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Inside the train, Gwen stands oleh the door looking dejected. Her jantung is aching and she doesn’t even know how to contain the pain. It creeps, leaving her dizzy. ‘Did I say all those things? Did I really say that?’ she thinks, trying to recall what has happened. Everything seems like a dream, but the pain she feels in her jantung is real. She drops her bag, clutches her jantung and slumps to the ground. Tears are rolling down, wetting her neck and her kemeja but she doesn’t care about it anymore. Her breathing is coming in rapidly as she tries to restrain her tears but the pain in her jantung increases as she remembers each and every word she told Arthur. ‘I broke his heart… I broke him,’ she thinks as she slams her head against the dinding of the coach. ‘I’m sorry, Arthur… I’m so sorry,’ she thinks again and slams her head again and again until she felt slightly dizzy.
But the tears keep flowing down her cheek. Her lips tremble as she buries her face in her hands and cries her jantung out. She knows Arthur will never forgive her, but she didn’t have a choice. She wouldn’t have done it if she wasn’t forced, she would never hurt him even in her dreams, but now, not only has she broken his jantung but she has shattered his strength as well. She fears for him. Will he be all right? Will he revert back to his old prattish self atau will the rejection make him stronger? Gwen doesn’t know and she will never be able to find out from anyone… perhaps maybe from Merlin. One day.
Gwen looks up, her eyes swollen and painful. Merlin is the only one who’ll believe her. He is the only one suspicious of her behavior and he could be her only hope to find out about Arthur. But how will she do it? How can she ask Merlin without anyone else finding out? lebih tears flow from her already swollen eyes and Gwen’s jantung aches like it is being ripped into shreds. She wishes none of this happened.
Why did she have to say all this to Arthur? Why did she have to face his wrath when their happiness was just a week away? Why is life so unfair to her? What did she do to deserve such a punishment? Where did she fail? pertanyaan after pertanyaan floods her brain until she feels sick to her stomach. Something rings; her phone. Gwen sniffs and picks up her phone, her eyes reddening further when she spots Uther’s name on it. She wants to throw the phone away but she knows she must tell him what happened. She clicks on the phone and brings it to her ears.
“You didn’t call me! What happened?” Uther barks on the phone.
“It’s done… like anda wanted!”
“You were supposed to inform me the moment anda were done with him… not me calling anda to find out!”
Gwen feels her jantung ache. Her brain snaps in anger and she closes her eyes, to calm herself. “It’s done. He is on the way to meet you,”
“Meet me… now, what have anda done?”
“I didn’t do anything. I told him anda paid me to act and he probably wants clarification from you. I told him to ask you.”
“What! Are anda stupid, Gwen? I told anda to leave me out of this and now look what you’ve done! Arthur’s going to think I’m part of this and will hate me again. I told anda to make this look as if anda are doing this…”
“What the hell was I supposed to do?” Gwen shouts on the phone, silencing Uther on the other side. “Do anda think Arthur’s stupid? Do anda think your son will fall for any cock and banteng story that comes out from my mouth? No, he will not. Arthur’s smarter than that. He will find out no matter how long it takes and I have to make it look as if it was all planned up and I had to use your name to cement the lies!! If anda don’t want to be part of it then anda shouldn’t have been involved in the first place!!” she adds, snapping angrily on the phone.
“How dare you…”
“Look, Uther. The moment anda told me to leave your son and offered me money to do so, anda lost any respect I might have had for you. Big time… understand? Now anda and I are bound oleh nothing… I can snap, shout and even bark at anda like I please. So don’t tell me that I should watch my mouth because I won’t. And listen here, old man… anda have a wonderful son. Take care of him… because if I hear that Arthur’s suffering because of you, I will come for you. Get it?”
Uther laughs on the other side of the line, irking Gwen. “So… anda still care for him?”
“I cinta Arthur and I will always cinta him. anda can buy him from me, Uther, but anda can never buy my cinta away. Till I die… till the last breath leaves my soul, I will cinta him. As he will of me.”
“After what you’ve done to him, I doubt that!”
“Don’t speak atau assume things anda don’t know atau understand, Uther. cinta is not just a feeling we feel for one another. It’s our jantung beat. It will be with us till we die, no matter what happens along the way. It will always be with us, reminding us. Arthur and I might have gone our separate ways but he will always cinta me, I know that. He can marry anyone he likes atau is told to, but I will always be his first true cinta and I can be proud of that. This is one thing anda can never buy, Uther Pendragon. No wealth in your empire can afford this… anda think you’ve won. No, I won. I have been the winner all the while.”
“I can crush you, Gwen… remember that!”
“Isn’t that what anda do best, Uther? Look… I haven’t got the time to talk to you, nor am I in the mood to deal with your arrogance. I have done what anda wanted me to, so… be a man and act like a father. I have diberikan your son back to you, take care of him. At least for once, be the man your wife wanted anda to be!! Goodbye, Uther. This will be our last conversation, so… go to hell!!” with that Gwen shuts the phone and throws it outside. She leans against the dinding and heaves a huge sad sigh. Merlin had been right all the time. He has warned her not to trust Uther and she had completely ignored his advice. She fell for the trap, and in the end; she’s paying the heavier price. If only she had listened to Merlin. Gwen closes her eyes and recalls the unfortunate hari she spent in Uther’s office.
Flashback to couple of weeks earlier …
Gwen is waiting for Uther in his office. She is delighted that the transfer is finally sanctioned after being halted due to some invalid information. Thankfully Reagan had asked Uther to interfere and now her biggest worry is solved. She thought of calling him to thank him but the help he has just offered requires better than a phone call and she decides to pay him a visit. As she looks around, the door opens and Uther walks in. Gwen stands up immediately.
“No, no… Gwen. Sit down please,” Uther says and circles the table, pulls out the chair and sits down.
Gwen sits down and smiles. “I came oleh to say thank anda for your help a while ago. They berkata anda helped to sanction the transfer. Without your interference, they would have rejected the transfer. So… thank you.”
“Come on Gwen … we are family, are we not?” Uther smiles. “Do anda want anything to drink?”
“No, I should be getting back. I left work in a hurry and Gaius must be worried about me,” Gwen says and gets up.
“No I think anda should be lebih worried about what I have to say now than your work, sweetheart. Sit down.” Uther says, flatly, tapping his fingers against his meja lightly.
Gwen feels the air around them changes slightly and sits down, looking at Uther sharply.
Uther smiles and leans back against his chair. “So, how much do anda need to let my son go?”
“What?” Gwen didn’t understand the pertanyaan atau why did Uther’s voice change suddenly.
