Hi, i am Sarah. I know some people dont think this is abuse, but i feel like it was. I had a best friend, Zach was his name. I thought he was the awesomest friend i have ever had. But he was not, no one liked him when i meet him. I never understood why. I was friends wit thim for a year, then i asked him out. he berkata Sure. a week and 2 days after that he broke up with me. i hated myself. So i cut myself, just 1 cut. Then about 2 months after that. He told me 2 never call him again atau talk 2him in anyway. I could not stand it. So i cut my self. Everytime i woud see him atau hear hiz voice, when i got halaman awal i would run into my room, start crying, put on a song that helped me calmdown, and cut myself. I thought about suicide once in a while, but never did it, atau tryed 2. and i would cry EVERY night. i did that 4 a bulan then i finaly told my friend, Emily. She saved my life, i could have gon so far to get to KILLING my self. i didnt know becase she told a techer and the teacher told me not to and they both made me swear 2 NEVER cut myself agin. But that is now a bulan yang lalu and i have stoped cuting myself, and i havent in a long time. i am glad i told a friend. The thing is I cinta him, and he wont except that. I always have loved him, since the first time i caled him. And i told him i had HUGE crush on him, but never that i LOVED him. My mom got me someone 2 talk 2 that will tell me how 2 deal with my problems, ad control them. We havent met yet, but we will soon. When i thought of suicide i thought of all my friends, how much they would miss me and what they would think. I always tell my friends they saved my life, becase they did. i would probly be dead with out them. I cinta MY friends THAT SAVED MY LIFE <3
I think I cinta you
I'm afraid to ask anda if anda cinta me to
My friends say in a relationship anda say like
But I cant go another night
Not knowing how we both feel
I suddenly hate the weekends
Cuz its two lebih days without you
So I simply stare at the moon
And hope anda are to
I want to give anda a clue
Something as simple as
"Hey my fav. color is blue too"
But I can't I'm scared of what you
Will say If I say I cinta anda first
So please say it before I burst it out
And I burst it out very, very loud.
I'm afraid to ask anda if anda cinta me to
My friends say in a relationship anda say like
But I cant go another night
Not knowing how we both feel
I suddenly hate the weekends
Cuz its two lebih days without you
So I simply stare at the moon
And hope anda are to
I want to give anda a clue
Something as simple as
"Hey my fav. color is blue too"
But I can't I'm scared of what you
Will say If I say I cinta anda first
So please say it before I burst it out
And I burst it out very, very loud.
anda said...
anda said
anda would
try to make
this up.
anda said
anda wanted
me oleh your side.
anda said
I would be happy,
I would be
happy this time.
anda said.
anda said
anda wanted
the fresh start
for us,
anda said
anda wanted us
back,
anda wanted
me back.
anda promised.
anda said
anda would
try,
anda said
that things
would be better
this time,
anda said
I would feel
better
from now.
Remember,
anda said.
No lebih tears,
anda said,
no more
empty words,
remember?
anda said.
anda said
anda wanted
a fresh start
for us.
anda said,
no lebih pain,
anda said,
no more.
And no lebih lies
now I say,
sell them
some where else.
Broken promises,
that's all
anda gave,
no lebih pain,
that's what
anda said.