Memories of Edward ran freely in my mind, spreading like a virus that would consume me.
His icey touch sending chills through me, his lips as they crushed mine, his addictive scent, that beautiful crooked smile, that infectious laugh....Each one hurt lebih than the last. Each time a new memory ran through me, I thought the pain could get no worse. Until the selanjutnya memory.
I hadn't stopped crying in hysterics since the serigala had disappeared.
I don't know how long I lay on the ground. Just wallowing. I tried to talk myself out of it a few times. Why was I doing this to Charlie again? Hadn't he been through enough? He would be frantic, I hadn't told him where I'd gone, so he wouldn't even know where to start. But these thoughts only came into my mind every now and again. lebih then anything, the torture was in my mind. All the things that I had managed to supress in the past months broke free now. When I hadn't registered the radio in my closet that I had gotten for my birthday. When Jacob held my hand while I got stitches and why that was ironic. Edward and I's carefree banter. My lullaby. The warmth that I felt from the embraces, despite the icey hands holding me. His piercing eyes that I could never seem to look away from. A million things that I had kept out of my memory. So many things that I hadn't thought of in so many months...
It was dark oleh now. I was much lebih aware than the last time I had been missing, curl in a ball on the forest floor...and that thought sent a new wave of torture through me. But though I knew what was happening much more, I simply didn't care at that moment.
I eventually slipped into a painful unconciousness, though I wasn't exactly sure if I was sleeping atau not at that moment, because the scenery was so simular. I eventually woke to the muted light of morning. At first nothing happened. I was trying very hard not to think. But Charlie must be out of his mind with worry, I thought. What was I doing? I needed to get up.
I pushed myself up with my hands onto my feet. I was very wabbley for sitting for so long, and it took me a moent to regain my balance enough to start walking. And worrying.
What on earth was I going to tell Charlie? I could tell him the truth...of course not all of it, but the important parts, anyway. I couldn't think of anything else.
"Where have anda been?!" He'd probably start out with that.
"I'm sorry dad, I need to talk to you."
"Do anda have any idea how worried I was?! Where have anda been all night? anda couldn't pick up a phone? I had a cari party out looking for you. AGAIN!" That would sting. Low-blow.
"Calm down dad, I'm sorry...listen. It's the bear. Only it's not a bear...it's a serigala and it's HUGE and there are five of them..." That would catch him off-guard. He wouldn't be expecting that.
"What does a beruang have to do with anything?"
"I saw them, in the woods...I was hiking, and they were chasing...something...and I..fainted." That was sad. I couldn't even lie convincingly in my own thoughts.
But that would work, right? Who wouldn't faint at the sight of those things? I'd have to look like hell. Then I remembered that I'd spent the entire night on the forest floor. I'm sure that wouldn't be a problem.
I was so carried away in my thoughts, hurrying to get home, that I forgot to look at the compass. Knowing my luck I was heading the complete oposite direction to where my truck was parked.
His icey touch sending chills through me, his lips as they crushed mine, his addictive scent, that beautiful crooked smile, that infectious laugh....Each one hurt lebih than the last. Each time a new memory ran through me, I thought the pain could get no worse. Until the selanjutnya memory.
I hadn't stopped crying in hysterics since the serigala had disappeared.
I don't know how long I lay on the ground. Just wallowing. I tried to talk myself out of it a few times. Why was I doing this to Charlie again? Hadn't he been through enough? He would be frantic, I hadn't told him where I'd gone, so he wouldn't even know where to start. But these thoughts only came into my mind every now and again. lebih then anything, the torture was in my mind. All the things that I had managed to supress in the past months broke free now. When I hadn't registered the radio in my closet that I had gotten for my birthday. When Jacob held my hand while I got stitches and why that was ironic. Edward and I's carefree banter. My lullaby. The warmth that I felt from the embraces, despite the icey hands holding me. His piercing eyes that I could never seem to look away from. A million things that I had kept out of my memory. So many things that I hadn't thought of in so many months...
It was dark oleh now. I was much lebih aware than the last time I had been missing, curl in a ball on the forest floor...and that thought sent a new wave of torture through me. But though I knew what was happening much more, I simply didn't care at that moment.
I eventually slipped into a painful unconciousness, though I wasn't exactly sure if I was sleeping atau not at that moment, because the scenery was so simular. I eventually woke to the muted light of morning. At first nothing happened. I was trying very hard not to think. But Charlie must be out of his mind with worry, I thought. What was I doing? I needed to get up.
I pushed myself up with my hands onto my feet. I was very wabbley for sitting for so long, and it took me a moent to regain my balance enough to start walking. And worrying.
What on earth was I going to tell Charlie? I could tell him the truth...of course not all of it, but the important parts, anyway. I couldn't think of anything else.
"Where have anda been?!" He'd probably start out with that.
"I'm sorry dad, I need to talk to you."
"Do anda have any idea how worried I was?! Where have anda been all night? anda couldn't pick up a phone? I had a cari party out looking for you. AGAIN!" That would sting. Low-blow.