“I think I was very precise with my question, Gwen. I can write anda a cheque now … a blank cheque. anda just have to fill in the numbers.”
“Are anda trying to buy me?”
“I need my son back in my life but without you. We are Pendragons and we don’t tolerate people of your class in our home. I want anda to leave my son and head back to the shack anda came from. How much do anda need for that?”
Gwen laughs. “I think anda are really sick and desperate. anda will go to any length to get Arthur back to you, wouldn’t you?”
“Any length, whatever necessary.”
“And I feel sad for anda because the answer is no. Thank anda for the offer, but the answer is a big no, with a capital N and O! anda can never buy my cinta for him away… have a nice hari Mr. Uther,” Gwen gets up and prepares to leave but Uther’s laugh stops her short.
“I thought anda might say this and which is why I came prepared with plan B. I tried to be nice, Gwen, but anda wouldn’t have it, so I have to shift back being nasty once again. anda really think your friend has the money already?”
“What do anda mean?”
“Call Morgana and ask if she has received the money? Go on… call her,”
Gwen pulls out her phone and dials Morgana’s number. She brings the phone to her ears and waits, her jantung beating fast. Her eyes fixed upon him. ‘If he’s lying …’
“Hello?”
“Hello, Morgana?”
“Gwen… God, thank goodness anda called.” Morgana sounds nervous. And it isn’t good news for Gwen.
“Morgana, did anda check your account? Has the money been transferred?”
“No, I checked it twice after anda called saying the money has been transferred but it’s not there. So I thought I might as well wait since some accounts take hours, but it’s been three hours already and the account is still empty, Gwen! I am scared… I really need the money, Gwen, please!”
“Are anda sure Morgana, have anda tried again?”
“Don’t waste your friend’s time, Gwen,” Uther says and Gwen tosses him a look of disgust.
“Morgana, I’ll call anda back.” She ends the conversation. “All right, is this all your doing?” she points at him, feeling disgust.
“Don’t get angry, Gwen, I told anda I tried nicely but anda cooperate, so sometimes one has to play dirty to get things rolling. And I specialize in that. Now, your friend didn’t receive the money, did she?”
“No!”
“And I can help there… but one condition. anda must exchange Arthur for the money. Deal?”
‘What the …’ Gwen thinks. “Forget it!”
“Fine, we’ll sacrifice your friend’s life for Arthur then. Good bye!” Uther picks up his phone.
“Wait… what are anda doing? Who are anda calling?”
“That’s none of your business, Gwen. anda can marry Arthur, anda made your decisions clear on that, so… let me just say that the money no longer needs to be transferred.”
“Don’t!! I need the money!”
“Then hand Arthur back to me!”
“I can’t… I cinta him!”
“Love atau life, Gwen, the ball’s in your court. anda save a life through Arthur, think about it that way.”
Gwen feels like her jantung is being ripped out. What the hell in going on with Uther? He had been so nice to her weeks yang lalu and now he’s behaving like a total arse. “Why are anda doing this to me? I cinta your son and I can adjust in your family,” Gwen pleads.
“It’s not the subject of anda adjusting well in mine, Gwen, it’s about dignity, status and class. I can’t have a lower class daughter-in-law, Gwen… imagine all the pertanyaan I would need to answer, the humiliation I would have to face… the status of the Pendragons would be tarnished oleh your presence. I can’t have that. anda can never fit in Gwen, never. Trust me; it will hurt anda and me and above all Arthur. So to save anda from all that pain, I’m asking anda nicely to let Arthur go from your life. There are plenty of men out there who’ll fit in your life well… just let Arthur go. That’s all I need.”
‘Let Arthur go!’ the words replays in her mind like a record player. She can’t imagine a life without Arthur and now his father is demanding one in exchange for her friend’s life. How will she do it? How will she deal with it? “This isn’t fair… using my friend to blackmail me isn’t fair, Mr. Uther!”
“Life isn’t always fair, dear. Now, I haven’t much time… so, what do anda say? Arthur atau the life of your friend? If anda choose Arthur, you’ll be tormented oleh the guilt of ending a life. anda wouldn’t want that, would you?” Uther asks, looking straight at Gwen.
Gwen doesn’t know how to answer him. She knows Morgana needs the money urgently but to lose Arthur in order to help her friend is killing her silently. Gwen knows she can never live without Arthur but if she chooses him, Morgeuse will be dead and Morgana will be devastated. And it would be her fault. Morgana trusted her… how can Gwen disappoint her now? And what would she tell Morgana? Gwen shakes her head.
“So, it’s Arthur then I suppose?” misinterpreting Gwen’s head shake as a sign.
“Don’t torture me, please!” Gwen shouts, covering her head with her hands. Tears roll down her cheek. The prospect of losing Arthur is looming large and she knows she doesn’t have all hari to make her choice. It’s a case of a life against her love. Sacrificing Arthur in order to save a life would mean she’d be free of that guilt, but at the end, she’ll lose Arthur. She’ll be alone, hurt and miserable. She’ll be burdened instead oleh the guilt of losing Arthur and lying to him. She doesn’t know how to decide. This is madness. This is torment. She pounds her fist against her head, silencing the throb that starts to penetrate through her skull.
“Arthur then!” Uther picks up the phone but Gwen rushes over and stops him, holding the phone tightly. Her eyes are bloodshot and she looks at Uther in fear.
“No, please… I’ll… I’ll give up…” the name takes a long time to appear. “Arthur!” she finally says.
Uther smiles and puts down the phone. He fishes out his hand phone and calls a number. Bringing the phone to his ears, he smiles at Gwen. But Gwen looks at him in disgust. “Reagan? It’s all done. anda can carry on with the transfer,” he instructs. Gwen’s eyes widen hearing the name.
‘Reagan?’ she thinks. ‘Is he part of the plan?’ she thinks again. Her jantung hurts and she closes her eyes to shut out the pain. This is all a dream and she will soon wake up from it. Someone snaps their finger in front of her. She opens her eyes and notices Uther looking at her, smiling.
“It’s all done, Gwen. Your friend should have the money oleh now. If anda don’t believe me, anda can call her up and find out.”
Gwen’s fingers tremble as she searches for Morgana’s number and clicks it. The line is immediately picked up oleh her friend. “Morgana?”
“Gwen?”
“The money is transferred, Morgana… anda should be able to use it.”
“Are anda all right, Gwen? anda sound sick.”
“I’m fine…” Gwen lies, wiping away her tears. “Just check if you’ve received your money.”
“Really? Wait, let me check it…”
“Call me when anda have,” Gwen says and ends the call. She feels sick and pahit in her heart. She no longer feels like living; after all what would her life means if Arthur is not part of it. Her head throbs and her knees wobble like jelly, threatening to collapse. She clutches to the edge of the meja to keep herself from falling.
