*by Stephenie Meyer*
TWILIGHT - chapter 14 - MIND OVER MATTER
A long menit passed. I listened, not sure if I'd heard the door close. Then Edward's cool arm was around me, under the covers, his lips at my ear.
"You are a terrible actress - I'd say that career path is out for you."
"Darn it," I muttered. My jantung was crashing in my chest.
He hummed a melody I didn't recognize; it sounded like a lullaby.
He paused. "Should I sing anda to sleep?"
"Right," I laughed. "Like I could sleep with anda here!"
"You do it all the time," he reminded me.
"But I didn't know anda were here," I replied icily.
"So if anda don't want to sleep...," he suggested, ignoring my tone. My breath caught.
"If I don't want to sleep...?"
He chuckled. "What do anda want to do then?"
I couldn't answer at first.
"I'm not sure," I finally said.
"Tell me when anda decide."
I could feel his cool breath on my neck, feel his nose sliding along my jaw, inhaling.
"I thought anda were desensitized."
"Just because I'm resisting the wine doesn't mean I can't appreciate the bouquet," he whispered. "You have a very floral smell, like lavender... atau feesia," he noted. "It's mouthwatering."
"Yeah, it's an off hari when I don't get somebody telling me how edible I smell."
He chuckled, and then sighed.
"I've decided what I want to do," I told him. "I want to hear lebih about you."
"Ask me anything."
I sifted through my pertanyaan for the most vital. "Why do anda do it?" I said. "I still don't understand how anda can work so hard to resist what you... are. Please don't misunderstand, of course I'm glad that anda do. I just don't see why anda would bother in the first place."
He hesitated before answering. "That's a good question, and anda are not the first to ask it. The others - the majority of our kind who are quite content with our lot - they, too, wonder at how we live. But anda see, just because we've been... delt a certain hand... it doesn't mean that we can't choose to rise above - to conquer the boundaries of a destiny that none of us wanted. To try to retain whatever essential humanity we can."
I lay unmoving, locked in awed silence.
"Did anda fall asleep?" he whispered after a few minutes.
"No."
"Is that all anda were curious about?"
I rolled my eyes. "Not quite."
"What else do anda want to know?"
"Why can anda read minds - why only you? And Alice, seeing the future... why does that happen?"
I felt him shrug in the darkness. "We don't really know. Carlisle has a theory... he believes that we all bring something of our strongest human traits with us into the selanjutnya life, where they are intensified - like our minds, and our senses. He thinks that I must have already been very sensitive to the thoughts of those around me. And that Alice had some precognition, wherever she was."
"What did he bring into the selanjutnya life, and the others?"
"Carlisle brought his compassion. Esme brought her ability to cinta passionately. Emmett brought his strength, Rosalie her... tenacity. atau anda could call it pigheadedness," he chuckled. "Jasper is very interesting. He was quite charismatic in his first life, able to influence those around him to see things his way. Now he is able to manipulate the emotions of those around him - calm down a room of angry people, for example, atau excite a lethargic crowd, conversely. It's a very subtle gift."
I considered the impossibilities he described, trying to take it in. He waited patiently while I thought.
"So where did it all start? I means, Carlisle changed you, and then someone must have changed him, and so on...."
"Well, where did anda come from? Evolution? Creation? Couldn't we have evolved in the same way as other species, predator and prey? Or, if anda don't believe that all this world could have just happened on its own, which is hard for me to accept myself, is it so hard to believe that the same force that created the delicate angelfish with the shark, the baby segel and the killer whale, could create both our kinds together?"
"Let me get this straight - I'm the baby seal, right?"
"Right." He laughed, and something touched my hair - his lips?
I wanted to turn toward him, to see if it was really his lips against my hair. But I had to be good; I didn't want to make this any harder for him than it already was.
"Are anda ready to sleep?" he asked, interrupting the short silence. "Or do anda have any lebih questions?"
"Only a million atau two."
"We have tomorrow, and the selanjutnya day, and the next...," he reminded me. I smiled, ephoric at the thought.
