part 25
It took me a few menit to realize that I was sitting lebih atau less calmly, while a vampire (Esme) had her arm around me. I couldn't beleive it. Had I lost my instincts? Or, lebih terrifying still, was I beginning to trust this vampire? I supposed if I was going to trust one of them it would be her. She was always so sweet and had lebih than enough cinta to go around. I supposed I was beginning to trust her a bit. Of course, I knew there were things that would push her to hurt me. She loved her kids and she would do anything to help them, yet I knew I would have warning. I was nearly positive that Esme would not attack me suddenly.
It was remarkable. I trusted a vampire. Edward had a huge smile on his face, like he was happy that I trusted his mother. I caught a small bit of his thoughts; he thought I might soon grow to cinta her.
It was true. I was beginning to cinta Esme Cullen. Her golden eyes were continually warm. I still worried about offending her, but now only a part of that was avoiding angry vampires. Part of it was not wanting to hurt her feelings. I felt deeply ashamed of myself when I thought I might have berkata something that hurt her.
I was beginning to think she was fond of me. That all of them were fond of me. I'd been a week and a half. I didn't want to overstay my welcome. Whenever I mentioned leaving, they mentioned staying another few months. I saw the point. I still hadn't learned how to cope with certain serigala tendencies.
The serigala visited often. If they drove, it took them about an jam to get from their houses to the vampires. The Cullens used to live right near the reservation, but had moved. Carlisle looked too old and Renesmee had been seen oleh some friends of Bella's father. Renesmee grew fast. I didn't know exactly how fast, but it seemed much lebih regular than my sporadic aging.
Before long, I was finding that I trusted a few of the vampire a little bit. A very little bit. Carlisle, Bella and Rosalie were pretty close to Esme. Renesmee was up at least as high as Esme. I also trusted the wolves, in a way. Especially Leah. Sometimes, I trusted Jacob and Seth. Seth was the easiest to talk to. I was beginning to beleive he thought of me almost like a sister. He was always kind and would always invite me to come when Renesmee hung out with the wolves.
I could never decide whether I trusted Alice. Living part of her time in the future seemed to have affected her whole worldview. She was very difficult to understand. The one thing I'd found about Alice is that she always had a good reason for what she did. So, in a way, I trusted her. Yet her loyalties lied with her family. If she ever decided that I was in the way she might be lebih deadly than the strongest of them.
I knew Jasper and Emmett would not hesitate to hurt me if the need called for it. If they would do what was necessary to protect Seth, how much lebih violent would they be when it came to their mates, siblings, niece and parents? I would not survive. The one thing I couldn't understand was why Jasper and Emmett hadn't annihilated me the night I attacked Seth. It was almost as baffling as the fact that Seth hadn't defended himself. He's barely pulled his hand away. I figured Seth didn't have it in him to kill, atau was too shocked at the moment to retaliate. But Jasper and Emmett did have it in them and they seemed to want to hurt me as little as possible. Were they fond of me like a few of the others were? Was I fond of either of them? I'd already decided I was fond of Esme, Rosalie, Renesmee, Bella and perhaps Alice. Then there was also Carlisle. With Carlisle, I never worried about whether he would hurt me. I didn't care that much.
I'd realized on the night I attacked Seth how much I sought Carlisle's approval. Sometimes, I could still hear his firm voice "Juliet, anda must stop right now." I didn't want him to chide me again. I was willing to work very hard to avoid that. Even when it wasn't directed at me, hearing him use even a slightly firm tone made my stomach clench and my ribs always felt like they were burning. It seemed to have a similar affect on his children. Of course, I didn't know if their stomachs clenched, but no one wanted him to be upset. Carlisle didn't use a firm tone often and the firmness disappeared quickly. Usually, the firm tone came out when the children were fighting amongst themselves atau when they accidentally destroyed some furniture atau decoration. Carlisle knew that Esme worked hard to make the house beautiful and didn't want her work to go to waste.
I was sleeping a bit better than I'd been before, but the longer I stayed with the vampire the worse my dreams became. I made up my mind to leave the selanjutnya week, but not to announce my intentions until the hari before. Neither Alice nor Edward had caught me yet. I was worried though, because Rosalie and Alice were dragging Bella and her daughter on a shopping trip, leaving me exposed to Edward. I'd been invited to go with them, but decided to give them time together.
Jasper and Emmett decided to go hunting. Carlisle was at the hospital and Esme had gone with him because they were going hunting together when Carlisle got off. I decided to go to bed. Partly because I might sleep better with less vampire in the house and partly so I wouldn't have to watch my thoughts around Edward. I fell asleep within a few minutes.