“Shall I ask someone to drive anda home?”
“I’m fine! I don’t want anything from you!” she snaps at him and feels lebih tears flooding her eyes. She wishes to go halaman awal but her feet won’t budge. It looks like she’s glued to the floor for good.
“Come on, Gwen. There’s no need to get angry with me… this is for your own good,”
“There’s no good for me atau Arthur in this… only you.”
“Now, that’s not true. Arthur will get a better life, lead a lebih respectable life with someone of his own status and your friend will have her sister back. And what lebih can anda ask?”
“What about me? I have to endure this agony for the rest of my life!”
“Now… do anda think I’ll let go off anda without a reward?”
Gwen turns around, clearly confused.
Uther smiles and points at the table, where a suitcase filled with money lay open, revealing all the bills inside. “This is for anda Gwen. A reward for your sacrifice. Take this and lead a better life.”
“I told anda already that anda can never buy me!”
“No, I guessed I couldn’t, but… this is just a reward. After all, anda sacrificed your cinta and that requires remarkable compensation,” Uther says.
“You’ve already done that for Morgana…”
“That’s for Arthur… this is for you. I just want to make sure anda benefit from this as well… I hate to think of anda being left out,” Uther explains. “And I also want to make sure anda don’t hold on to your sacrifice to get back to me… anda know, when anda get desperate. Knowing you… I might as well be prepared,”
Gwen laughs bitterly. “You don’t have to worry, Uther Pendragon. When I promise, I hold on to my promise. When I say I will let Arthur go, I will do just that. But I don’t need your pathetic money for me… like I said, anda can never buy me atau my love, and I don’t need anda having something to lord over me. Goodbye!” Gwen barks and strides towards the door.
“Are anda sure about this?” Uther calls from behind. “This money can keep anda happy forever, Gwen. anda wouldn’t have to work at all.” He snickers.
“You can take your money and stick it where the sun doesn’t shine,” Gwen snaps coldly, then picks up a vase from the meja beside the door and heaves it at Uther. He dodges it, the sneer still on his face.
“Whatever anda say.”
And with that Gwen left the office, tears still flowing down her cheek. As she passes through the huge sliding door, her phone rings. It was Morgana.
“Gwen… thank anda so much, the money is the in the bank. I can get it to Morgause… thank anda so much. I cinta you.”
“Glad to have helped, Morgana. See anda later.” And Gwen slumps down oleh the side of the lamp post, clutching her stomach, crying her jantung out.
Arthur pounds the back of the kursi with his fist, angrily as the car swerves in to the huge yard that leads to the exclusive manor of the Pendragons. Gwaine clenches his cheek, listening to his friend’s cries while Merlin sits slumped in sadness. Behind him, Arthur is still kicking and pounding the kursi with his feet and hands, lashing out his anger. His jantung is shattered, hurt and extremely broken beyond words. He feels empty inside. He no longer feels for him atau anyone. All he does feel is the sense of emptiness, lingering in him.
“Damn anda Guinevere!” Arthur slams the kursi beside and buries his head on the seat.
“Arthur… calm yourself,” Gwaine advices as he quickly glances back.
“How can I, Gwaine… how can I? She killed me with her words… and yet, I still cinta her!”
“Get over it, Arthur… anda heard her! She never loved you!”
“We don’t know that for sure, Gwaine,” Merlin says from beside him.
“Didn’t anda hear everything, Merlin? Didn’t anda hear the words she laid on Arthur?”
“I heard her, Gwaine, but I know she loves him,” Merlin balasa sadly but still not looking at Gwaine. “I am worried about her. Something is suspicious.”
“Yeah… well, anda should be worried about Arthur, because she just broke his heart!”
“Gwaine… come on!” Merlin turns to look at Gwaine. “Give her a break, too. We don’t know what her side of the story really is… and there’s no point in jumping to conclusions.”
“Merlin! Look… if anda want to go ahead and believe she is hiding something, oleh all means do it, but I will not because Arthur’s my friend and I will not betray him like she did… and anda shouldn’t either!”
“I’m not betraying Arthur.”
“Then don’t!” Gwaine snaps at Merlin angrily forcing Merlin to coil back into his sadness. Gwaine concentrates on the road and in menit brings the car to a halt in front of the huge doorway. Gwaine pulls his handbrake and glances at Merlin before turning around to meet Arthur. “We are here Arthur,” he says.
Without a word, Arthur pushes the door open with a bang and steps out. He doesn’t even bother to close the door and climbs up the steps and enters. Gwaine sighs and steps out but Merlin doesn’t do the same.
“Aren’t anda coming?”
“No… anda go ahead,” Merlin jawaban and Gwaine doesn’t press. Today’s events are far too bizarre to be described and if Merlin wants to have his moment alone, so be it. Gwaine closes the door behind him and enters the manor.
“Father?” Arthur calls loudly, entering the main hall. “Father!! Dad!!!” he calls again. But no one seems to be around, not even Geoffrey. Arthur searches for his father in all the rooms he knows his father might be in, including Uther’s study, but the old man isn’t there either. Arthur is angry. He kicks the chair in the study as hard as possible and walks out to the window. As he nears it, he spots his father, standing oleh the fountain. Arthur pounds the window pane and rushes out. As he hurries out he passes Geoffrey but he doesn’t stop oleh to greet the old butler.
Uther is looking at a dying plant when he hears footsteps behind him. He knows to whom they belong, but he keeps looking at the plant.
“Father?” Arthur calls the moment he comes to stand behind his father.
Uther turns around slowly, his face pale and weary. He might be entering his late fifties but never looked that part until now, with all the guilt and burden placed on his shoulders, Uther suddenly looks his age. “Arthur?”
“You didn’t come to see me in the hospital.”
“I know… I’m sorry,”
“Are anda also sorry for what anda have done to me?”
“Arthur…” Uther steps closer with his arms extended but Arthur steps back, his eyes red in anger. He shakes his head.
“I am sorry… I didn’t mean for it to happen like this…” Uther says sadly.
“So, anda know. That was fast!” Arthur teases bitterly.
“I knew what would happen, but not what happened,” Uther replies.
“Is that why you’ve been a mere shadow in the hospital? Is that why anda didn’t come to see me today?”
“Look, Arthur… I didn’t know it would turn out this badly for you.”
“But it did, Father. It did… and what are anda going to do now? Buy lebih people to settle the trouble you’ve caused atau are anda going break lebih hearts like anda did mine?”