"Are anda sure anda won't vanish in the morning?" I wanted this to be certain. "You are mythical, after all."
"I won't leave you." His voice had the segel of a promise.
"One more, then, tonight..." And I blushed. The darkness was no help - I'm sure he could feel the sudden warmth under my skin.
"What is it?"
"No, forget it. I changed my mind."
"Bella, anda can ask me anything."
I didn't answer, and he groaned.
"I keep thinking it will get less frustrating, not hearing your thoughts. But it just gets worse and worse."
"I'm glad anda can't read my thoughts. It's bad anough that anda eavesdrop on my sleep-talking."
"Please?" His voice was so persuasive, so impossible to resist.
I shook my head.
"If anda don't tell me, I'll just asume it's something much worse than it is," he threatened darkly. "Please?" Again, that pleading voice.
"Well," I began, glad that he couldn't see my face.
"Yes?"
"You berkata that Rosalie and Emmett will get married soon.... Is that... marriage... the same as it is for humans?"
He laughed in earnest now, understanding. "Is that what anda were getting at?"
I fidgeted, unable to answer.
"Yes, I suppose it is much the same," he said. "I told you, most of those human desires are there, just hidden behind lebih powerful desires."
"Oh, was all I could say.
"Was there a purpose behind your curiosity?"
"Well, I did wonder... about anda and me... someday..."
He was instantly serious, I could tell oleh the sudden stillness of his body. I froze, too, reacting automatically.
"I don't think that... that... would be possible for us."
"Because it would be too hard for you, if I were that... close?"
"That's certainly a problem. But that's not what I was thinking of. It's just that anda are so soft, so fragile. I have to mind my actions every moment that we're together so that I don't hurt you. I could kill anda quite easily, Bella, simply oleh accident." His voice had become just a soft murmur. He moved his icy palm to rest it on my cheek. "If I was too hasty... if anda one detik I wasn't paying enough attention, I could reach out, meaning to touch your face, and crush your skull oleh mistake. anda don't realize how incredibly breakable anda are. I can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when I'm with you."
He waited for me to respond, growing anxious when I didn't. "Are anda scared?" he asked.
I waited for a menit to answer, so the words would be true. "No. I'm fine."
He seemed to deliberate for a moment. "I'm curious now, though," he sais, his voice light again. "Have you ever...?" He trailed off suggestively.
"Of course not." I flushed. "I told anda I've never felt like this about anyone before, not even close."
"I know. It's just that I know other people's thoughts. I know cinta and lust don't always keep the same company."
"They do for me. Now, anyway, that they exist for me at all," I sighed.
"That's nice. We have one thing in common, at least." He sounded satisfied.
"Your human instincts...," I began. He waited. "Well, do anda find me attractive, in that way, at all?"
He laughed and lightly rumpled my nearly dry hair.
"I may not be a human, but I am a man," he assured me.
I yawned involuntarily.
"I've answered your questions, now anda should sleep." he insisted.
"I'm not sure if I can."
"Do anda want me to leave?"
"No!" I berkata too loudly.
He laughed, and then began to hum that same, unfamiliar lullaby; the voice of an archangel, soft in my ear.
lebih tired than I realized, exhausted from the long hari of mental and emotional stress like I'd never felt before, I drifted to sleep in his cold arms.
TWILIGHT - chapter 14 - MIND OVER MATTER
A long menit passed. I listened, not sure if I'd heard the door close. Then Edward's cool arm was around me, under the covers, his lips at my ear.
"You are a terrible actress - I'd say that career path is out for you."
"Darn it," I muttered. My jantung was crashing in my chest.
He hummed a melody I didn't recognize; it sounded like a lullaby.
He paused. "Should I sing anda to sleep?"
"Right," I laughed. "Like I could sleep with anda here!"
"You do it all the time," he reminded me.
"But I didn't know anda were here," I replied icily.
"So if anda don't want to sleep...," he suggested, ignoring my tone. My breath caught.
"If I don't want to sleep...?"
He chuckled. "What do anda want to do then?"
I couldn't answer at first.
"I'm not sure," I finally said.
"Tell me when anda decide."
