be quiet!
Let it burns inside!
Let my imagination
to be wild!
Be quiet!
Let me feel this moment
the way I want.
Let me feel,
I long to be with him.
Lust,
be quiet.
This thought
should be
locked inside.
He'll hear,
so be quiet,
he'll feel,
so be quiet.
A touch,
that's why
I dream even
when I'm awake.
Oh lust,
be quiet.
Those kisses
burn on my skin
and I want
to remember
that feeling,
I want to keep
that moment
as if it's
eternal.
I want
to dream.
Oh lust,
Be quiet.
He'll hear.
I heard someone whisper,
"Whats up with Victoria? Why is she avoiding me?
Then,
"Oh we haven't talk in a while either."
I wanted to tell them,
'Victoria is gone. She's replaced.' But I can't. Its hard.
You'll see what I mean....
Victoria was one of those who had wanted to keep the grades up.
Now she doesn't give a fuck.
She was so smart,
Now its gone,
Like finishing a poptart.
Victoria used to follow rules,
Now she doesn't listen,
Just becoming to like breaking the rules.
She used to wear clothes that were berwarna merah muda, merah muda and such,
Now, she thinks its muck.
She loved to talk,
Now she's quiet,
Like a rock.
Victoria was so happy and nice,
Now she's dead and gone.
Like her life,
Before everyting went all wrong...
"Whats up with Victoria? Why is she avoiding me?
Then,
"Oh we haven't talk in a while either."
I wanted to tell them,
'Victoria is gone. She's replaced.' But I can't. Its hard.
You'll see what I mean....
Victoria was one of those who had wanted to keep the grades up.
Now she doesn't give a fuck.
She was so smart,
Now its gone,
Like finishing a poptart.
Victoria used to follow rules,
Now she doesn't listen,
Just becoming to like breaking the rules.
She used to wear clothes that were berwarna merah muda, merah muda and such,
Now, she thinks its muck.
She loved to talk,
Now she's quiet,
Like a rock.
Victoria was so happy and nice,
Now she's dead and gone.
Like her life,
Before everyting went all wrong...
As I sat there,
All alone and stare
I overheard anda say,
"I cinta you, Renee."
I tried not to cry,
But why?
Was it something I did?
atau did anda want me to be dead?
All I want is my pain to just go away.
But what way?
I did everything could,
But it is still hurting me, like any pain should.
I would do anything to get anda and the pain gone,
But how?
All I want is everything to go.
I tried and tried to see why anda do this to me,
But anda just ignored me, my heart, and hated the sight of me.
How could anda actually think I was going to be okay?
Okay about me and anda just being friends with that all to say?
All I want is that...that..
anda never hugged,
Kissed,
And we never fell in cinta wit each other...
I tried cutting anda out of my life,
My mind,
Even my heart...
But nothing worked.
...........
I guess we never were meant to be..
All alone and stare
I overheard anda say,
"I cinta you, Renee."
I tried not to cry,
But why?
Was it something I did?
atau did anda want me to be dead?
All I want is my pain to just go away.
But what way?
I did everything could,
But it is still hurting me, like any pain should.
I would do anything to get anda and the pain gone,
But how?
All I want is everything to go.
I tried and tried to see why anda do this to me,
But anda just ignored me, my heart, and hated the sight of me.
How could anda actually think I was going to be okay?
Okay about me and anda just being friends with that all to say?
All I want is that...that..
anda never hugged,
Kissed,
And we never fell in cinta wit each other...
I tried cutting anda out of my life,
My mind,
Even my heart...
But nothing worked.
...........
I guess we never were meant to be..
i'm tired of pretend
i'm sorry it has to end
with all the fear and tears
i know we're done here
take his pictures off my wall
take them off and burn them all
i'm tired of all this hurt and say
just take it all away
i screamed
i cried
but i never seemed to know why
now i know anda always lied
so its time for us to say goodbye
i'm tired of trying
i feel like i'm dieing
this hurt and pain never seems to go away
im screaming im pleading
my jantung has stoped beating
i wish all this would go away
and gone for he rest of my days
i'm sorry it has to end
with all the fear and tears
i know we're done here
take his pictures off my wall
take them off and burn them all
i'm tired of all this hurt and say
just take it all away
i screamed
i cried
but i never seemed to know why
now i know anda always lied
so its time for us to say goodbye
i'm tired of trying
i feel like i'm dieing
this hurt and pain never seems to go away
im screaming im pleading
my jantung has stoped beating
i wish all this would go away
and gone for he rest of my days
poetry Is very well
when anda
feel it as hell
dream with everyword anda write
to make the poetry pride
and shine through your mind
To see the light through your pen
poetry is a trip
anda walk in with your feel
and It's easy To heal
your heart
from the hurt
your mind
from nightmare
your hand
from the cold
and your soul
from the fear
It is Magic anda can't see
but It's your jantung feel
So let your hand write
what's Inside your jantung and mind
don't mind it
anda need it
go on your way
and stay
to write everyday
we need your finger
to be free
and never be anger
we need your words to
shine our jantung with love
anda can see the moon with the stars
light your way together
through your darkness forever
when anda
feel it as hell
dream with everyword anda write
to make the poetry pride
and shine through your mind
To see the light through your pen
poetry is a trip
anda walk in with your feel
and It's easy To heal
your heart
from the hurt
your mind
from nightmare
your hand
from the cold
and your soul
from the fear
It is Magic anda can't see
but It's your jantung feel
So let your hand write
what's Inside your jantung and mind
don't mind it
anda need it
go on your way
and stay
to write everyday
we need your finger
to be free
and never be anger
we need your words to
shine our jantung with love
anda can see the moon with the stars
light your way together
through your darkness forever
I hear the whistle in my ear but don't respond.
