Love...

As we grow up we leave behind the simple things... what would the world be if we just stayed in our lala land of childhood?

When do wobbley steps turn in to fearless sprints? How is it that our mothers kisses lose their powers when anda need them most? When does a modest squart turn in to a slutty skirt? At what point does sparkely eyeshadow fill in for water colours? And eye liner replaces markers? When did pakaian dalam wanita, celana turn in to lacey panties? Why must holding hand with a friend mean something more? At what age are we when rain boots get tossed aside for hooker boots? When did "I cinta anda mommy" turn in to screams of hatred for the woman who raised you? Why must our evil story book witches come alive as mean, self-centered bitches? How is it possible that some were in our lives we stopped drawing and making jantung and started to break and mend others hearts? Why must songs of joy and fun turn in to to raps of hate and pain?

I can't smile,
i can't think,
my mind is poisoned,
my mind is trapped...

So many thoughts,
the fear is coming,
it's waiting.

How strong are anda to
fight,
how weak are anda to
deny?

Don't find me,
i'd rather stay here,
so far away from
your ruthlessness.

Tears of despair
are calling your name,
and anda want to drag
me there...

The way anda possess me
is so cruel,
why don't anda leave me alone?

I'm not like the others,
they might be stronger
atau weaker,
it depends how anda
see it.

The darkness is all over,
poisoning my mind,
the fear is itching,
it's everywhere,
won't go away!

It stains my soul,
i'm shaking,
despair won't let me.

So many thoughts,
but nothing's resolved
yet,
it's just fear
holding me,
hauling me deeper
into its ruthlessness.

I don't want this,
so be gone,
anda live inside me,
but anda don't know.

Tears of despair
are calling your name,
they want to drive anda away,
so i could feel safe,
so i could be far away,
so far of your ruthlessness.

Wait on the sunset
pindah through your day
This quiet luar angkasa that anda fill

Here oleh a dark moon
Filled up from the rain in my eyes
My fingers are cold on your skin

Dream me away
Before the night becomes day
You'll see it all come true

This water is deep
anda go to sleep
And silently
Dream me away

I have a picture
It rests in my hand
I opened my window tonight

I have a feeling
It will be okay
My senses will guide me through

I'll dream us away
Before the night becomes day
I'll see it all come true

This water is deep
We’ll go to sleep
And silently dream us away

And silently dream
And silently
us
away
away...

A cold fog floats among the meadow
The moon above, full and bright, casts an eerie glow among the mist.

A gentle midnight breeze whistles through the winter trees
Waving ridgedly to the winter rhythm
The ground is hard from the freeze, the dirt cruches under your feet

In the distance a serigala howls, its haunting voice pierces your soul
The ghosts of the forest creep from the trees
Their cold embrace freezes anda to your core

Desperate to escape anda look into the shadows of the forest
A light in the distance softly shines, beckoning anda to gabung it.

anda run, ignoring the distorted screaming faces from the trees, desperate to reach the comforting light.

anda finally come to it, the light is bright, warm and welcoming
As anda get closer it engulfs you, sucking anda into its protective glow

Soon anda emerge into a different world but it is the same from where anda came

A mirror world...
Darkness to Light...

Once again, another one of my short yet dark poems...
I hope I don't cause any depression to anyone!
*NOTE* I am planning on menulis a lebih spiritual poem

Control


My life is controlled and I'll never know what its like to be free

I will never get out of this hole of sorrow and I will become burdened with a lifeless soul

I dont believe anything will change as I stay captive like an animal in its cage

The rage of my misery will never see the hari of freedom even though I long to fly above the trees to get away

But how can I if I am a prisoner?

I wasn't sure if I wanted to post this poem because it is quite personal but I figured why not...



Brother


Are anda my brother atau are anda a vicious stranger?
How could anda stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?

anda wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face anda portray nothing but lies and hate...

hari after hari anda throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...

No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and anda will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery

While anda will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you

(I'm just gonna put this here...)

The kupu-kupu on my wrist
Gave me a goodbye kiss.
I broke my promises
And now look at this.

Tonight I'll stay up late.
Four AM, still awake.
With my smiles so fake,
This will make her jantung break.