Carlisle and Esme thought of me almost as their daughter and they loved me. Then, I blew it. All the vampire hated me as they turned me out of the house. Some of them attacked like vampires, but a few did something else. Esme backed away from me like I was something repulsive. Renesmee was about to place her hand on my face to tampil me something, then changed her mind and pushed me back several paces. Rosalie spit on me, her eyes cold and Edward backhanded me into the far wall, anger burning in his eyes. Carlisle walked up to me as I whimpered on the floor "Juliet, I never want anda near this family again. We will use Alice to make sure we don't run into you, but it is your responsibility not to come looking for us. anda have three menit to pack up and leave. Take what anda want, but don't talk to my family."
When I woke up I immediately started crying. I looked up "Carlisle" He was holding me, and rocking me slightly. He spoke to me in a soothing, but concerned voice "Shh... it's not your dad it's Carlisle, but you're safe. It was only a dream." I realized I hadn't berkata "Carlisle" when I'd seen him. I'd berkata "Dad". I couldn't believe myself. The poor man was just trying to be nice. Take care of the freak tampil human's ribs and let her stay awhile. Now I'd latched on like a leech. He was probably ruing the hari he'd asked me to stay the first time.
I realized that Esme was there too. She had one hand one Carlisle's shoulder and the other on mine. I smiled slightly at her. Edward was watching from the doorway, smiling. "Did anda have a nice time hunting?" I found myself asking. What kind of a pertanyaan was that? Mostly I just wanted to hear their voices. My nightmare was still scaring me as I struggled to rejoin reality. "We didn't go. Edward came and told us of your nightmare" Carlisle explained. That didn't make any sense. "None of us will ever hurt you" Esme berkata fiercely. Then, she spoke lebih to herself than to me "You're aman, brankas my daughter" I froze.
Did she just call me her daughter? Edward came in the room and sat down. He gave Carlisle a significant look. In response, Carlisle talked to me "You're welcome to stay here as long as you'd like to. We will try to take care of anda whether atau not anda stay. anda are already like family to us." He berkata it as though it was obvious, but to me it seemed like a revelation. My nightmare was lebih realistic than this reality. "Will anda stay with us longer?" Esme asked, as if terribly afraid that I would say no.
They cared about me? Like family? Maybe they even thought of me as their freak tampil human cousin atau something. Esme had even mentioned daughter. I nodded my head joyfully and squeezed Carlisle slightly like a small child.
Then my senses returned. In flooded a thousand objections. Edward frowned and sighed. His cellphone rang. He answered it as he walked out the room "Hello Alice". Of course: Alice must be seeing confusing visions now. Carlisle smiled at me "You will stay?" What had I gotten myself into? lebih importantly, could I get myself out?
It took me a few menit to realize that I was sitting lebih atau less calmly, while a vampire (Esme) had her arm around me. I couldn't beleive it. Had I lost my instincts? Or, lebih terrifying still, was I beginning to trust this vampire? I supposed if I was going to trust one of them it would be her. She was always so sweet and had lebih than enough cinta to go around. I supposed I was beginning to trust her a bit. Of course, I knew there were things that would push her to hurt me. She loved her kids and she would do anything to help them, yet I knew I would have warning. I was nearly positive that Esme would not attack me suddenly.
It was remarkable. I trusted a vampire. Edward had a huge smile on his face, like he was happy that I trusted his mother. I caught a small bit of his thoughts; he thought I might soon grow to cinta her.
It was true. I was beginning to cinta Esme Cullen. Her golden eyes were continually warm. I still worried about offending her, but now only a part of that was avoiding angry vampires. Part of it was not wanting to hurt her feelings. I felt deeply ashamed of myself when I thought I might have berkata something that hurt her.
I was beginning to think she was fond of me. That all of them were fond of me. I'd been a week and a half. I didn't want to overstay my welcome. Whenever I mentioned leaving, they mentioned staying another few months. I saw the point. I still hadn't learned how to cope with certain serigala tendencies.
The serigala visited often. If they drove, it took them about an jam to get from their houses to the vampires. The Cullens used to live right near the reservation, but had moved. Carlisle looked too old and Renesmee had been seen oleh some friends of Bella's father. Renesmee grew fast. I didn't know exactly how fast, but it seemed much lebih regular than my sporadic aging.
Before long, I was finding that I trusted a few of the vampire a little bit. A very little bit. Carlisle, Bella and Rosalie were pretty close to Esme. Renesmee was up at least as high as Esme. I also trusted the wolves, in a way. Especially Leah. Sometimes, I trusted Jacob and Seth. Seth was the easiest to talk to. I was beginning to beleive he thought of me almost like a sister. He was always kind and would always invite me to come when Renesmee hung out with the wolves.
I could never decide whether I trusted Alice. Living part of her time in the future seemed to have affected her whole worldview. She was very difficult to understand. The one thing I'd found about Alice is that she always had a good reason for what she did. So, in a way, I trusted her. Yet her loyalties lied with her family. If she ever decided that I was in the way she might be lebih deadly than the strongest of them.