I could feel his cool breath on my neck, feel his nose sliding along my jaw, inhaling.
"I thought anda were desensitized."
"Just because I'm resisting the wine doesn't mean I can't appreciate the bouquet," he whispered. "You have a very floral smell, like lavender... atau feesia," he noted. "It's mouthwatering."
"Yeah, it's an off hari when I don't get somebody telling me how edible I smell."
He chuckled, and then sighed.
"I've decided what I want to do," I told him. "I want to hear lebih about you."
"Ask me anything."
I sifted through my pertanyaan for the most vital. "Why do anda do it?" I said. "I still don't understand how anda can work so hard to resist what you... are. Please don't misunderstand, of course I'm glad that anda do. I just don't see why anda would bother in the first place."
He hesitated before answering. "That's a good question, and anda are not the first to ask it. The others - the majority of our kind who are quite content with our lot - they, too, wonder at how we live. But anda see, just because we've been... delt a certain hand... it doesn't mean that we can't choose to rise above - to conquer the boundaries of a destiny that none of us wanted. To try to retain whatever essential humanity we can."
I lay unmoving, locked in awed silence.
"Did anda fall asleep?" he whispered after a few minutes.
"No."
"Is that all anda were curious about?"
I rolled my eyes. "Not quite."
"What else do anda want to know?"
"Why can anda read minds - why only you? And Alice, seeing the future... why does that happen?"
I felt him shrug in the darkness. "We don't really know. Carlisle has a theory... he believes that we all bring something of our strongest human traits with us into the selanjutnya life, where they are intensified - like our minds, and our senses. He thinks that I must have already been very sensitive to the thoughts of those around me. And that Alice had some precognition, wherever she was."
"What did he bring into the selanjutnya life, and the others?"
"Carlisle brought his compassion. Esme brought her ability to cinta passionately. Emmett brought his strength, Rosalie her... tenacity. atau anda could call it pigheadedness," he chuckled. "Jasper is very interesting. He was quite charismatic in his first life, able to influence those around him to see things his way. Now he is able to manipulate the emotions of those around him - calm down a room of angry people, for example, atau excite a lethargic crowd, conversely. It's a very subtle gift."
I considered the impossibilities he described, trying to take it in. He waited patiently while I thought.
"So where did it all start? I means, Carlisle changed you, and then someone must have changed him, and so on...."
"Well, where did anda come from? Evolution? Creation? Couldn't we have evolved in the same way as other species, predator and prey? Or, if anda don't believe that all this world could have just happened on its own, which is hard for me to accept myself, is it so hard to believe that the same force that created the delicate angelfish with the shark, the baby segel and the killer whale, could create both our kinds together?"
"Let me get this straight - I'm the baby seal, right?"
"Right." He laughed, and something touched my hair - his lips?
I wanted to turn toward him, to see if it was really his lips against my hair. But I had to be good; I didn't want to make this any harder for him than it already was.
"Are anda ready to sleep?" he asked, interrupting the short silence. "Or do anda have any lebih questions?"
"Only a million atau two."
"We have tomorrow, and the selanjutnya day, and the next...," he reminded me. I smiled, ephoric at the thought.
"Are anda sure anda won't vanish in the morning?" I wanted this to be certain. "You are mythical, after all."
"I won't leave you." His voice had the segel of a promise.
"One more, then, tonight..." And I blushed. The darkness was no help - I'm sure he could feel the sudden warmth under my skin.
"What is it?"
"No, forget it. I changed my mind."
"Bella, anda can ask me anything."
I didn't answer, and he groaned.
"I keep thinking it will get less frustrating, not hearing your thoughts. But it just gets worse and worse."
"I'm glad anda can't read my thoughts. It's bad anough that anda eavesdrop on my sleep-talking."
"Please?" His voice was so persuasive, so impossible to resist.
I shook my head.
"If anda don't tell me, I'll just asume it's something much worse than it is," he threatened darkly. "Please?" Again, that pleading voice.
"Well," I began, glad that he couldn't see my face.
"Yes?"