“Stop it, Arthur… I didn’t want it to end like this but I had no choice. She was threatening to put anda behind bars, and…”
“You should have let her, Dad!! I killed a man, an innocent man, and I deserve to be tried! That would have been fair, man for man, life for a life!”
“But anda are my son, Arthur!! And I will not let my son be put behind bars while I am still alive! I will do all I can to see anda are free and I did just that. Unfortunately she used anda for her own interests and I hardly see how that’s my fault. I am just as stunned oleh what she caused as anda are, Arthur. I was willing to accept her into our family!”
“I really want to believe what anda tell me, Father, but…” Arthur pounds his chest. “Why am I feeling different about this? Why am I finding it hard to believe all this…”
“This is the truth, Arthur. And I know it will be hard for anda to believe me, after all I haven’t been very convincing to you, either. But the ball’s in your court, Arthur. It’s up to anda to believe me atau not. I am not denying I played a part in your misery but I meant well. I wanted to make sure anda were aman, brankas and chose the only way I know how, through money. I didn’t know what type of a person she had been before, but I was willing to take her in if indeed she had been in cinta with you. Unfortunately, she wasn’t…”
“How will she live, Father? anda gave her money for that, too… didn’t you?”
“Arthur, that’s rubbish!”
“You challenged her to make me agree to the operation, didn’t you? And she played her cards well… so did you? Both of you… makes me sick!”
“Arthur, I did that but I didn’t ask her to play with your feelings and neither did I know you’ll fall in cinta with her. That surprised me at first, but I thought she probably changed herself and decided to persuade anda willingly. But then she came oleh my office last week to ensure I gave the money as promised. I know none of this will make any sense to you, but I don’t care Arthur. My conscience is clean and I owe no one any explanations. If anda still want answers, why don’t anda do the investigation yourself? Find out if she came oleh the office and met me? Ask the managing director if she asked for the money to be transferred atau if such a sum was actually transferred? And ask Gaius if she did leave her work to meet me last week? I am not making this whole situation up Arthur, I don’t have to. But this is the truth and it’s up to anda to believe it.”
“I… I don’t even know what to believe anymore, Father… atau who should I believe. Those I love, those I trust, always ends up hurting my heart… so why should I even care what anda say?” Arthur leans against the pillar and sighs, sadly.
Uther walks towards his son and reaches out to grab his shoulders. “I am not proud of what I did, Arthur, and I know you, too… it’s never easy shouldering the guilt of taking a life and it will haunt anda for life. And the same goes for me but, I did what I must because anda are my son. anda will not understand this, Arthur, but… one hari when anda have a son of your own, anda will. Until then, if it makes it any better, let me shoulder the guilt.” Uther walks past his son. Arthur remains quiet.
“What are anda doing, Arthur?” Gwaine stops Uther and looks directly at Arthur. The latter turns around.
“It’s all right Gwaine…” Uther starts. But Gwaine silences the elder Pendragon with a nod.
“Are anda still pining away after her? Haven’t anda learned anything from what happened a while ago?” Gwaine reminds. “She left anda Arthur!! And she did it coldly!”
“Gwaine…”
“I’m sorry, but I have to say this, and it will hurt anda as well, Uther. I don’t trust anda and never did but I trust Gwen when she berkata anda offered her money, because that what’s anda are good at. But what I didn’t expect from her is the way she treated Arthur. That was completely shocking and it left pahit taste to my mouth. I trusted and respected her, but now… that respect has turned into ashes. I heard all the things she berkata and each word was like a knife, piercing into our hearts. I felt the pain and I meant nothing to her, but… imagine how Arthur would have felt. And then I know where have I mistakenly placed my trust,” Gwaine explains. “But that doesn’t mean I trust you…” he adds quickly, looking Uther. “There’s still some way to go before we achieve that… but I am with anda on this." Gwaine says and walks towards Arthur. “What your Father did was selfish, but no one knew Gwen would turn her back on you. We underestimated her, Arthur. Your cinta for her blinded your judgment and I understand it pains everyone, especially you, but… anda have to let her go.”
“I can’t, Gwaine… I see her everywhere!”
“It takes time, Arthur… no one berkata it will be easy. But anda have to let her go…”
“Why, Gwaine!” Arthur snaps, pushing Gwaine’s hand from his shoulder.
“Because she is the past, Arthur!! This…” Gwaine points at Uther. “This man here is your future now!” Gwaine says, equally angry at Arthur for still behaving like a helpless child. “This man did all this because he loves anda and I know there’s no ethics in his actions but what about Gwen’s? She loved only your money. But this man used his money to save anda because anda are his son. A father will go any length to save their son and yours did the same. It hurts, yes, but anda are saved, Arthur. Think about that… Gwen’s history now, she no longer exists in your life. anda have a bright new future ahead of anda so it’s time anda paid attention to that!”
“Gwaine… let him be, son. He will never believe me no matter who advises him. And I am used to this oleh now. I am just relieved he has his eyesight back… and thank anda for speaking on my behalf,” Uther says softly, looking sadly at Arthur who still keeps quiet.
“What are anda doing, Arthur?” Gwaine hisses, shaking Arthur’s arm.
For Arthur everything seems blurring. He can’t think clearly. He understands what Gwaine is telling him but he cannot look beyond what he understands. He wants to believe his father and though one half of his jantung is with his father, the other half is still lacking trust. And now Gwaine is confusing him further oleh taking sides with his old man. ‘Where’s Merlin?’ Arthur thinks. He values his friend’s saran and now he needs it lebih than ever. But there’s no sight of his friend. Gwaine is probably reacting because he is hurt oleh Gwen’s actions today, but Merlin had been on Gwen’s side all the way. ‘Does he knows something I don’t know?’ Arthur thinks. His jantung is heavy. He wants to believe his father yet something is nagging in the back of his head, like a warning bell. What could that be? And now, Gwaine wants him to reconcile with his father. ‘Who should I trust?’ Arthur thinks. ‘Gwen… my father?’ Arthur thinks and closes his eyes. His head throbs. The events of today have been stressing and it’s no good for his eyes.
“Arthur?” Uther’s hand on his shoulder alerts him. Arthur stiffens.
“I am sorry, Son,” Uther says, tears welling in his eyes.
And Arthur’s jantung softens. His own tears, the ones he’d been keeping in check all this while rolls down his cheek. He pulls his father close and hugs him. “I’m sorry, Father… I am sorry.”
“No, anda have nothing to be sorry for.”
“I have everything to be sorry for, Father. I still feel this whole situation is bizarre but I promise anda this…” Arthur pulls himself away from his father. “I will try to be the son anda want. I give anda my word.”
“Thank anda Arthur… thank you,” Uther says and hugs his son back.
