Love...

lost
ALONE
INSUCURE
BLOOD DRIPPING DOWN MY FACE
BRUISES STINGING MY TRANSLUCENT BODY
DEATH CALLING ME
cinta DETACHING FROM ME
MY jantung BEING RIPPED FROM MY BODY
MY MUCSLES HURTING
A SICK FEELING IN MY STOMACH
IN THE FETAL POSISTION
TEARS ESCAPING MY EYES
MUSCLES TENSE
BARE FOOTED
SCABS BREAKING
ROOTS STABBING MY BODY
GLASS BROKEN
A PICTURE ON THE FLOOR
REMINDING ME OF MEMORYS
OF A FOREST
OF OUR OLD LIFE
WHEN anda LOVED ME
GRABBING A pisau
DRAWING BLOOD
FROM MY FACE
MY LIFE FLASHING BEFORE ME
THE PAIN OF EVERY SAD MOMENT
MADE ME MAKE MY DISSISION
I DREW THE pisau TO MY NECK
SLIT MY FLOAT
AND WATCHED THE BLOOD POOL AROUND ME
LIFE DRAWING OUT OF MY EYES
MY SOUL
RISING FROM MY BODY
GOD EMBRACING ME
THE LOOK IN YOUR EYES
WHEN anda FOUND ME
I WAS lost

Ok i have no clue why i am menulis this but I kinda cinta it so enjoy:)

















Hide from all
My sweet remembrance
To anda I beruang my soul

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance
to anda I sing this song

Hide low
hide high
hide far
hide low
the fear is rising
now go

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance
to anda I can't be lost

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance
To anda I can Love

Hide from fear
Hide from Sorrow
Hide from pain
Hide Shame
The climax is coming
Your Fame

Hide from all
my sweet remembrance

an old Poem I wrote its twilight though!










Her eyes just sparkled
tampilkan his reflection
tampilkan his angelic face
her eyes just sparkled
as he drew closer
as his mouth kissed her
her eyes just sparkled
knowing the truth
knowing that their cinta is eternal
knowing she chose the right one
her eyes sparkled
making time stand still
making blood lust stop
her eyes just saw him
She just wanted him
he kissed her again
forgetting his blood lust
his fight
Just ciuman her
and playing with her long blond hair
her perfect beutiful curls
Her eyes just sparkled
longing for him
he picked her up
running far
running into the distance
running fast
trees going oleh as a blur
as she held him
she loved him
he was hers
and he knew she was his malaikat
and forever she would be
she saved him
he forever loved her for that
she was perfect
she was his
so he ran on
sheltering her
from harm

This scene of light and color has amazed me, yes. The structure, beat, and rythmn all flow perfect, yes. But, the one thing wrong is that anda are not here. Not here to see it's beauty with me.
I stand alone in the color while my thoughts bleed from my mind. Oh how I wish that anda would come save me. Save me from this beauty. It continues these lights, they flash and dart across my face. Mocking me, and teasing of their freedom. The freedom they have to pindah and dance.
It is all that I do not have. That, and you. anda used to make the lights of my life dance and pindah and make the most beautiful array. Yet now all they do, these beautiful lights and colors, is bring me pain. I knew anda weren't coming, I know anda wont come. I know, and I knew, that anda never did. I've tried to forget you, Ive tried to pindah on. But, no, these lights and warna continue their eternal dance of mockery and mercilessness.

In the tremors of despair
anda see your life's fading away.
Now it seems like you've always known
that life anda have will always be the path of thorns,
You've seen it, oh, anda have seen it long ago
In the depths of your eyes.


Dark has never been so silent,
While the steps of death are too loud,
So dreadful for the hope that kadaluarsa slowly.
These moments of sorrow extinguished you,
Harrowing your mind, only the dark were there,
Misery and lonely death were calling your name.


Why is death so painful for others,
Yours has always been present,
In your thoughts, In your absence,
In this sadnees, in despair.

