Mother was a handful as usual and as usual she was able to find fault with everything I did.
I am the "Dean of Medicine", graduated medical school in the puncak, atas of my class, and I run a hospital and it is still not enough to earn her respect.
She called me a slut. How could she actually call me....?
Then there is House. anda were going to stand up for me. anda felt defensive of me. I should tell anda that I loved the way that felt. anda whom I have loved forever and wanted to pay some attention to me. anda felt like a hero to me in that moment. I know anda needed time alone. I have done nothing but order anda around and keep anda jumping through hoops.
I don't know why everything anda do makes me lebih afraid that this is not what anda want. I wish I could tell anda that I am scared. I have never wanted many things in my life. My life has been based on gaining approval. But, "I want you." I have always wanted you.
"I am screwing this up." I am screwing us up.
I wish I could tell anda that when anda walk into the room I just want to touch you. I think about what it feels like when your lips brush across mine. I can feel anda inside me and how amziing anda feel to me. I can feel anda in my core. The moment that anda took me in your arms and anda picked up and I laid underneath you. I never imagined that anda would feel so good to me. I felt like I was.........................Home.
I knew from the beginning that hari in the bookstore I would never meet another man that I wanted the way I wanted you. But I know it doesn't seem that way. Lately I can't hold a smile. Lately...... Lately I am so afraid anda will find out I am not what anda want. anda will realize I am not good enough.
She put her head in her hands and tears began streaming down her face. I need anda House. I need anda so much. Please ........
At that moment she felt a hand touch her. She didn't jump because she knew the touch.
Cuddy come here. House pulled her up gently and he sat down and she sat in his lap and she buried her head in his shoulder. He held her and he rocked as she cried.
Cuddy talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.
She just hung on to him tighter and cried harder.
Why are anda so upset now? Is it because I drugged your mother atau I tried to get out of being here? I am sorry. Cuddy do anda want out of this?
She raised up and she put her hand on his face. Maybe that would be the best. Maybe this is just lebih than anda can handle.
With that he stood up. "What?!" lebih than I can handle? I am not the one who looks miserable all the time atau barks out orders like they are a drill instructor. anda wait on me to screw up atau to let anda down.
House maybe that is why anda lied to me atau tried to get out of my birthday dinner. anda are just sabtoging this.
Again with the lying. Cuddy I did that to save my patient. I didn't tell anda afterwards because anda made a production out of me respecting your wishes. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt us. I didn't want to lose you.
I drugged your mother because I didn't want to spend the evening with her and her ranting. I didn't want to listen to Wilson whining.
For someone who didn't want me to change anda have done nothing but try to change me. I feel like I am on a tightrope.
Well anda can leave. anda don't have to be here. anda are free to leave anytime anda want. I have always survived. I cried myself to sleep many nights because of you. One lebih is not really a big deal.
He approached her and she tried to pull away but he held on. I don't want to leave Cuddy. I.....
We have everything but the truth Cuddy.
"Cuddy what is the truth?" He put his finger under her jaw and raised her face upward until their eyes met.
"I can't..................."
"Cuddy", the truth?
Her eyes were so full of fear and then she just berkata it.
I'm afraid!!! ok I am afraid.
anda are not the only one who is broken and screwed up. I am so in cinta with you. anda were my fantasi House. anda were in my head and now anda are in my............ And again the tears streamed down her face.
You're in my jantung now and I don't know how to deal with it. I know what it feels like to be touched oleh anda and how anda feel when anda make cinta to me and I can't imagine how that would feel if I...... if I lost........
He wrapped his arms around her little frame and sighed and as he began to speak a tear escaped his eyes.
Cuddy I was drowning in my self pity and my pills and anda put your faith in me and anda found a way to breathe life back into me. That chasm that we talked about a few years ago; anda turned a deaf ear to it and anda just dealt with me from your heart.
I am a different man now. I am here because I want to be here and I am trying to reach you. Cuddy come here to me.
Cuddy, "I cinta you. He led her to the piano and he began to play.
"Wilson had it sent over from his condo to Cuddy's." It was therapuetic for House and Wilson had bought for him.
As he played the tension in her body eased and she watched his hands pindah across the keys.
"That is beautiful House. What is it?
"Cuddy's Serenade." I composed it the night of Rachel's Simchat.
"What?"
I wrote it that night.
House I wanted to invite you. "I wanted anda there." I didn't know how to say it atau how to ask you.
There was a moment that I realized anda had always been there to save me Cuddy and anda took the hit and my wrath. I realized how much anda have diberikan up and sacrificed for me. anda put yourself out there for this hospital, patients, and for me.
I was so mad at anda about the surgery anda did but anda did it to save my life. anda knew I would be furious.
House did anda forgive me?
Cuddy anda have been there every step and took everything I had to dish out. The pertanyaan is now,
"can anda forgive me?"
"I cinta anda Cuddy." "The way anda draw your bottom lip in when anda want something and anda don't know how to ask for it. The way anda raise your eyebrow and square your shoulders when anda are trying to put your foot down. The way anda flirt with me and even the way anda look at me at the makan malam meja when I am getting ready to put your mother in her place."
"House", I thought anda wanted the night alone.
"That's the thing Cuddy." I am never alone. I don't feel alone and I like the way that feels. The only thing I could think of anyway was anda naked. So here I am.
"She laughed" and then she laughed harder. He watched her but then as he was watching her he just leaned into her. Cuddy I want you.
House anda always want sex.
No. I want you. I want anda to hear anda laugh. I want anda to stop preparing for defeat and open up to me. I want anda to wear low cut blouses to get my attention. I want anda to put me in my place when I am being a jerk. I want anda to let me in.
"House." And she drew her bottom lip in as she stood up. She raised up on her tip toes and she kissed him. She took his hand and led him to the bedroom and began to undress him and with all abandon she made cinta to him.
She left him breathless all night.
They were slowly forming a bond and they were beginnning to tampil they had the ability to bend and not break.
As the light came in from the morning sun they looked at each other and they realized this was a new hari and a chance to make history.
"Their history."