Inside the train, Gwen stands oleh the door looking dejected. Her jantung is aching and she doesn’t even know how to contain the pain. It creeps, leaving her dizzy. ‘Did I say all those things? Did I really say that?’ she thinks, trying to recall what has happened. Everything seems like a dream, but the pain she feels in her jantung is real. She drops her bag, clutches her jantung and slumps to the ground. Tears are rolling down, wetting her neck and her kemeja but she doesn’t care about it anymore. Her breathing is coming in rapidly as she tries to restrain her tears but the pain in her jantung increases as she remembers each and every word she told Arthur. ‘I broke his heart… I broke him,’ she thinks as she slams her head against the dinding of the coach. ‘I’m sorry, Arthur… I’m so sorry,’ she thinks again and slams her head again and again until she felt slightly dizzy.
But the tears keep flowing down her cheek. Her lips tremble as she buries her face in her hands and cries her jantung out. She knows Arthur will never forgive her, but she didn’t have a choice. She wouldn’t have done it if she wasn’t forced, she would never hurt him even in her dreams, but now, not only has she broken his jantung but she has shattered his strength as well. She fears for him. Will he be all right? Will he revert back to his old prattish self atau will the rejection make him stronger? Gwen doesn’t know and she will never be able to find out from anyone… perhaps maybe from Merlin. One day.
Gwen looks up, her eyes swollen and painful. Merlin is the only one who’ll believe her. He is the only one suspicious of her behavior and he could be her only hope to find out about Arthur. But how will she do it? How can she ask Merlin without anyone else finding out? lebih tears flow from her already swollen eyes and Gwen’s jantung aches like it is being ripped into shreds. She wishes none of this happened.
Why did she have to say all this to Arthur? Why did she have to face his wrath when their happiness was just a week away? Why is life so unfair to her? What did she do to deserve such a punishment? Where did she fail? pertanyaan after pertanyaan floods her brain until she feels sick to her stomach. Something rings; her phone. Gwen sniffs and picks up her phone, her eyes reddening further when she spots Uther’s name on it. She wants to throw the phone away but she knows she must tell him what happened. She clicks on the phone and brings it to her ears.
“You didn’t call me! What happened?” Uther barks on the phone.
“It’s done… like anda wanted!”
“You were supposed to inform me the moment anda were done with him… not me calling anda to find out!”
Gwen feels her jantung ache. Her brain snaps in anger and she closes her eyes, to calm herself. “It’s done. He is on the way to meet you,”
“Meet me… now, what have anda done?”
“I didn’t do anything. I told him anda paid me to act and he probably wants clarification from you. I told him to ask you.”
“What! Are anda stupid, Gwen? I told anda to leave me out of this and now look what you’ve done! Arthur’s going to think I’m part of this and will hate me again. I told anda to make this look as if anda are doing this…”
“What the hell was I supposed to do?” Gwen shouts on the phone, silencing Uther on the other side. “Do anda think Arthur’s stupid? Do anda think your son will fall for any cock and banteng story that comes out from my mouth? No, he will not. Arthur’s smarter than that. He will find out no matter how long it takes and I have to make it look as if it was all planned up and I had to use your name to cement the lies!! If anda don’t want to be part of it then anda shouldn’t have been involved in the first place!!” she adds, snapping angrily on the phone.
“How dare you…”
“Look, Uther. The moment anda told me to leave your son and offered me money to do so, anda lost any respect I might have had for you. Big time… understand? Now anda and I are bound oleh nothing… I can snap, shout and even bark at anda like I please. So don’t tell me that I should watch my mouth because I won’t. And listen here, old man… anda have a wonderful son. Take care of him… because if I hear that Arthur’s suffering because of you, I will come for you. Get it?”
Uther laughs on the other side of the line, irking Gwen. “So… anda still care for him?”
“I cinta Arthur and I will always cinta him. anda can buy him from me, Uther, but anda can never buy my cinta away. Till I die… till the last breath leaves my soul, I will cinta him. As he will of me.”
“After what you’ve done to him, I doubt that!”
“Don’t speak atau assume things anda don’t know atau understand, Uther. cinta is not just a feeling we feel for one another. It’s our jantung beat. It will be with us till we die, no matter what happens along the way. It will always be with us, reminding us. Arthur and I might have gone our separate ways but he will always cinta me, I know that. He can marry anyone he likes atau is told to, but I will always be his first true cinta and I can be proud of that. This is one thing anda can never buy, Uther Pendragon. No wealth in your empire can afford this… anda think you’ve won. No, I won. I have been the winner all the while.”
“I can crush you, Gwen… remember that!”
“Isn’t that what anda do best, Uther? Look… I haven’t got the time to talk to you, nor am I in the mood to deal with your arrogance. I have done what anda wanted me to, so… be a man and act like a father. I have diberikan your son back to you, take care of him. At least for once, be the man your wife wanted anda to be!! Goodbye, Uther. This will be our last conversation, so… go to hell!!” with that Gwen shuts the phone and throws it outside. She leans against the dinding and heaves a huge sad sigh. Merlin had been right all the time. He has warned her not to trust Uther and she had completely ignored his advice. She fell for the trap, and in the end; she’s paying the heavier price. If only she had listened to Merlin. Gwen closes her eyes and recalls the unfortunate hari she spent in Uther’s office.
Flashback to couple of weeks earlier …
Gwen is waiting for Uther in his office. She is delighted that the transfer is finally sanctioned after being halted due to some invalid information. Thankfully Reagan had asked Uther to interfere and now her biggest worry is solved. She thought of calling him to thank him but the help he has just offered requires better than a phone call and she decides to pay him a visit. As she looks around, the door opens and Uther walks in. Gwen stands up immediately.
“No, no… Gwen. Sit down please,” Uther says and circles the table, pulls out the chair and sits down.
Gwen sits down and smiles. “I came oleh to say thank anda for your help a while ago. They berkata anda helped to sanction the transfer. Without your interference, they would have rejected the transfer. So… thank you.”
“Come on Gwen … we are family, are we not?” Uther smiles. “Do anda want anything to drink?”
“No, I should be getting back. I left work in a hurry and Gaius must be worried about me,” Gwen says and gets up.
“No I think anda should be lebih worried about what I have to say now than your work, sweetheart. Sit down.” Uther says, flatly, tapping his fingers against his meja lightly.
Gwen feels the air around them changes slightly and sits down, looking at Uther sharply.
Uther smiles and leans back against his chair. “So, how much do anda need to let my son go?”
“What?” Gwen didn’t understand the pertanyaan atau why did Uther’s voice change suddenly.