"You berkata that Rosalie and Emmett will get married soon.... Is that... marriage... the same as it is for humans?"
He laughed in earnest now, understanding. "Is that what anda were getting at?"
I fidgeted, unable to answer.
"Yes, I suppose it is much the same," he said. "I told you, most of those human desires are there, just hidden behind lebih powerful desires."
"Oh, was all I could say.
"Was there a purpose behind your curiosity?"
"Well, I did wonder... about anda and me... someday..."
He was instantly serious, I could tell oleh the sudden stillness of his body. I froze, too, reacting automatically.
"I don't think that... that... would be possible for us."
"Because it would be too hard for you, if I were that... close?"
"That's certainly a problem. But that's not what I was thinking of. It's just that anda are so soft, so fragile. I have to mind my actions every moment that we're together so that I don't hurt you. I could kill anda quite easily, Bella, simply oleh accident." His voice had become just a soft murmur. He moved his icy palm to rest it on my cheek. "If I was too hasty... if anda one detik I wasn't paying enough attention, I could reach out, meaning to touch your face, and crush your skull oleh mistake. anda don't realize how incredibly breakable anda are. I can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when I'm with you."
He waited for me to respond, growing anxious when I didn't. "Are anda scared?" he asked.
I waited for a menit to answer, so the words would be true. "No. I'm fine."
He seemed to deliberate for a moment. "I'm curious now, though," he sais, his voice light again. "Have you ever...?" He trailed off suggestively.
"Of course not." I flushed. "I told anda I've never felt like this about anyone before, not even close."
"I know. It's just that I know other people's thoughts. I know cinta and lust don't always keep the same company."
"They do for me. Now, anyway, that they exist for me at all," I sighed.
"That's nice. We have one thing in common, at least." He sounded satisfied.
"Your human instincts...," I began. He waited. "Well, do anda find me attractive, in that way, at all?"
He laughed and lightly rumpled my nearly dry hair.
"I may not be a human, but I am a man," he assured me.
I yawned involuntarily.
"I've answered your questions, now anda should sleep." he insisted.
"I'm not sure if I can."
"Do anda want me to leave?"
"No!" I berkata too loudly.
He laughed, and then began to hum that same, unfamiliar lullaby; the voice of an archangel, soft in my ear.
lebih tired than I realized, exhausted from the long hari of mental and emotional stress like I'd never felt before, I drifted to sleep in his cold arms.
Kristen Stewart is set to get pregnant. Kind of. Sort of. On screen, at least.
In Breaking Dawn, the actress will don a prosthetic belly and be involved in an intense birth scene, as she welcomes daughter Renesmee into the world.
“I’m incredibly pregnant in the first movie,” Stewart told The Los Angeles Times, adding of the prosthetic: “I’ve worn it.. It gets immense. It gets so massive at some point that it actually looks inhuman. Like it’s hurting her. There are striations of bruises.”
Last year, a ridiculous rumor berkata that Stewart herself was with child. Might this soon be the case? It doesn't sound that way.
"My best friend just had a baby. She's my age," berkata the 20-year old. "So I'm a godmom now, which is.... crazy... It's actually making me realize lebih that I have absolutely no idea. Like, I see that going on, and I'm like, 'Oh, my God.'"
That's the same reaction many girls have when they look at Kristen's boyfriend.
In Breaking Dawn, the actress will don a prosthetic belly and be involved in an intense birth scene, as she welcomes daughter Renesmee into the world.
“I’m incredibly pregnant in the first movie,” Stewart told The Los Angeles Times, adding of the prosthetic: “I’ve worn it.. It gets immense. It gets so massive at some point that it actually looks inhuman. Like it’s hurting her. There are striations of bruises.”
Last year, a ridiculous rumor berkata that Stewart herself was with child. Might this soon be the case? It doesn't sound that way.
"My best friend just had a baby. She's my age," berkata the 20-year old. "So I'm a godmom now, which is.... crazy... It's actually making me realize lebih that I have absolutely no idea. Like, I see that going on, and I'm like, 'Oh, my God.'"
That's the same reaction many girls have when they look at Kristen's boyfriend.