I knew Jasper and Emmett would not hesitate to hurt me if the need called for it. If they would do what was necessary to protect Seth, how much lebih violent would they be when it came to their mates, siblings, niece and parents? I would not survive. The one thing I couldn't understand was why Jasper and Emmett hadn't annihilated me the night I attacked Seth. It was almost as baffling as the fact that Seth hadn't defended himself. He's barely pulled his hand away. I figured Seth didn't have it in him to kill, atau was too shocked at the moment to retaliate. But Jasper and Emmett did have it in them and they seemed to want to hurt me as little as possible. Were they fond of me like a few of the others were? Was I fond of either of them? I'd already decided I was fond of Esme, Rosalie, Renesmee, Bella and perhaps Alice. Then there was also Carlisle. With Carlisle, I never worried about whether he would hurt me. I didn't care that much.
I'd realized on the night I attacked Seth how much I sought Carlisle's approval. Sometimes, I could still hear his firm voice "Juliet, anda must stop right now." I didn't want him to chide me again. I was willing to work very hard to avoid that. Even when it wasn't directed at me, hearing him use even a slightly firm tone made my stomach clench and my ribs always felt like they were burning. It seemed to have a similar affect on his children. Of course, I didn't know if their stomachs clenched, but no one wanted him to be upset. Carlisle didn't use a firm tone often and the firmness disappeared quickly. Usually, the firm tone came out when the children were fighting amongst themselves atau when they accidentally destroyed some furniture atau decoration. Carlisle knew that Esme worked hard to make the house beautiful and didn't want her work to go to waste.
I was sleeping a bit better than I'd been before, but the longer I stayed with the vampire the worse my dreams became. I made up my mind to leave the selanjutnya week, but not to announce my intentions until the hari before. Neither Alice nor Edward had caught me yet. I was worried though, because Rosalie and Alice were dragging Bella and her daughter on a shopping trip, leaving me exposed to Edward. I'd been invited to go with them, but decided to give them time together.
Jasper and Emmett decided to go hunting. Carlisle was at the hospital and Esme had gone with him because they were going hunting together when Carlisle got off. I decided to go to bed. Partly because I might sleep better with less vampire in the house and partly so I wouldn't have to watch my thoughts around Edward. I fell asleep within a few minutes.
Carlisle and Esme thought of me almost as their daughter and they loved me. Then, I blew it. All the vampire hated me as they turned me out of the house. Some of them attacked like vampires, but a few did something else. Esme backed away from me like I was something repulsive. Renesmee was about to place her hand on my face to tampil me something, then changed her mind and pushed me back several paces. Rosalie spit on me, her eyes cold and Edward backhanded me into the far wall, anger burning in his eyes. Carlisle walked up to me as I whimpered on the floor "Juliet, I never want anda near this family again. We will use Alice to make sure we don't run into you, but it is your responsibility not to come looking for us. anda have three menit to pack up and leave. Take what anda want, but don't talk to my family."
When I woke up I immediately started crying. I looked up "Carlisle" He was holding me, and rocking me slightly. He spoke to me in a soothing, but concerned voice "Shh... it's not your dad it's Carlisle, but you're safe. It was only a dream." I realized I hadn't berkata "Carlisle" when I'd seen him. I'd berkata "Dad". I couldn't believe myself. The poor man was just trying to be nice. Take care of the freak tampil human's ribs and let her stay awhile. Now I'd latched on like a leech. He was probably ruing the hari he'd asked me to stay the first time.
I realized that Esme was there too. She had one hand one Carlisle's shoulder and the other on mine. I smiled slightly at her. Edward was watching from the doorway, smiling. "Did anda have a nice time hunting?" I found myself asking. What kind of a pertanyaan was that? Mostly I just wanted to hear their voices. My nightmare was still scaring me as I struggled to rejoin reality. "We didn't go. Edward came and told us of your nightmare" Carlisle explained. That didn't make any sense. "None of us will ever hurt you" Esme berkata fiercely. Then, she spoke lebih to herself than to me "You're aman, brankas my daughter" I froze.
Did she just call me her daughter? Edward came in the room and sat down. He gave Carlisle a significant look. In response, Carlisle talked to me "You're welcome to stay here as long as you'd like to. We will try to take care of anda whether atau not anda stay. anda are already like family to us." He berkata it as though it was obvious, but to me it seemed like a revelation. My nightmare was lebih realistic than this reality. "Will anda stay with us longer?" Esme asked, as if terribly afraid that I would say no.
They cared about me? Like family? Maybe they even thought of me as their freak tampil human cousin atau something. Esme had even mentioned daughter. I nodded my head joyfully and squeezed Carlisle slightly like a small child.
Then my senses returned. In flooded a thousand objections. Edward frowned and sighed. His cellphone rang. He answered it as he walked out the room "Hello Alice". Of course: Alice must be seeing confusing visions now. Carlisle smiled at me "You will stay?" What had I gotten myself into? lebih importantly, could I get myself out?