“I think I was very precise with my question, Gwen. I can write anda a cheque now … a blank cheque. anda just have to fill in the numbers.”
“Are anda trying to buy me?”
“I need my son back in my life but without you. We are Pendragons and we don’t tolerate people of your class in our home. I want anda to leave my son and head back to the shack anda came from. How much do anda need for that?”
Gwen laughs. “I think anda are really sick and desperate. anda will go to any length to get Arthur back to you, wouldn’t you?”
“Any length, whatever necessary.”
“And I feel sad for anda because the answer is no. Thank anda for the offer, but the answer is a big no, with a capital N and O! anda can never buy my cinta for him away… have a nice hari Mr. Uther,” Gwen gets up and prepares to leave but Uther’s laugh stops her short.
“I thought anda might say this and which is why I came prepared with plan B. I tried to be nice, Gwen, but anda wouldn’t have it, so I have to shift back being nasty once again. anda really think your friend has the money already?”
“What do anda mean?”
“Call Morgana and ask if she has received the money? Go on… call her,”
Gwen pulls out her phone and dials Morgana’s number. She brings the phone to her ears and waits, her jantung beating fast. Her eyes fixed upon him. ‘If he’s lying …’
“Hello?”
“Hello, Morgana?”
“Gwen… God, thank goodness anda called.” Morgana sounds nervous. And it isn’t good news for Gwen.
“Morgana, did anda check your account? Has the money been transferred?”
“No, I checked it twice after anda called saying the money has been transferred but it’s not there. So I thought I might as well wait since some accounts take hours, but it’s been three hours already and the account is still empty, Gwen! I am scared… I really need the money, Gwen, please!”
“Are anda sure Morgana, have anda tried again?”
“Don’t waste your friend’s time, Gwen,” Uther says and Gwen tosses him a look of disgust.
“Morgana, I’ll call anda back.” She ends the conversation. “All right, is this all your doing?” she points at him, feeling disgust.
“Don’t get angry, Gwen, I told anda I tried nicely but anda cooperate, so sometimes one has to play dirty to get things rolling. And I specialize in that. Now, your friend didn’t receive the money, did she?”
“No!”
“And I can help there… but one condition. anda must exchange Arthur for the money. Deal?”
‘What the …’ Gwen thinks. “Forget it!”
“Fine, we’ll sacrifice your friend’s life for Arthur then. Good bye!” Uther picks up his phone.
“Wait… what are anda doing? Who are anda calling?”
“That’s none of your business, Gwen. anda can marry Arthur, anda made your decisions clear on that, so… let me just say that the money no longer needs to be transferred.”
“Don’t!! I need the money!”
“Then hand Arthur back to me!”
“I can’t… I cinta him!”
“Love atau life, Gwen, the ball’s in your court. anda save a life through Arthur, think about it that way.”
Gwen feels like her jantung is being ripped out. What the hell in going on with Uther? He had been so nice to her weeks yang lalu and now he’s behaving like a total arse. “Why are anda doing this to me? I cinta your son and I can adjust in your family,” Gwen pleads.
“It’s not the subject of anda adjusting well in mine, Gwen, it’s about dignity, status and class. I can’t have a lower class daughter-in-law, Gwen… imagine all the pertanyaan I would need to answer, the humiliation I would have to face… the status of the Pendragons would be tarnished oleh your presence. I can’t have that. anda can never fit in Gwen, never. Trust me; it will hurt anda and me and above all Arthur. So to save anda from all that pain, I’m asking anda nicely to let Arthur go from your life. There are plenty of men out there who’ll fit in your life well… just let Arthur go. That’s all I need.”
‘Let Arthur go!’ the words replays in her mind like a record player. She can’t imagine a life without Arthur and now his father is demanding one in exchange for her friend’s life. How will she do it? How will she deal with it? “This isn’t fair… using my friend to blackmail me isn’t fair, Mr. Uther!”
“Life isn’t always fair, dear. Now, I haven’t much time… so, what do anda say? Arthur atau the life of your friend? If anda choose Arthur, you’ll be tormented oleh the guilt of ending a life. anda wouldn’t want that, would you?” Uther asks, looking straight at Gwen.
Gwen doesn’t know how to answer him. She knows Morgana needs the money urgently but to lose Arthur in order to help her friend is killing her silently. Gwen knows she can never live without Arthur but if she chooses him, Morgeuse will be dead and Morgana will be devastated. And it would be her fault. Morgana trusted her… how can Gwen disappoint her now? And what would she tell Morgana? Gwen shakes her head.
“So, it’s Arthur then I suppose?” misinterpreting Gwen’s head shake as a sign.
“Don’t torture me, please!” Gwen shouts, covering her head with her hands. Tears roll down her cheek. The prospect of losing Arthur is looming large and she knows she doesn’t have all hari to make her choice. It’s a case of a life against her love. Sacrificing Arthur in order to save a life would mean she’d be free of that guilt, but at the end, she’ll lose Arthur. She’ll be alone, hurt and miserable. She’ll be burdened instead oleh the guilt of losing Arthur and lying to him. She doesn’t know how to decide. This is madness. This is torment. She pounds her fist against her head, silencing the throb that starts to penetrate through her skull.
“Arthur then!” Uther picks up the phone but Gwen rushes over and stops him, holding the phone tightly. Her eyes are bloodshot and she looks at Uther in fear.
“No, please… I’ll… I’ll give up…” the name takes a long time to appear. “Arthur!” she finally says.
Uther smiles and puts down the phone. He fishes out his hand phone and calls a number. Bringing the phone to his ears, he smiles at Gwen. But Gwen looks at him in disgust. “Reagan? It’s all done. anda can carry on with the transfer,” he instructs. Gwen’s eyes widen hearing the name.
‘Reagan?’ she thinks. ‘Is he part of the plan?’ she thinks again. Her jantung hurts and she closes her eyes to shut out the pain. This is all a dream and she will soon wake up from it. Someone snaps their finger in front of her. She opens her eyes and notices Uther looking at her, smiling.
“It’s all done, Gwen. Your friend should have the money oleh now. If anda don’t believe me, anda can call her up and find out.”
Gwen’s fingers tremble as she searches for Morgana’s number and clicks it. The line is immediately picked up oleh her friend. “Morgana?”
“Gwen?”
“The money is transferred, Morgana… anda should be able to use it.”
“Are anda all right, Gwen? anda sound sick.”
“I’m fine…” Gwen lies, wiping away her tears. “Just check if you’ve received your money.”
“Really? Wait, let me check it…”
“Call me when anda have,” Gwen says and ends the call. She feels sick and pahit in her heart. She no longer feels like living; after all what would her life means if Arthur is not part of it. Her head throbs and her knees wobble like jelly, threatening to collapse. She clutches to the edge of the meja to keep herself from falling.
