The hari anda died, Michael, everything stopped for me, as hard as I tried, I couldn't get anda off my mind. The question, of course, is why? Why did I never feel one thing for anda until that day? Why did anda have such an effect on me? Why you? Of all the men in the world, why you? I cinta you. There's anda answer: I cinta YOU. anda are the one, the one I was put on this earth to be with. I know, of course, there are obstacles in the way of that: you're 37 years older than me, you're not alive anymore, & on puncak, atas of it all, there's no possible way you'd ever feel the same about me. But I don't expect to be loved back the same, I only want to know that anda don't hate me for my past actions, & that you're finally at peace with life & with yourself.
I know there were times in your life that weren't so easy to deal with, but they're all in the past. The past is gone & it can never come back again, sometimes that's a good thing. It really hurts me to see how hurt anda were then, even if I never felt it then. Like when Lisa Marie filed for divorce. Seeing her break your jantung like that, it made me feel like punching her lights out, because I know how much anda loved her. atau when anda were sued for child molestation, anda were forever scarred oleh that, I'm sure. I wish I could've been beside you, to be your reminder that everything would be alright in the end.
anda know, everyone worries about the way they look, but they know they'll do something to themselves & look beautiful afterwards. But at times, anda never thought you'd be attractive no matter what anda did. anda hated your appearence so much, anda even went so far as to call yourself an "ugly lizard"(or something like that, I don't know exactly how anda berkata it). I wish anda hadn't berkata that, you're not even close to unattractive let alone ugly. When I look at you, I see surpassing beauty. anda are beautiful, Michael, please believe me! I know I'm not the only one who thinks so, I'll bet most of the people who read this artikel will agree with me. To be totally honest, sometimes when I look at you, your beauty makes me jealous.
If I could sum anda up in just 3 words, beautiful would be the first, the detik would be loving. anda see so many artis out there promoting causes for whatever, but most of them are only doing it to promote themselves. anda did things like tht because it was the right thing to do, & anda cared. anda cared so much for the charity work you, the people anda helped, etc. anda have such a good heart, Michael; in fact it's where most of your beauty comes from. Your cinta for the planet, children, your family, your fans, etc. That in itself is pretty amazing. You've forever engraved yourself into the hearts of your family, friends, & fans, especially me. anda touched me, & now I declare my cinta for you. My cinta for anda is nothing butpure & genuine, for if I'm lying, may I be struck to my death & sent directly to hell.
Unlike most girls my age, I know what true cinta is: it's the eternal force that unites 2 people. It must be real atau it's just infatuation. They must be willing to look past all obstacles & go to the ends of the earth for each other. I am willing to do that for you, Michael, because I know that if I can be as close to your jantung as anda are to mine, than it's all worth it. Beautiful, loving, & the final word would be forever. Your love, your memory, anda are forever. anda made your mark on history, the world will never forget August 29, 1958, November 30, 1982, May 16, 1983, & most of all, June 25, 2009. It's truly as if you're still alive because you've got your fan on earth who'll work to sustain your memory forever.
anda know, I still wonder, anda used to think anda were unloved, but then anda had your kids & knew otherwise. If anda never had your kids, would anda still have died knowing anda were loved? I don't know what your response would be to this, Michael, but I know if every single person in the world today who loves anda died, the world would be a whole lot smaller. Even if all those people were against you, you'd still have one girl who'll always be true to you: ME. Fate brought me to anda & now I'll never go back, I simply can't. I cinta anda too much to abandon you, believe me. If anda were membaca this, anda might think of me as a silly young girl who's either pitifully desperate, atau certifiably insane, atau even just plain stupid to think such thoughts, but I know anda could never break my jantung lke that, you're too sweet:)
Michael, I'm your friend, I'm always on your side, I'll always cinta you, I'm waiting everyday, & praying every week for your entrance into heaven. Do anda think if I was lying about anything I've written so far, that I'd spend an jam in church every week praying for you? Not that I'm making any accusations , I'm just saying. But like anda berkata "If anda enter this world knowing you're loved, & anda leave this world knowing the same, than everything in between can be dealt with." Now that I've fallen in cinta with you, I know now lebih than ever that I can get through anything, as long as I have anda & God beside me. Michael, I wrote this letter to fully express my feelings for you, so I'll close it in summary: MICHAEL JACKSON, I WILL ALWAYS cinta anda <3
