January 1st 2010
Dear Diary, my name is Cassandra (Cassie) Thorp and...
My new years resolutions are...
1. GET A BOYFRIEND!
2. Tell Gwen how much she owes me from last year.
3. Try not to spend hours staring at pictures of Henrie Green (my future husband).
4. Use lebih Clean and Clear.
5. Try to gain some weight.(I look anorexic)
6. Feed Pepsi.
7. Stop killing all the goldfish.
8. Shrink.
9. Don't smoke.
10. Earn lebih money.
Well, a new year, and I want this one to be better than the last, which is probably a pipe dream but... anda never know. I just wish Cerys and Tareesa and Amelia would except me into their group, which may be possible since I'm now good friends with Danielle, who is in that group. I may get invited to lebih parties. I'm making my new diary properally "punctual" if that's what I think it means. Well, I think it means use proper punctuation, so I had to spend time puting dots on the end of the sentences in my New Year's resolutions. It's tiring, my hand hurts already.
I'm 14 years old and I've only had two boyfriends. TWO! My little sister, who's twelve, has had lebih boyfriends than me! And she's in the populer crowd of her year! And she's really gorgeous. Her name's Madison, she doesn't like to be called Maddie, atau anything, but I do just to piss her off. It's Madison atau nothing with her friends.
I walked downstairs today to find my mother unconcious on the dapur floor. My father was in the shed. How fucking drunk could they get?! I'm now listening to "Ebay" the parody on my ipod touch and watching Take Me Out on my new LCD T.V which totally rocks. It's HD ready and everything. Built in Blu-Ray player. Wait, my favourite bit on the song's coming up.... "I'll buy... I'M HIGHEST BIDDER!" Oh my god, amazing!
Anyway... got to go now I'm exhausted. Woke up at two o' clock when I was meant to go to the Red Dragon Centre at three!
Dear Diary, my name is Cassandra (Cassie) Thorp and...
My new years resolutions are...
1. GET A BOYFRIEND!
2. Tell Gwen how much she owes me from last year.
3. Try not to spend hours staring at pictures of Henrie Green (my future husband).
4. Use lebih Clean and Clear.
5. Try to gain some weight.(I look anorexic)
6. Feed Pepsi.
7. Stop killing all the goldfish.
8. Shrink.
9. Don't smoke.
10. Earn lebih money.
Well, a new year, and I want this one to be better than the last, which is probably a pipe dream but... anda never know. I just wish Cerys and Tareesa and Amelia would except me into their group, which may be possible since I'm now good friends with Danielle, who is in that group. I may get invited to lebih parties. I'm making my new diary properally "punctual" if that's what I think it means. Well, I think it means use proper punctuation, so I had to spend time puting dots on the end of the sentences in my New Year's resolutions. It's tiring, my hand hurts already.
I'm 14 years old and I've only had two boyfriends. TWO! My little sister, who's twelve, has had lebih boyfriends than me! And she's in the populer crowd of her year! And she's really gorgeous. Her name's Madison, she doesn't like to be called Maddie, atau anything, but I do just to piss her off. It's Madison atau nothing with her friends.
I walked downstairs today to find my mother unconcious on the dapur floor. My father was in the shed. How fucking drunk could they get?! I'm now listening to "Ebay" the parody on my ipod touch and watching Take Me Out on my new LCD T.V which totally rocks. It's HD ready and everything. Built in Blu-Ray player. Wait, my favourite bit on the song's coming up.... "I'll buy... I'M HIGHEST BIDDER!" Oh my god, amazing!
Anyway... got to go now I'm exhausted. Woke up at two o' clock when I was meant to go to the Red Dragon Centre at three!
she unloads his gun
She and he waits for this
he releases his love
In blue and green orbs
she gives him lebih and more
A million miles away
A million years girl
In a black woven chest
he digs his nails deep
She trusts in him for what he does
live in a house in the suburbs
He kisses the pain with blood and light
sleeping it off in the morning
A million miles away
A million years girl
In her world of his
she unloads his gun
In a world of his
she covers the sun
A million miles away
A million years
A million years girl
Well anda see
I'm not myself anymore
Well anda can see
What I've done
Blinded myself
lost my direction
In this times
That are getting cold
In this moment
To behold
And shine
Here's a poem
For all the loved ones
Here's a grave
For all the dead
Here's the oxygen
For all the living
Here's a tissue
For tears that are shed
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
oleh Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
oleh myself
Well take your houses
Take your money
Take the things anda don't need
Live the life
You've always wanted
And then burn the memories
Take the good times and the bad
Take the happy maybe the sad
And turn, turn yourself around
I'm lost in my own fairytale
Where I'm the winner
All over again
in my daydreams I've lost all hope
All ambition
Looking and losing an only friend
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
oleh Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
oleh myself
I'm lost
I'm here
I'm lost here
oleh myself
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
oleh myself
oleh myself
I'm not myself anymore
Well anda can see
What I've done
Blinded myself
lost my direction
In this times
That are getting cold
In this moment
To behold
And shine
Here's a poem
For all the loved ones
Here's a grave
For all the dead
Here's the oxygen
For all the living
Here's a tissue
For tears that are shed
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
oleh Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
oleh myself
Well take your houses
Take your money
Take the things anda don't need
Live the life
You've always wanted
And then burn the memories
Take the good times and the bad
Take the happy maybe the sad
And turn, turn yourself around
I'm lost in my own fairytale
Where I'm the winner
All over again
in my daydreams I've lost all hope
All ambition
Looking and losing an only friend
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
oleh Myself
I'm gone now
I'm lost again
I'm lost
oleh myself
I'm lost
I'm here
I'm lost here
oleh myself
I'm lost now
I'm here now
I'm lost here
oleh myself
oleh myself