“Shall I ask someone to drive anda home?”
“I’m fine! I don’t want anything from you!” she snaps at him and feels lebih tears flooding her eyes. She wishes to go halaman awal but her feet won’t budge. It looks like she’s glued to the floor for good.
“Come on, Gwen. There’s no need to get angry with me… this is for your own good,”
“There’s no good for me atau Arthur in this… only you.”
“Now, that’s not true. Arthur will get a better life, lead a lebih respectable life with someone of his own status and your friend will have her sister back. And what lebih can anda ask?”
“What about me? I have to endure this agony for the rest of my life!”
“Now… do anda think I’ll let go off anda without a reward?”
Gwen turns around, clearly confused.
Uther smiles and points at the table, where a suitcase filled with money lay open, revealing all the bills inside. “This is for anda Gwen. A reward for your sacrifice. Take this and lead a better life.”
“I told anda already that anda can never buy me!”
“No, I guessed I couldn’t, but… this is just a reward. After all, anda sacrificed your cinta and that requires remarkable compensation,” Uther says.
“You’ve already done that for Morgana…”
“That’s for Arthur… this is for you. I just want to make sure anda benefit from this as well… I hate to think of anda being left out,” Uther explains. “And I also want to make sure anda don’t hold on to your sacrifice to get back to me… anda know, when anda get desperate. Knowing you… I might as well be prepared,”
Gwen laughs bitterly. “You don’t have to worry, Uther Pendragon. When I promise, I hold on to my promise. When I say I will let Arthur go, I will do just that. But I don’t need your pathetic money for me… like I said, anda can never buy me atau my love, and I don’t need anda having something to lord over me. Goodbye!” Gwen barks and strides towards the door.
“Are anda sure about this?” Uther calls from behind. “This money can keep anda happy forever, Gwen. anda wouldn’t have to work at all.” He snickers.
“You can take your money and stick it where the sun doesn’t shine,” Gwen snaps coldly, then picks up a vase from the meja beside the door and heaves it at Uther. He dodges it, the sneer still on his face.
“Whatever anda say.”
And with that Gwen left the office, tears still flowing down her cheek. As she passes through the huge sliding door, her phone rings. It was Morgana.
“Gwen… thank anda so much, the money is the in the bank. I can get it to Morgause… thank anda so much. I cinta you.”
“Glad to have helped, Morgana. See anda later.” And Gwen slumps down oleh the side of the lamp post, clutching her stomach, crying her jantung out.
Arthur pounds the back of the kursi with his fist, angrily as the car swerves in to the huge yard that leads to the exclusive manor of the Pendragons. Gwaine clenches his cheek, listening to his friend’s cries while Merlin sits slumped in sadness. Behind him, Arthur is still kicking and pounding the kursi with his feet and hands, lashing out his anger. His jantung is shattered, hurt and extremely broken beyond words. He feels empty inside. He no longer feels for him atau anyone. All he does feel is the sense of emptiness, lingering in him.
“Damn anda Guinevere!” Arthur slams the kursi beside and buries his head on the seat.
“Arthur… calm yourself,” Gwaine advices as he quickly glances back.
“How can I, Gwaine… how can I? She killed me with her words… and yet, I still cinta her!”
“Get over it, Arthur… anda heard her! She never loved you!”
“We don’t know that for sure, Gwaine,” Merlin says from beside him.
“Didn’t anda hear everything, Merlin? Didn’t anda hear the words she laid on Arthur?”
“I heard her, Gwaine, but I know she loves him,” Merlin balasa sadly but still not looking at Gwaine. “I am worried about her. Something is suspicious.”
“Yeah… well, anda should be worried about Arthur, because she just broke his heart!”
“Gwaine… come on!” Merlin turns to look at Gwaine. “Give her a break, too. We don’t know what her side of the story really is… and there’s no point in jumping to conclusions.”
“Merlin! Look… if anda want to go ahead and believe she is hiding something, oleh all means do it, but I will not because Arthur’s my friend and I will not betray him like she did… and anda shouldn’t either!”
“I’m not betraying Arthur.”
“Then don’t!” Gwaine snaps at Merlin angrily forcing Merlin to coil back into his sadness. Gwaine concentrates on the road and in menit brings the car to a halt in front of the huge doorway. Gwaine pulls his handbrake and glances at Merlin before turning around to meet Arthur. “We are here Arthur,” he says.
Without a word, Arthur pushes the door open with a bang and steps out. He doesn’t even bother to close the door and climbs up the steps and enters. Gwaine sighs and steps out but Merlin doesn’t do the same.
“Aren’t anda coming?”
“No… anda go ahead,” Merlin jawaban and Gwaine doesn’t press. Today’s events are far too bizarre to be described and if Merlin wants to have his moment alone, so be it. Gwaine closes the door behind him and enters the manor.
“Father?” Arthur calls loudly, entering the main hall. “Father!! Dad!!!” he calls again. But no one seems to be around, not even Geoffrey. Arthur searches for his father in all the rooms he knows his father might be in, including Uther’s study, but the old man isn’t there either. Arthur is angry. He kicks the chair in the study as hard as possible and walks out to the window. As he nears it, he spots his father, standing oleh the fountain. Arthur pounds the window pane and rushes out. As he hurries out he passes Geoffrey but he doesn’t stop oleh to greet the old butler.
Uther is looking at a dying plant when he hears footsteps behind him. He knows to whom they belong, but he keeps looking at the plant.
“Father?” Arthur calls the moment he comes to stand behind his father.
Uther turns around slowly, his face pale and weary. He might be entering his late fifties but never looked that part until now, with all the guilt and burden placed on his shoulders, Uther suddenly looks his age. “Arthur?”
“You didn’t come to see me in the hospital.”
“I know… I’m sorry,”
“Are anda also sorry for what anda have done to me?”
“Arthur…” Uther steps closer with his arms extended but Arthur steps back, his eyes red in anger. He shakes his head.
“I am sorry… I didn’t mean for it to happen like this…” Uther says sadly.
“So, anda know. That was fast!” Arthur teases bitterly.
“I knew what would happen, but not what happened,” Uther replies.
“Is that why you’ve been a mere shadow in the hospital? Is that why anda didn’t come to see me today?”
“Look, Arthur… I didn’t know it would turn out this badly for you.”
“But it did, Father. It did… and what are anda going to do now? Buy lebih people to settle the trouble you’ve caused atau are anda going break lebih hearts like anda did mine?”
