Born into this world
I started asking myself
Why am I here?
Since I was a kid
I always wondered... Why me?
Why do I see from inside this body?
All these people around me,is this real?
Are they real? Am I the only one real?
Cause as far as I know
I'm the only one in control here
Such a confused kid,thinking too much
Making things so complicated
So much lebih complicated than they should
For someone my age

I became a loner
I thought others were weird,different somehow
When in the end,I was the one different
Started noticing it later,feeling it deeply
Thinking too much,feeling too much
I guess it wasn't normal
So I was bullied at school
Worst days of my life
Feeling useless to this world,not necessary here
Was only here to suffer
Just had fun with Video-Games,but that was it
It was my reason to live,playing Video-Games
Living them cause my life sucked
Playing them to forget I had a life
And that it was meaningless

One day
When I thought I'd found love
Something beautiful and real
To save me from this hell
All ended up in a nightmare
lebih than one tahun of suffering
I wanted to die,I got drunk to forget
Didn't sleep because I wanted to lose my mind
Maybe if I did,I wouldn't have feelings anymore
I'd be too insane for that,I would become mad
And live a crazy but happy life
Never wanting atau needing love
I was desperate,I was deeply depressed
Trying to change myself
Into someone I was not,only to feel good
But instead I fell deeper
And was trapped in a very dark place
Some doors of hope opened
But in the end they were traps
I was fooled and got thrown back to the hole
Again and again,feeling lost and hopeless
The thoughts were coming back
I needed to leave this world
There was nothing for me here
I was falling into depression again
Needed to end all this,be finally free
But destiny
Destiny had a surprise for me

One last door opened
I didn't have anything to lose
So I entered the door
I was feeling better,I liked this place
I felt loved here so I stayed
I had faith and I believed
And destiny didn't dissapoint me
Not this time
I was surprised,I couldn't believe it
But in such a long time
I felt genuine happiness
I wanted to live again
This door,opened oleh an angel
It led me out of the darkness
And into the most pure light
Love
It completely saved my life
Now I'm in love,and I feel loved
Like never before
And I'm very sure of it
That I want to devote all my love
To this malaikat that saved me
For as long as I live
I'll be faithful to her,I'll be there for her
And never do anything to hurt her

No one could ever understand me this well, make me this happy atau make me feel so special *-* I am very proud of having anda as my girlfriend Nessie, anda are an amazing, beautiful person in every way, the best for me and perfect in my eyes *-* I cinta you! <33