The hari is Ending
The sun is Setting
All is over
But i am sad

My jantung is still grey
My friends are mad at me
And i am still sad

I go to sleep
But i can not stop thinking of what i have done
Will my friends ever Forgive me
And i am still Sad

I Have hurt a friend and Choked another
What have i done
And i am still sad

Why have i done this why
I have been tricked
Betrayed even
oleh the Evil one
I must get him
Pay him for what he has done to me

When i have done so my friends will be happy
And so will i

In each street
In each lane
People who are rich
And people live in din.

And who lives in a lane
Wants to live in a garden
Suddenly much money they gain
And anda ask "How?" they say "A Win".


Our story
anda and me
People story
People stories
Are demeaned
And others keep on revilin'
This is our story.


And who's rich
Money goes away
Situations become decay
Life turns into misery

Thinks this was a dream
No, it's a nightmare
And asks "how come?"


Our story
anda and me
People story
People stories
Are demeaned
And others keep on revilin'
This is how our stories are.

I hear these crazy stories of people always hurting Not knowing what to do i stupidly ask "What can i do" They reply with "Idk" I say "Can i take your pain away cause thats all i know how to do" They say "Thats impossible that cannot be true" I say "I dont believe in impossible so the real pertanyaan is how cant it be true" They say "I wouldnt be able to live with myself if it wasnt for u so stop dreaming i cant let u thru i cant let u hurt the way i do" I say "Id smile thru the pain knowing it was for u and i cry cause u hurt now. The pain may be bad but it doesnt hurt as bad as seeing u beat so bad. I know it sounds crazy but all i dream about is caring for people so tell me to stop dreaming and my light will stop beaming. so can I" "Can u what" "Can i take your Pain Away?"
By: Alysia Batallas<3

SERENADE

So sweet the hour, so calm the time,
I feel it lebih than half a crime,
When Nature sleeps and stars are mute,
To mar the silence ev'n with lute.
At rest on ocean's brilliant dyes
An image of Elysium lies
Seven Pleiades entranced in Heaven,
Form in the deep another seven:
Endymion nodding from above
Sees in the sea a detik love.
Within the valleys dim and brown,
And on the spectral mountain's crown,
The wearied light is dying down,
And earth, and stars, and sea, and sky
Are redolent of sleep, as I
Am redolent of thee and thine
Enthralling love, my Adeline.
But list, O list, so soft and low
Thy lover's voice tonight shall flow,
That, scarce awake, thy soul shall deem
My words the musik of a dream.
Thus, while no single sound too rude
Upon thy slumber shall intrude,
Our thoughts, our souls O God above!
In every deed shall mingle, love.

Go to sleep if anda dare
No matter where anda go guilt will follow anda there
Don't be scared atau affraid
Guilt will tampil anda all the mistakes you've made
It can eat anda alive
The only way to survive is to tell the pahit truth
If anda live out the rest of your days
You'll never escape it you'll be trapped in it's maze
Struggling to forget the guilt in your shallow soul
That is forever rising like a api when anda add coal
Your guilt drives anda insane and follows anda forever
You'll go to your grave with it unless anda
Never tell another lie as long as anda live

The End

For Now Anyways

Don't Be Affraid

ROMANCE

Romance, who loves to nod and sing,
With drowsy head and folded wing,
Among the green leaves as they shake
Far down within some shadowy lake,
To me a painted paroquet
Hath been a most familiar bird
Taught me my alphabet to say
To lisp my very earliest word
While in the wild wood I did lie,
A child- with a most knowing eye.

Of late, eternal condor years
So shake the very Heaven on high
With tumult as they thunder by,
I have no time for idle cares
Through gazing on the unquiet sky.
And when an jam with calmer wings
Its down upon my spirit flings
That little time with lyre and rhyme
To while away- forbidden things !
My jantung would feel to be a crime
Unless it trembled with the strings.