So if anda really know me in here anda have most llikely heard of me talk about my teacher who i absouletly adore and cinta because she is my role model. Well about 4 weeks yang lalu me and her where in a tutoring session after school and we moved into her office. i just happened to look up at her and she was looking down at some papers, and i noticed how extremly attracted i was to her. she noticed me looking and i just ended up blushing and looking away. that night i thought about her, so much i had a dream about her too. i woke up the selanjutnya hari and just blew it off, because i hardly ever fall for someone in rl.
but when i got to school, i suddenly got nervous and she invaded my head so much she could have been running out my ears. i felt kupu-kupu and my jantung refusing to beat when i walked toward her class. when i saw her i couldnt breath at all and just tried to look away and ignore her. i was like this with her for about 2 weeks. sunday rolled around and i got a call from her. she asked if i was doing ok and if she could talk with me the selanjutnya hari at school. i gave in and berkata yes, although it was a huge mistake.
when we where alone again for my tutoring, she stopped and asked if i was feeling well, atau if there was something going on that needed to be discussed. i just broke down crying and told her exactl how i was feeling. the last thing i added was "im so confused and im sorry" she hugged me and told me that there was nothing to be sorry about, and that she went though the same thing" the selanjutnya week, it was her that ignored ME. she wouldnt look at me, atau speak. now, me and her are really close friends, she is my schools lgbt leader and a family friend as well. so of course i felt angry and felt that it was my fault, because now i lost a best friend.
just this monday, i went to her and asked her what was the deal. she just shook her head and held back what looked like to be tears. and finally she berkata she was "In a unknown place" and she was facing some "issue" and that she cant speak to me for awhile. i got upset with myself and asked if it was my fault, and she just berkata "its mine". we havnt talked then except just today when i wrote this. it was a hey how are anda doing kind of talk, and it was short.
i dont know what happened, atau whats happening. all i know is that i really cinta her, not a crush because big suprise that some teens DO KNOW what cinta is, and that i really just would like us to be like how we where. im just confused on what to do, what to think.
whats your opinion on either me atau my teacher? i would really like to know someone elses thoughts oon this. maybe some saran too, because im in a bad place and its actually putting me into..depression.
but when i got to school, i suddenly got nervous and she invaded my head so much she could have been running out my ears. i felt kupu-kupu and my jantung refusing to beat when i walked toward her class. when i saw her i couldnt breath at all and just tried to look away and ignore her. i was like this with her for about 2 weeks. sunday rolled around and i got a call from her. she asked if i was doing ok and if she could talk with me the selanjutnya hari at school. i gave in and berkata yes, although it was a huge mistake.
when we where alone again for my tutoring, she stopped and asked if i was feeling well, atau if there was something going on that needed to be discussed. i just broke down crying and told her exactl how i was feeling. the last thing i added was "im so confused and im sorry" she hugged me and told me that there was nothing to be sorry about, and that she went though the same thing" the selanjutnya week, it was her that ignored ME. she wouldnt look at me, atau speak. now, me and her are really close friends, she is my schools lgbt leader and a family friend as well. so of course i felt angry and felt that it was my fault, because now i lost a best friend.
just this monday, i went to her and asked her what was the deal. she just shook her head and held back what looked like to be tears. and finally she berkata she was "In a unknown place" and she was facing some "issue" and that she cant speak to me for awhile. i got upset with myself and asked if it was my fault, and she just berkata "its mine". we havnt talked then except just today when i wrote this. it was a hey how are anda doing kind of talk, and it was short.
i dont know what happened, atau whats happening. all i know is that i really cinta her, not a crush because big suprise that some teens DO KNOW what cinta is, and that i really just would like us to be like how we where. im just confused on what to do, what to think.
whats your opinion on either me atau my teacher? i would really like to know someone elses thoughts oon this. maybe some saran too, because im in a bad place and its actually putting me into..depression.