All I do is admire it's authority.
It's ability to summon all who will obey.
The whistle is a leader, all fear and don't question.
We are not chiefs for we cannot order unless we can call the ones who carry out those duties.
The whistle is not a tool but a messenger.
Whom brings us together and whether forced atau not we work together and for that we respect this only God.
The whistle is a sign of peace.
Not an annoying ringing.
And that is why I only listen.
Because for me it is only so hard to do as I'm told.
But for the ones stronger and not misguided,follow the yellow brick road lain out just for you.
Don't stand and wait for others.
Obey your whistle.
Because soon you'll be the one blowing the whistle.
All I do is admire it's authority.
It's ability to summon all who will obey.
The whistle is a leader, all fear and don't question.
We are not chiefs for we cannot order unless we can call the ones who carry out those duties.
The whistle is not a tool but a messenger.
Whom brings us together and whether forced atau not we work together and for that we respect this only God.
The whistle is a sign of peace.
Not an annoying ringing.
And that is why I only listen.
Because for me it is only so hard to do as I'm told.
But for the ones stronger and not misguided,follow the yellow brick road lain out just for you.
Don't stand and wait for others.
Obey your whistle.
Because soon you'll be the one blowing the whistle.
HOPE
Our world is broken,
It has been darkened
driven into shadow and uncertainty
we live in fear that disasters will come to us,
arrive on our doorsteps on take what we cinta most.
that the light of hari will never come out of of night that even the stars and moon shall fade away.
Will we be blinded oleh hate and evil forever?
No
We will overcome this shadow of fear,
we will renew our world and
find our way back to light and goodness.
and when we learn to forgive and love,
the moon and the stars will shine brighter than ever,
and the darkness will be flooded with light.
This is my Hope for our broken world.
Our world is broken,
It has been darkened
driven into shadow and uncertainty
we live in fear that disasters will come to us,
arrive on our doorsteps on take what we cinta most.
that the light of hari will never come out of of night that even the stars and moon shall fade away.
Will we be blinded oleh hate and evil forever?
No
We will overcome this shadow of fear,
we will renew our world and
find our way back to light and goodness.
and when we learn to forgive and love,
the moon and the stars will shine brighter than ever,
and the darkness will be flooded with light.
This is my Hope for our broken world.
I crave love.
Not worth it.
I crave family.
Not worth it.
I crave freinds.
Not worth it.
I crave freedom.
Not worth it.
I crave to be desired.
Not worth it.
I crave a loving touch.
Not woth it.
I want my mom.
Not worth it.
I want to live.
Not worth it.
I want to be saved.
Not worth it.
SUDDENLY
A warm smile.
I am still not worth it.
A loving word.
I am still not worth it.
A gental love.
A warn voise.
I am still not worth it.
A light peeking thro the dark.
I am still not worth it.
I am still not worth it.
I hang my head because I know I am not worth it.
Not worth it.
I crave family.
Not worth it.
I crave freinds.
Not worth it.
I crave freedom.
Not worth it.
I crave to be desired.
Not worth it.
I crave a loving touch.
Not woth it.
I want my mom.
Not worth it.
I want to live.
Not worth it.
I want to be saved.
Not worth it.
SUDDENLY
A warm smile.
I am still not worth it.
A loving word.
I am still not worth it.
A gental love.
A warn voise.
I am still not worth it.
A light peeking thro the dark.
I am still not worth it.
I am still not worth it.
I hang my head because I know I am not worth it.
I see you.
I feel you.
I reach to you.
anda are not there.
My hand goes right through you.
I must be a ghost.
I whatch you.
I need you.
anda are a life time away.
I am just a ghost.
I call to you.
anda turn.
anda look right at me.
God do anda see me?
No anda dont.
anda look right threw me.
anda turn and walk away.
I am left alone.
In darkness.
I am just a ghost.
I have lost you.
I whatch anda walk away.
I feel the pain.
WAIT!
I cant feel.
For the dead doesnt feel pain like this.
I run to you.
"I am here!" I scream!
anda look right pass me.
I am not dead.
