I'm thinking of anda in my sleepless solitude tonight...
Becoming tangled in sheets of satin, I rolled to my side and slowly opened an eye, spotting the black outline of a figure lingering in the doorway. Confused, I propped myself up on an elbow and squinted, trying to make out the figure in the darkness. "Matthew?" I called out softly, pulling the sheets up to cover exposed flesh. The figure moved closer without a word, shutting the bedroom door. For a moment I questioned whether atau not the illusions had returned. While I wasn't seeing Lex, I was thinking of him. Fear and anxiety washed over me until the suspense became too much.
My senses somehow heightened as the shadow stood motionless. That familiar fragrance of his body suddenly came to me, and without second-guessing my actions, I held my arms out to him - beckoning him. Hesitantly the shadow stood at the center of the room, but within a matter of detik he wrapped his arms around me, my own arms snaking around him in retaliation, and his lips collided with mine, sending me backwards into the pool of sheets awaiting us. Heated kisses built on the excitement and I found myself touching his face with feathered caresses. At last, he spoke to me. "Jamie," he whispered, my eyes envisioning him in the darkness. I pressed a mile long finger to his thinly shaped lips, quieting him.
On their own accord, my fingers roamed every inch of skin above me until I felt the hem of his shirt. I tugged once, twice, three times before pulling it up and over his head, tossing it mindlessly to the floor beside us. The room seemed to be on the verge of one hundred degrees before we both stripped of every artikel of clothing adhering to our bodies. Soon his chest suffocated mine, stomach to stomach, holding each other like never before. His mouth traveled down the side of my neck and I closed my eyes, sucking in a deep breath.
I'd risk my life to feel your body selanjutnya to mine...
With each thrust of his hips, each ciuman teasing my skin, I sunk deeper and deeper into an ocean of indescribable pleasure - pleasure I never knew existed. Soft cries of perfect rapture consumed me, unable to control the rhythm of my hips matching in time with his. My fingertips glided across the slickness of his back, taking note of every muscular groove tightening and relaxing. He rolled and I followed, steadying myself with hands pressed firmly to his chest. The feel of his fingers gripping my waist sent me into overdrive, foolish to desire something different for even a second.
I flattened a hand against the headboard before me, bringing myself to a climax so toe-curling, it left me gasping for a single breath to refuel. He lifted himself to hold me, my body shaking from the unfamiliar intensity it experienced. I soon relaxed enough to nestle close to him, listening to his heartbeat. A few soft strokes tickled my back before I felt his fingers close around a stray lock of hair. I wanted to tell him everything, everything I wanted to say all along, but I was speechless. Perhaps words weren't necessary. My right hand trailed to his stomach, trying to convince myself it was real. He was real, and he was here with me.
I can see anda clearly, vividly emblazoned in my mind...
A groan of frustration awakened me as I rolled over to face the sunlight pouring through the curtains of my bedroom. I had trouble recalling the sebelumnya night; was it all a dream, atau was it reality? It seemed my entire life was nothing but a giant blur nowadays. Protesting against myself but failing miserably, I sat up in tempat tidur and glanced to my left. There Matthew slept soundlessly, his chest rising and falling in a way that made me shiver. Every range of emotion stirred inside me as I watched him, returning to the warm indentation my figure created during the course of the night. I immediately felt myself lose control, unable to prevent the tears that slowly trickled their way down my cheeks. A hand gently cupped his face. I shook my head, struggling to suppress a sigh, and gazed at him. With that morning's arrival, the vision of Alexander had departed.
Becoming tangled in sheets of satin, I rolled to my side and slowly opened an eye, spotting the black outline of a figure lingering in the doorway. Confused, I propped myself up on an elbow and squinted, trying to make out the figure in the darkness. "Matthew?" I called out softly, pulling the sheets up to cover exposed flesh. The figure moved closer without a word, shutting the bedroom door. For a moment I questioned whether atau not the illusions had returned. While I wasn't seeing Lex, I was thinking of him. Fear and anxiety washed over me until the suspense became too much.
My senses somehow heightened as the shadow stood motionless. That familiar fragrance of his body suddenly came to me, and without second-guessing my actions, I held my arms out to him - beckoning him. Hesitantly the shadow stood at the center of the room, but within a matter of detik he wrapped his arms around me, my own arms snaking around him in retaliation, and his lips collided with mine, sending me backwards into the pool of sheets awaiting us. Heated kisses built on the excitement and I found myself touching his face with feathered caresses. At last, he spoke to me. "Jamie," he whispered, my eyes envisioning him in the darkness. I pressed a mile long finger to his thinly shaped lips, quieting him.