I know that I'm loved.
I always return your hugs,
But my thoughts are like thugs,
And the razor my drug.

This isn't the last time,
And I will pay for my crimes,
I'll pay for each self-made line,
But keep saying that I'm fine.

So tonight I'll sit and think.
From bitterness I will drink.
With the fading wounds pink,
And stains filling the sink.

If anda promise to stay,
Don't leave me atau push me away,
Then I promise to try.
I promise to not die.

I'll slow down just for you.
Because of all the things that anda do.
I will try to stop bleeding
If anda say "I cinta you" like anda mean it.

Once upon a time,
The beginning of all stories,
But this is not a story,
So once upon a life,

I saw a young and beautiful woman
Who wears a golden face,
And she has a shining smile
One stair at her & my jantung gets stolen,

I tried to stay away but I was blinded with only her image.
The image has your reflections, which makes me feel so free.

Pretending to know the future but yet the faith is endless.
As she turned n looked at me she became the deepest feeling.
I went to ask her name, and then I found it was you.

Theres beauty in his native world
Where broad-winged eagles fly.
The fences that encircle him
Are Mountains, stream and sky.
There's beauty in his regal heart
And in his gentle face,
And in the swiftness that combines
Such power, poise, and grace.
There's beauty in his noble stance
For it will always be
A part of all that untamed land
SO OPEN, WILD AND FREE

Credit to Herrmans Royal Lippizans Mayaka City,Florida

This was painted on the dinding of their lumbung, gudang
i really applied to the Lippizans they had there

What do anda do
when your strings are snapped
your roots detatched
your vesel cracked?

When you're filled with anger
Fear and hate?
And there's so much water
that anda sink?

atau when the metaphors
anda thought applied is bent
atau worse, snapped

The word jumbles
The thoughts collide
Until anda just cry

What do anda do then?
When your life is in pieces?
And people can see the real you

Will it kill you?
Knowing your carefully crafted wall
has tumbled
chunks of ruble flying everywhere

That ruble kills, so anda stay away
killing yourself
All you've known

Hate
Pain
Death

While my friends are out on the town

I stay halaman awal alone

All oleh myself

And no one calls the phone

Silence except the t.v on

Keeping me company

People think I'm lonely.

Yet, they don't understand

That I feel no void being alone

I enjoy it, so much

That it's become my crutch

I write

I draw

I use my mind for it all

Yet again

I wouldn't mind

To be invited somewhere.

Is it a problem that I like to be alone?

I don't think so

Yet others do

But once they're alone

They'll know not what to do

As for me,

I'll know what to do

I'll sleep, write, draw, atau watch movies

Because even though no one's there

I do not have a problem being alone.

hey there!

How are you?

How have anda been?

Life's been hard

Yet, I'm making it through.

I wish anda were here

To live with me

Like the good ole days

Like back when we were kids

And a little bit older

I miss you.

hey there!

It seems like it's been forever

How's life treating you?

How's the kids?

I would cinta to spend time

With anda again

Yet, time goes by

It seems so quick

It can steal your youth

atau your energy

I've been so busy

With work and what not

So please forgive me

For not calling atau emailing.


I missed you

Still miss you

I wrote to anda four years back

But anda never replied

So I was scared

That our friendship died.

Now I know

That it's not us

But it's just time

It won't slow down

It just keeps on.

So I'll conclude this conversation

oleh saying a goodbye

I know it can be painful

But I will see anda again

Someday.

My tears freely flow
Attempting to wash away the pain, the sorrow, the hate

The chrimson blood that flows hrough my vains boils causing an explosion

They say to trust, to just BeLIEve
But then they lie and double cross, shattering my heart

When all the tears have been cried,
and all the hate released

Then I'll be ok

Not todayNot tomorrow
You'll know when I'm ok

Any substancial cinta is gone
Set aflame oleh hate and lies

Love, gone, lost forever

Hate growing, remembered forever

Crying untill my eyes hurt
wishing anda were here

Wishing I was ok
Wishing anda were ok
Wishing WE were ok

Feeling your touch
Needing your touch
Regretting everything

Slowly dying

I'll never be ok