“Stop it, Arthur… I didn’t want it to end like this but I had no choice. She was threatening to put anda behind bars, and…”
“You should have let her, Dad!! I killed a man, an innocent man, and I deserve to be tried! That would have been fair, man for man, life for a life!”
“But anda are my son, Arthur!! And I will not let my son be put behind bars while I am still alive! I will do all I can to see anda are free and I did just that. Unfortunately she used anda for her own interests and I hardly see how that’s my fault. I am just as stunned oleh what she caused as anda are, Arthur. I was willing to accept her into our family!”
“I really want to believe what anda tell me, Father, but…” Arthur pounds his chest. “Why am I feeling different about this? Why am I finding it hard to believe all this…”
“This is the truth, Arthur. And I know it will be hard for anda to believe me, after all I haven’t been very convincing to you, either. But the ball’s in your court, Arthur. It’s up to anda to believe me atau not. I am not denying I played a part in your misery but I meant well. I wanted to make sure anda were aman, brankas and chose the only way I know how, through money. I didn’t know what type of a person she had been before, but I was willing to take her in if indeed she had been in cinta with you. Unfortunately, she wasn’t…”
“How will she live, Father? anda gave her money for that, too… didn’t you?”
“Arthur, that’s rubbish!”
“You challenged her to make me agree to the operation, didn’t you? And she played her cards well… so did you? Both of you… makes me sick!”
“Arthur, I did that but I didn’t ask her to play with your feelings and neither did I know you’ll fall in cinta with her. That surprised me at first, but I thought she probably changed herself and decided to persuade anda willingly. But then she came oleh my office last week to ensure I gave the money as promised. I know none of this will make any sense to you, but I don’t care Arthur. My conscience is clean and I owe no one any explanations. If anda still want answers, why don’t anda do the investigation yourself? Find out if she came oleh the office and met me? Ask the managing director if she asked for the money to be transferred atau if such a sum was actually transferred? And ask Gaius if she did leave her work to meet me last week? I am not making this whole situation up Arthur, I don’t have to. But this is the truth and it’s up to anda to believe it.”
“I… I don’t even know what to believe anymore, Father… atau who should I believe. Those I love, those I trust, always ends up hurting my heart… so why should I even care what anda say?” Arthur leans against the pillar and sighs, sadly.
Uther walks towards his son and reaches out to grab his shoulders. “I am not proud of what I did, Arthur, and I know you, too… it’s never easy shouldering the guilt of taking a life and it will haunt anda for life. And the same goes for me but, I did what I must because anda are my son. anda will not understand this, Arthur, but… one hari when anda have a son of your own, anda will. Until then, if it makes it any better, let me shoulder the guilt.” Uther walks past his son. Arthur remains quiet.
“What are anda doing, Arthur?” Gwaine stops Uther and looks directly at Arthur. The latter turns around.
“It’s all right Gwaine…” Uther starts. But Gwaine silences the elder Pendragon with a nod.
“Are anda still pining away after her? Haven’t anda learned anything from what happened a while ago?” Gwaine reminds. “She left anda Arthur!! And she did it coldly!”
“Gwaine…”
“I’m sorry, but I have to say this, and it will hurt anda as well, Uther. I don’t trust anda and never did but I trust Gwen when she berkata anda offered her money, because that what’s anda are good at. But what I didn’t expect from her is the way she treated Arthur. That was completely shocking and it left pahit taste to my mouth. I trusted and respected her, but now… that respect has turned into ashes. I heard all the things she berkata and each word was like a knife, piercing into our hearts. I felt the pain and I meant nothing to her, but… imagine how Arthur would have felt. And then I know where have I mistakenly placed my trust,” Gwaine explains. “But that doesn’t mean I trust you…” he adds quickly, looking Uther. “There’s still some way to go before we achieve that… but I am with anda on this." Gwaine says and walks towards Arthur. “What your Father did was selfish, but no one knew Gwen would turn her back on you. We underestimated her, Arthur. Your cinta for her blinded your judgment and I understand it pains everyone, especially you, but… anda have to let her go.”
“I can’t, Gwaine… I see her everywhere!”
“It takes time, Arthur… no one berkata it will be easy. But anda have to let her go…”
“Why, Gwaine!” Arthur snaps, pushing Gwaine’s hand from his shoulder.
“Because she is the past, Arthur!! This…” Gwaine points at Uther. “This man here is your future now!” Gwaine says, equally angry at Arthur for still behaving like a helpless child. “This man did all this because he loves anda and I know there’s no ethics in his actions but what about Gwen’s? She loved only your money. But this man used his money to save anda because anda are his son. A father will go any length to save their son and yours did the same. It hurts, yes, but anda are saved, Arthur. Think about that… Gwen’s history now, she no longer exists in your life. anda have a bright new future ahead of anda so it’s time anda paid attention to that!”
“Gwaine… let him be, son. He will never believe me no matter who advises him. And I am used to this oleh now. I am just relieved he has his eyesight back… and thank anda for speaking on my behalf,” Uther says softly, looking sadly at Arthur who still keeps quiet.
“What are anda doing, Arthur?” Gwaine hisses, shaking Arthur’s arm.
For Arthur everything seems blurring. He can’t think clearly. He understands what Gwaine is telling him but he cannot look beyond what he understands. He wants to believe his father and though one half of his jantung is with his father, the other half is still lacking trust. And now Gwaine is confusing him further oleh taking sides with his old man. ‘Where’s Merlin?’ Arthur thinks. He values his friend’s saran and now he needs it lebih than ever. But there’s no sight of his friend. Gwaine is probably reacting because he is hurt oleh Gwen’s actions today, but Merlin had been on Gwen’s side all the way. ‘Does he knows something I don’t know?’ Arthur thinks. His jantung is heavy. He wants to believe his father yet something is nagging in the back of his head, like a warning bell. What could that be? And now, Gwaine wants him to reconcile with his father. ‘Who should I trust?’ Arthur thinks. ‘Gwen… my father?’ Arthur thinks and closes his eyes. His head throbs. The events of today have been stressing and it’s no good for his eyes.
“Arthur?” Uther’s hand on his shoulder alerts him. Arthur stiffens.
“I am sorry, Son,” Uther says, tears welling in his eyes.
And Arthur’s jantung softens. His own tears, the ones he’d been keeping in check all this while rolls down his cheek. He pulls his father close and hugs him. “I’m sorry, Father… I am sorry.”
“No, anda have nothing to be sorry for.”
“I have everything to be sorry for, Father. I still feel this whole situation is bizarre but I promise anda this…” Arthur pulls himself away from his father. “I will try to be the son anda want. I give anda my word.”
“Thank anda Arthur… thank you,” Uther says and hugs his son back.