On their own accord, my fingers roamed every inch of skin above me until I felt the hem of his shirt. I tugged once, twice, three times before pulling it up and over his head, tossing it mindlessly to the floor beside us. The room seemed to be on the verge of one hundred degrees before we both stripped of every artikel of clothing adhering to our bodies. Soon his chest suffocated mine, stomach to stomach, holding each other like never before. His mouth traveled down the side of my neck and I closed my eyes, sucking in a deep breath.
I'd risk my life to feel your body selanjutnya to mine...
With each thrust of his hips, each ciuman teasing my skin, I sunk deeper and deeper into an ocean of indescribable pleasure - pleasure I never knew existed. Soft cries of perfect rapture consumed me, unable to control the rhythm of my hips matching in time with his. My fingertips glided across the slickness of his back, taking note of every muscular groove tightening and relaxing. He rolled and I followed, steadying myself with hands pressed firmly to his chest. The feel of his fingers gripping my waist sent me into overdrive, foolish to desire something different for even a second.
I flattened a hand against the headboard before me, bringing myself to a climax so toe-curling, it left me gasping for a single breath to refuel. He lifted himself to hold me, my body shaking from the unfamiliar intensity it experienced. I soon relaxed enough to nestle close to him, listening to his heartbeat. A few soft strokes tickled my back before I felt his fingers close around a stray lock of hair. I wanted to tell him everything, everything I wanted to say all along, but I was speechless. Perhaps words weren't necessary. My right hand trailed to his stomach, trying to convince myself it was real. He was real, and he was here with me.
I can see anda clearly, vividly emblazoned in my mind...
A groan of frustration awakened me as I rolled over to face the sunlight pouring through the curtains of my bedroom. I had trouble recalling the sebelumnya night; was it all a dream, atau was it reality? It seemed my entire life was nothing but a giant blur nowadays. Protesting against myself but failing miserably, I sat up in tempat tidur and glanced to my left. There Matthew slept soundlessly, his chest rising and falling in a way that made me shiver. Every range of emotion stirred inside me as I watched him, returning to the warm indentation my figure created during the course of the night. I immediately felt myself lose control, unable to prevent the tears that slowly trickled their way down my cheeks. A hand gently cupped his face. I shook my head, struggling to suppress a sigh, and gazed at him. With that morning's arrival, the vision of Alexander had departed.
It’s the color of you
anda always wore it
It’s the color we shared
As we hid form them
With it we showed our true selves,
Though no one cared
Our jeruk, orange book bags
Saved us from some pain
We protected each other
But it wasn’t enough
We were like two jeruk, orange crayons
When everyone else was green
Then anda left me alone,
All I had was our color orange
As they hit me
I took peace in knowing
anda were in the jeruk, orange field in the sky
anda always berkata was there.
The jeruk, orange of the sun set
Is your smile
Even though anda left too soon
Orange…
Now it’s my color
My way of remembering you
Now I am the lone jeruk, orange in the rainbow
Without anda here
I protect my own
Though I wish anda were here
Now jeruk, orange is my color
A color for anda bravery
A color for my survival
jeruk, orange will forever be our color
Even though death took anda away
Forever jeruk, orange for you,
Sweet Cassidy.
anda always wore it
It’s the color we shared
As we hid form them
With it we showed our true selves,
Though no one cared
Our jeruk, orange book bags
Saved us from some pain
We protected each other
But it wasn’t enough
We were like two jeruk, orange crayons
When everyone else was green
Then anda left me alone,
All I had was our color orange
As they hit me
I took peace in knowing
anda were in the jeruk, orange field in the sky
anda always berkata was there.
The jeruk, orange of the sun set
Is your smile
Even though anda left too soon
Orange…
Now it’s my color
My way of remembering you
Now I am the lone jeruk, orange in the rainbow
Without anda here
I protect my own
Though I wish anda were here
Now jeruk, orange is my color
A color for anda bravery
A color for my survival
jeruk, orange will forever be our color
Even though death took anda away
Forever jeruk, orange for you,
Sweet Cassidy.