Nor am I alive.
The dead I am is much lebih painful.
I am dieing form a beoken heart.
A lost cinta I can never get back.
Now I know.
I am just a ghost.
Waiting to expire.
I feel you.
I reach to you.
anda are not there.
My hand goes right through you.
I must be a ghost.
I whatch you.
I need you.
anda are a life time away.
I am just a ghost.
I call to you.
anda turn.
anda look right at me.
God do anda see me?
No anda dont.
anda look right threw me.
anda turn and walk away.
I am left alone.
In darkness.
I am just a ghost.
I have lost you.
I whatch anda walk away.
I feel the pain.
WAIT!
I cant feel.
For the dead doesnt feel pain like this.
I run to you.
"I am here!" I scream!
anda look right pass me.
I am not dead.
Nor am I alive.
The dead I am is much lebih painful.
I am dieing form a beoken heart.
A lost cinta I can never get back.
Now I know.
I am just a ghost.
Waiting to expire.
Crying tears of blood.
Becuase my hear has burst.
Dieing inside becuase theres no way out.
The pain from being alone is to much to bare.
The only relife.
Is to hear anda voise.
Feel your touch.
cinta and be loved oleh you.
The razor blade is a comfert.
Feeling the blood drip to the floor.
Seeing it.
Hearing it.
Smelling it.
It makes me smile.
cinta is always the best cure.
To me loved.
I am scared of dieing in Hell.
But it never ends.
Just know I cinta you.
I miss you.
For I am always with you.
Waiting for you.
My only love.
Becuase my hear has burst.
Dieing inside becuase theres no way out.
The pain from being alone is to much to bare.
The only relife.
Is to hear anda voise.
Feel your touch.
cinta and be loved oleh you.
The razor blade is a comfert.
Feeling the blood drip to the floor.
Seeing it.
Hearing it.
Smelling it.
It makes me smile.
cinta is always the best cure.
To me loved.
I am scared of dieing in Hell.
But it never ends.
Just know I cinta you.
I miss you.
For I am always with you.
Waiting for you.
My only love.
upset
and so many thoughts
circling around
your head,
anda try to make
this right,
to find the best way
so anda could feel better,
so anda could be free.
Pain will never
go away,
it always stays
to remember you
that life is not a dream,
life is unpredictable.
Endless questions,
so many "Why",
but the answer
we will
never find!
The strength within
will not let us crack,
life is unpredictable,
who's to say?
Today you're happy,
and yet
despair waits
stealthily
to engulf you.
But,
anda need to be prepared.
Not only bad things
happen to bad people.
Unfortunately,
so many pure,
honored hearts
have been broken for
so many times,
in so many pieces,
and yet
they live,
they live with
their agony,
they live with
their groan,
but they live,
tho their eyes are
always sad,
their hearts are
still softly.
Therefore
they know...
Therefore
they are...
The brightest star
that shines
in the dark,
that spark of hope
for all of us
who deserve better.
eveyday I walk lonely
through that way
I don't wanna go
I wanna back
I don't wanna stay In that way
I need something To
keep My jantung strong
and to correct My wrong
I don't know What to I belong
But I cari for it for time
I don't know how long
I need something to never let me cry atau
to let my tears dry
I need some thing
That's Inside your and my heart
To let my soul fly
up so high Into the sky
It's always needed to heal your heart
from this killing hurt
To light your and my way
when the darkness has to stay
through our way
Did anda know What it is?
that when everyone want to go away
backs them to stay everyday ,
It's the cinta
That warms your jantung inside
and makes anda pride!!!!
through that way
I don't wanna go
I wanna back
I don't wanna stay In that way
I need something To
keep My jantung strong
and to correct My wrong
I don't know What to I belong
But I cari for it for time
I don't know how long
I need something to never let me cry atau
to let my tears dry
I need some thing
That's Inside your and my heart
To let my soul fly
up so high Into the sky
It's always needed to heal your heart
from this killing hurt
To light your and my way
when the darkness has to stay
through our way
Did anda know What it is?
that when everyone want to go away
backs them to stay everyday ,
It's the cinta
That warms your jantung inside
and makes anda pride!!!!
and tell me what anda see.
Everything lives,
everything blossoms,
it's only you
in your autumn.
Your soul is seeking
for something that
is left a long time ago.
Something to cherish,
something to be attached to.
Why did the beast within
wake up suddenly?
Who called the restlessness?
Who shall win?
Will the autumn itself leave?
Nobody knows,
nobody cares
but you!
It's anda trapped within,
your mind gives anda nothing
but lebih anxiety.
Peace is the place
anda seek within your heart,
trying to find consolation.
Why you?
Why is this happening
to you?
Will the peace find you
one lebih time,
atau you're the one
who should find peace
within?
When everything is black
in your heart,
anda beg the darkness
to leave anda be,
but the darkness
is not coming
where the joy
glows,
no,it's not coming
where the hope
still holds on.