonely agony once again.

As I sprint through the hall, he follows.
As my heels clack against the marble floor, he follows.
As my breath comes faster, he follows.
As I turn around slowly, I continue to run, he follows.

He is close to me now, he whispers my name.
He breathes heavily, and laughs maniaclly.
He stomps against the floor, harder, as he reaches for his pocket.
He smiles, small, straight white teeth gleam with insanity.

I begin to slow, my ribs are burning, my muscles ache, my mind is spinning, my eyes are crying...
He embraces me softly, gently, lovingly.
I tense, my muscles can't take much more, he's too strong, I'm too weak.
His grip tightens now, as he holds a switch blade to my throat, he begins to cry.
I also begin to cry, as his grip loosens, I fall to the marble floor, still sobbing.
He also falls, still sobbing, he drops the blade, and screams.

This is a little poem I wrote. I wrote it from my heart, mind, body, and soul. I hope anda like it. komentar if anda can. :)
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I’m supposed to be happy.

I’m supposed to smile.

I’m supposed to laugh.

Yet, I can’t.

I can’t forget that he’s not here.

I can’t forget that he never was.

I can’t forget that he didn’t care.

anda were supposed to be a father to me.

anda were supposed to cinta me.

anda were supposed to care.

Yet, anda didn’t.

Forgive me if I don’t understand.

I thought father’s were supposed to cinta their little girls.

I thought they were supposed to be the dad that beat up their boyfriends.

I thought that I would have a father that loved me.


But, I don’t.

He doesn’t care.

He never will.


I’ve learned to forget him.

He’s no father to me.

He never was.


I’m happy now.

I can laugh and smile.

Even without you.

Dad.

Enjoy, komentar if anda can.
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This broken sky is falling.

This shattered earth is crumbling.

This broken jantung is bleeding.


This black room is all I see.

The blackness is all I see.

The black is all that I am.


My sky has fallen,

My earth has crumbled,

Yet my jantung continues to bleed.


anda used to be my,

Sky,

Earth,

Heart,

But, you’re gone.

Now all I see is black, in this black room, within the darkness.


Yet, my jantung continues to bleed.

You're my bestie,
my best-est one,
You're my bestie,
someone who makes school fun.
You're my bestie
no matter how far apart,
You're my bestie,
and always in my heart.
You're my bestie,
the best I've ever had,
You're my bestie,
the only one who cheers me up when I'm sad.
You're my bestie,
and only one who knows what to do,
You're my bestie,
and I cinta you,...........

    because...............

You're my bestie,
the only one who made me see
that you're my bestie,
the best that can be!

The girls screams but all their is is silence.
She sheds tears but her face is not moist.
She speaks but there are no words to be heard.
This girl, only in her mind she ever screamed for this, there was no sound. Only in her mind did she cry for this, tears did not moisten her face. And for this words where never herd. She is scared of exspression. She is scared to stand out and is scared of judgment. Becuase of this her world will be of muteness there will be no sun no moon only a gray, a gray nothingness in a line of other people all have no faces for they to are scared of being diffrent and they all to live in gray nothingness.
The girl who is scared will live in the world of gray until her scream is herd and her face feels tears.

malaikat and demons were circling above me
through the thorns to the stars
The only one who doesn't know happiness
is the one who couldn't understand its call

I am Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer...

Stand alone... Where was life when it had a meaning...
Stand alone... Nothing's real anymore and...

...Endless run...
While I'm alive, I can try not to fall while flying,
Not to forget how to dream... how to love
...Endless run...

Calling Calling, For the place of knowing
There's lebih that what can be linked
Calling Calling, Never will I look away
For what life has left for me
Yearning Yearning, for what's left of loving

To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer.......