Your jantung is sore, crippled up like paper.
Your voice is weak, barely passing oleh you.
Your body is tired, let it lay for tonight.
anda are but you- a stranger to much.
No one cares to know you.
They do not wish to after all.
And all those times anda told everything-
It was a lie, I cinta anda became a lie. A horrible lie not one can ever take back to you. How could they, breaking your very soul to the apple's wrinkled core? It shook and broke, just like that. Lonesome and ever so exhausted of even thinking it would be different this time around.
You're so hopeless. anda probably cannot pindah away from the pain, the desecration left in the path at the end. Then again, in the end it probably doesn't even matter, does it?
Once a joy, now a misery forever scared, alone.
Your voice is weak, barely passing oleh you.
Your body is tired, let it lay for tonight.
anda are but you- a stranger to much.
No one cares to know you.
They do not wish to after all.
And all those times anda told everything-
It was a lie, I cinta anda became a lie. A horrible lie not one can ever take back to you. How could they, breaking your very soul to the apple's wrinkled core? It shook and broke, just like that. Lonesome and ever so exhausted of even thinking it would be different this time around.
You're so hopeless. anda probably cannot pindah away from the pain, the desecration left in the path at the end. Then again, in the end it probably doesn't even matter, does it?
Once a joy, now a misery forever scared, alone.
I walk into
The Fields of Sorrow
Once again.
Why do I walk there
Almost everyday?
I stroll along the grasses
Thinking
Bearing a horrible pain.
I think of the world around me
And how much they have inspired me.
I start to cry once again.
All my teachers
All my friends,
They have always stood oleh me,
When things went wrong.
I want a chance to repay them,
To tampil them that...
Their work was useful.
To tampil them that
I am truly thankful.
Why do I have to leave them then
Now?
No, now's not a good time.
But I know it was not intended
That I leave them now.
I want to tampil all those people
That they have been
The change of my life,
That they have made my life so much
Better,
That they were the flames
In the darkness.
The Fields of Sorrow
Once again.
Why do I walk there
Almost everyday?
I stroll along the grasses
Thinking
Bearing a horrible pain.
I think of the world around me
And how much they have inspired me.
I start to cry once again.
All my teachers
All my friends,
They have always stood oleh me,
When things went wrong.
I want a chance to repay them,
To tampil them that...
Their work was useful.
To tampil them that
I am truly thankful.
Why do I have to leave them then
Now?
No, now's not a good time.
But I know it was not intended
That I leave them now.
I want to tampil all those people
That they have been
The change of my life,
That they have made my life so much
Better,
That they were the flames
In the darkness.
Some of anda may go through life,
Thinking something,
That is,
Who the hero is in your life.
I am one of those people.
But what I found is that
Even though many people are major influences
On my success in life
Such as my closest friends,
My teachers,
My parents,
Those serving for our country,
Others around me,
atau even my worst enemies.
This tahun I have found that
The hero that I have
Is no one else
But me.
My hero is myself.
I inspire myself to do everything I do.
I am the light of my life.
Thinking something,
That is,
Who the hero is in your life.
I am one of those people.
But what I found is that
Even though many people are major influences
On my success in life
Such as my closest friends,
My teachers,
My parents,
Those serving for our country,
Others around me,
atau even my worst enemies.
This tahun I have found that
The hero that I have
Is no one else
But me.
My hero is myself.
I inspire myself to do everything I do.
I am the light of my life.
Why,
Is everyone being so cruel
Everyone is abusing each other
It seems like there is no good at all
In this world.
Why is everyone
Leaving me out of everything
Like I am this puppet with no string
I feel out of place,
And I am sure other people feel the same
I have searched for all these years
Someone special
Who would lead me through
The darkness
And all of my troubles would fade away.
Someone that would be named,
"My Hero."
I found who she was this year
And it was extremely unexpected,
Because...
No one else is my hero.
My hero is myself.
Is everyone being so cruel
Everyone is abusing each other
It seems like there is no good at all
In this world.
Why is everyone
Leaving me out of everything
Like I am this puppet with no string
I feel out of place,
And I am sure other people feel the same
I have searched for all these years
Someone special
Who would lead me through
The darkness
And all of my troubles would fade away.
Someone that would be named,
"My Hero."
I found who she was this year
And it was extremely unexpected,
Because...
No one else is my hero.
My hero is myself.
