CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 menit and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the detik most powerful vampire in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving atau breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are anda thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I berkata again with lebih convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known anda for almost for 8 years. Don’t anda dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are anda sure anda want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. anda asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed anda and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous vampire in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. anda guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful vampire one oleh one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a menit rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in tempat tidur and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t anda dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t anda dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I berkata was right.” I screamed. “Don’t anda DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just oleh the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know anda don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, anda have not failed. anda have won. anda have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, anda belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed anda have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make anda a crazy monster. It makes anda the wife that I cinta and makes anda the amazing mother anda are. It makes anda the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if anda had to take down Aro and anda won. Though let us help anda when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, anda are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that anda are not alone. That anda have a whole big family downstairs and anda have Neisse and I. I will always be oleh your side. If anda let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble anda are in. anda got to help. Even though what anda did out there was killer. It was amazing. anda got to teach me how to do some of that crap anda did.” I laughed and berkata maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from anda missy. I understand anda are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn anda were when anda pushed us all away. Though just because anda as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy beruang that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the cinta had for my favorit brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about anda come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I cinta anda baby girl” I berkata and hugged her again. Edward sat down selanjutnya to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 menit later
Everyone filled into the room taking any kursi available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is cinta and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 menit and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the detik most powerful vampire in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving atau breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are anda thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I berkata again with lebih convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known anda for almost for 8 years. Don’t anda dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are anda sure anda want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. anda asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed anda and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous vampire in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. anda guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful vampire one oleh one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a menit rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in tempat tidur and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t anda dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t anda dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I berkata was right.” I screamed. “Don’t anda DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just oleh the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know anda don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, anda have not failed. anda have won. anda have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, anda belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed anda have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make anda a crazy monster. It makes anda the wife that I cinta and makes anda the amazing mother anda are. It makes anda the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if anda had to take down Aro and anda won. Though let us help anda when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, anda are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that anda are not alone. That anda have a whole big family downstairs and anda have Neisse and I. I will always be oleh your side. If anda let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble anda are in. anda got to help. Even though what anda did out there was killer. It was amazing. anda got to teach me how to do some of that crap anda did.” I laughed and berkata maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from anda missy. I understand anda are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn anda were when anda pushed us all away. Though just because anda as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy beruang that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the cinta had for my favorit brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about anda come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I cinta anda baby girl” I berkata and hugged her again. Edward sat down selanjutnya to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 menit later
Everyone filled into the room taking any kursi available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is cinta and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
As Close To Tristan As I Can Get.
Preface:
I lived alone in this neverending universe.
It wasn't fair being the only one of your kind. It wasn't fair to have no one to talk to atau relate to. I'm scared, even though I'm stronger than any other human atau animal, I had no choice of this life but sometimes i didn't mind it. I had forever to find a family atau friends, but i wasn't going to wait that long. I didn't have to wait really but I didn't wont those people to end up like me atau even worse I didn't want to kill them in the process. But if I wanted a better life than sitting around and wasting it I had to try, succeed atau not I would still keep trying.
I hope anda like the start of my new story Midnight crest. Plz komentar and rate.
Thanks for reading. Stepphy XD
I lived alone in this neverending universe.
It wasn't fair being the only one of your kind. It wasn't fair to have no one to talk to atau relate to. I'm scared, even though I'm stronger than any other human atau animal, I had no choice of this life but sometimes i didn't mind it. I had forever to find a family atau friends, but i wasn't going to wait that long. I didn't have to wait really but I didn't wont those people to end up like me atau even worse I didn't want to kill them in the process. But if I wanted a better life than sitting around and wasting it I had to try, succeed atau not I would still keep trying.
I hope anda like the start of my new story Midnight crest. Plz komentar and rate.
Thanks for reading. Stepphy XD
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2.I went to do my first big movie when I was 17. I was in South Africa for three and half months, and I was oleh myself.
3.I was just taking out my trash and I had, like, 300 cans of Diet Coke. It was just like, "How did that happen?" I don't even remember buying them. I also like Cinnamon roti panggang Crunch. My addictions are pretty much the only things I consume.
4.I've got a terrible memory -- I end up repeating myself quite a lot. The only thing I can remember is that I'm going to repeat myself!