"Calm down dad, I'm sorry...listen. It's the bear. Only it's not a bear...it's a serigala and it's HUGE and there are five of them..." That would catch him off-guard. He wouldn't be expecting that.
"What does a beruang have to do with anything?"
"I saw them, in the woods...I was hiking, and they were chasing...something...and I..fainted." That was sad. I couldn't even lie convincingly in my own thoughts.
But that would work, right? Who wouldn't faint at the sight of those things? I'd have to look like hell. Then I remembered that I'd spent the entire night on the forest floor. I'm sure that wouldn't be a problem.
I was so carried away in my thoughts, hurrying to get home, that I forgot to look at the compass. Knowing my luck I was heading the complete oposite direction to where my truck was parked.
Materials:
Petroleum Jelly
small microwavable bowl (discardable)
Stirrer (discardable spoon atau skewer)
Eyeshadow atau body shimmer atau pigment (the color anda want your lipgloss)
Lipgloss container w/ lid
Procedure:
1.scoop some petroleum jeli in the small microwavable bowl (more petroleum lebih lipgloss!)
2.Microwave for 5minutes atau until completely melted.
3.Take out the melted petroleum jeli (carefull it's hot) and scoop in some eyeshadow for color. Put eyeshadow until anda reach your desired shade.
4.Mix the mixture well. Then carefully pour the mixture into the container.
5.put the lipgloss in the container in the freezer for 15-30 minutes.
Enjoy!!
Tip: To make flavored lipgloss mix in kool-aid to the melted petroleum instead then continue regularly.(careful WILL stain lips)
Petroleum Jelly
small microwavable bowl (discardable)
Stirrer (discardable spoon atau skewer)
Eyeshadow atau body shimmer atau pigment (the color anda want your lipgloss)
Lipgloss container w/ lid
Procedure:
1.scoop some petroleum jeli in the small microwavable bowl (more petroleum lebih lipgloss!)
2.Microwave for 5minutes atau until completely melted.
3.Take out the melted petroleum jeli (carefull it's hot) and scoop in some eyeshadow for color. Put eyeshadow until anda reach your desired shade.
4.Mix the mixture well. Then carefully pour the mixture into the container.
5.put the lipgloss in the container in the freezer for 15-30 minutes.
Enjoy!!
Tip: To make flavored lipgloss mix in kool-aid to the melted petroleum instead then continue regularly.(careful WILL stain lips)
Edwards pov
"Bella family meeting " I berkata while eating my elk.
"okay i am ready are you?"
"yes "
So we so we started to run atau race i would say to the family meeting . When we all got there and got seated the meeting started .
Carlise Pov
"thank anda guys for coming to the meeting , and sorry for interrupted your hunting time . But we have some important news " i said
" what is it Carlise " edward berkata very serious
"Well esmee and i have decied to leave are coven and come back in a tahun atau so okay and anda guys can leave if anda want to . But I am Going to start oleh asking rose and emmett . so what is your desion ."isaid "well rose and i have decideed to go away for a little while and come back when anda come back ,and we will not be enrolling in forks this year.." emment said
"okay alice ,jasper are anda leaving atau staying" i berkata " well we are staying " alice chimed in.
"Bella family meeting " I berkata while eating my elk.
"okay i am ready are you?"
"yes "
So we so we started to run atau race i would say to the family meeting . When we all got there and got seated the meeting started .
Carlise Pov
"thank anda guys for coming to the meeting , and sorry for interrupted your hunting time . But we have some important news " i said
" what is it Carlise " edward berkata very serious
"Well esmee and i have decied to leave are coven and come back in a tahun atau so okay and anda guys can leave if anda want to . But I am Going to start oleh asking rose and emmett . so what is your desion ."isaid "well rose and i have decideed to go away for a little while and come back when anda come back ,and we will not be enrolling in forks this year.." emment said
"okay alice ,jasper are anda leaving atau staying" i berkata " well we are staying " alice chimed in.
hey ... This is my first fanfiction :D so if its not good just give me some constructive critism to make it better. Thanks (:
Preface.
The reason i left was to save my family. The one I cant live without. But i wish they were here. To hold my hand. Promise me everything will be ok. But i push that thought to the back of my mind when i hear the approaching footsteps. I stand there. Alone. Preparing myself for terror that i am about to face. If i could cry, tears would be running down my face. But when the hunters prepare to attack. I crouch forward, my lips pull back over my teeth. I let out a deep growl which was cut short. My head snapped up to the sound i heard behind me.
Preface.
The reason i left was to save my family. The one I cant live without. But i wish they were here. To hold my hand. Promise me everything will be ok. But i push that thought to the back of my mind when i hear the approaching footsteps. I stand there. Alone. Preparing myself for terror that i am about to face. If i could cry, tears would be running down my face. But when the hunters prepare to attack. I crouch forward, my lips pull back over my teeth. I let out a deep growl which was cut short. My head snapped up to the sound i heard behind me.