"Yum! This lasagna was amazing!" I berkata after dabbing my mouth with the folded napkin. Professor Rhinestone smiled, which was very unexpecting! I hadn't seen him smile in quite a while! "Well then, I should get to the dishes." I stood up from my chair and began to go towards the sink. "Ah! Soul, why don't I clean up, hmm?" I tilted my head. "Um, th-thank anda Professor.." As I walked away thoughts burst inside my mind. Why was professor being so much kinder than usual? Okay so first he excused me for making dinner, which I was totally fine of doing, than he smiles, than he insists on cleaning the dishes? I hope.. Nothing strange is going on..Not th-that I don't mind him doing all those nice things for me..
"Soul! Did anda finish your bath?" Professor Rhinestone walks in my bedroom doorway. I nod happily. "Yes! Thanks for making it extra warm! Its chilly out, y'know." Professor chuckled and sat on my bed. "Yes, so, just a acak question.. How.. Would anda feel if I made lebih Taoloid models?" I fell silent. Professor.. How could anda say such a thing?! ".....Why would you." I finally spoke, head down. "Well, its just a simple pertanyaan and if your wondering, we Professors cannot suddenly stop an invention over one of them, we must continue till we succeed." I interrupted, "But anda berkata I was the success over all of them!" He paused but continued. "May be, but Soul, do anda want me to end my career? I won't have any money to care for anda and I.. Plus, we need the life of Taoloid to grow! To populate! Don't anda want that, Soul?" I didn't know what to say after that. I was furious. "Leave me to sleep. Please." He agreed and left my room. I was smart enough to know if I was rude enough he would shut me down along with all the other models. I knew he would betray me, yet I admire him so..
"Yes, I told her straight out, Taine. Yes. Oh say, tomorrow evening? Sounds fine. Very well. Yes, she might not know all those details.. The details! No, the ones where we create the hybrids! I may not tell her that.. Good point.. Taine! I refuse to abandon her at such a young age! *sigh*, I know. Yes, agreed. Okay, goodbye." I heard it all. Professor Rhinestone was on the phone with his fellow co-worker, Taine.. They were going to create new models, but hybrids! Taoloids aren't suppose to be lebih than a human-figure! I.. I feel horrible. Professor.. I shall.. I shall destroy those hybrids as soon as they are made... To protect our dear relationship..
"Soul! Did anda finish your bath?" Professor Rhinestone walks in my bedroom doorway. I nod happily. "Yes! Thanks for making it extra warm! Its chilly out, y'know." Professor chuckled and sat on my bed. "Yes, so, just a acak question.. How.. Would anda feel if I made lebih Taoloid models?" I fell silent. Professor.. How could anda say such a thing?! ".....Why would you." I finally spoke, head down. "Well, its just a simple pertanyaan and if your wondering, we Professors cannot suddenly stop an invention over one of them, we must continue till we succeed." I interrupted, "But anda berkata I was the success over all of them!" He paused but continued. "May be, but Soul, do anda want me to end my career? I won't have any money to care for anda and I.. Plus, we need the life of Taoloid to grow! To populate! Don't anda want that, Soul?" I didn't know what to say after that. I was furious. "Leave me to sleep. Please." He agreed and left my room. I was smart enough to know if I was rude enough he would shut me down along with all the other models. I knew he would betray me, yet I admire him so..
"Yes, I told her straight out, Taine. Yes. Oh say, tomorrow evening? Sounds fine. Very well. Yes, she might not know all those details.. The details! No, the ones where we create the hybrids! I may not tell her that.. Good point.. Taine! I refuse to abandon her at such a young age! *sigh*, I know. Yes, agreed. Okay, goodbye." I heard it all. Professor Rhinestone was on the phone with his fellow co-worker, Taine.. They were going to create new models, but hybrids! Taoloids aren't suppose to be lebih than a human-figure! I.. I feel horrible. Professor.. I shall.. I shall destroy those hybrids as soon as they are made... To protect our dear relationship..
She crawls into a memory.
She sits, she cries, knees folded up to her chest.
Life is not like it used to be.
Why can't she enjoy life like she did before?
Because she had no life then, no identity.
She was what others told her to be.
She has learned.
She is gaining an identity.
She doesn't know who she is.
She only recently discovered that she didn't know,
That she had no life, no identity.
It's looking for her,
Coming slowly, across the sea.
She fears it will not find her.
It will wander in the darkness,
Searching, but never finding,
Never knowing how close it has come.
And she will never know it, even though she sees it, touches it, tastes it,
She will never be able to embrace it.
She keeps searching for she,
For her place to be,
To belong in this world, and to stand out.
I keep searching for me,
For my destiny,
For my identity.
She sits, she cries, knees folded up to her chest.
Life is not like it used to be.
Why can't she enjoy life like she did before?
Because she had no life then, no identity.
She was what others told her to be.
She has learned.
She is gaining an identity.
She doesn't know who she is.
She only recently discovered that she didn't know,
That she had no life, no identity.
It's looking for her,
Coming slowly, across the sea.
She fears it will not find her.
It will wander in the darkness,
Searching, but never finding,
Never knowing how close it has come.
And she will never know it, even though she sees it, touches it, tastes it,
She will never be able to embrace it.
She keeps searching for she,
For her place to be,
To belong in this world, and to stand out.
I keep searching for me,
For my destiny,
For my identity.
umm hey guys sorry i have not diposting anything in so long I got major menulis block and had to wait untill all of my expertise came back to me.
I seek a release
from the pain that I feel
Inside my jantung there is only
Anger, betrayal and sadness!
Lonliness is a terrible thing
with no-one to see the state that Im in
my head is spinning think im gonna be sick
oh please god
send me someone I can relate to
I cant trust my mum shes to far gone
cant trust my dad hes just an pantat, keledai
If i cant trust my family who can i trust?
Inside my chest is a hole
where my jantung once was
My mum cruelly tore it out
and then stamped all over it!
I was only a child
burdened with adult responsibilities!
and inside that hole
If anda can see past all of the scars
anda will see my suppresed heart!
I seek a release
from the pain that I feel
Inside my jantung there is only
Anger, betrayal and sadness!
Lonliness is a terrible thing
with no-one to see the state that Im in
my head is spinning think im gonna be sick
oh please god
send me someone I can relate to
I cant trust my mum shes to far gone
cant trust my dad hes just an pantat, keledai
If i cant trust my family who can i trust?
Inside my chest is a hole
where my jantung once was
My mum cruelly tore it out
and then stamped all over it!
I was only a child
burdened with adult responsibilities!
and inside that hole
If anda can see past all of the scars
anda will see my suppresed heart!
The Universaty's Library (Biblioteca Joanina in portuguese)
