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, Drea de Matteo‘s arc on the FX drama came full circle when Jax at long last told Abel that Wendy is his real mom. The powerful scene was symbolic of how far de Matteo’s ex-junkie character has come over the show’s seven-year history. As series creator Kurt Sutter recently noted, “The woman who was probably the most damaged in the pilot is [now] the most self-aware human being in Charming.”

De Matteo believes Wendy’s drug issues played a pivotal role in that evolution. “She’s done so much work on herself being a drug addict and being institutionalized for four seasons,” the actress explains. “She now has more of a center — and maybe a little more self-worth — than the other characters.”

vet reveals why Tuesday’s Jax-Abel-Wendy scene turned into a “f—ing mess,” offers an early review of the show’s Dec. 9 series finale, and shares her dream ending for her reformed alter ego (hint: Starbucks is involved).

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It was very hard. I didn’t have any dialogue. I just had to

there. Also, being a mom in real life — and a mom who is separated from the dad — it was easy to go to that place. But, at the same time, it was pretty f—ing hard… It was a long time coming. And it happened three episodes before the end of the entire series. She finally gets to become a mom… I put a lot of time into preparing for the scene and, as actors, we’re like tigers in a cage. When the cameras started rolling, I really lost my s–t. Thankfully, they didn’t use those takes. They used a take after my sinuses and everything had dried up a little bit. [

] I was very, very tame in the take they used. There were other ones where I really lost it.

No, no, no. It was a quiet moment between a father and a son. It’s really about them. Also, you wouldn’t have been able to hear them talking over my sniffling and crying. I had snot all over my hands — I was a f—ing mess. [

TVLINE | Is Wendy still in love with Jax?

yes. Wendy was always in love with Jax, but she knows in her heart of hearts that there’s nothing but danger there. She doesn’t have the kind of survival [instincts] that the other characters have in order to live in that world. Yet she will walk down any hellish street with any of those characters for the greater good of those babies.

TVLINE | Now she’s living with Jax and the kids, essentially playing house…

TVLINE | I have to think that’s going to start to mess with her head as we head into these final three episodes.

I can’t speak about the final episodes, but I know that when I read that script and when I was in that scene folding that laundry, 

 of that was going through my head. I hadn’t been on that [particular] set since Season 1, so it was the first time I was back in that space. Even when I was walking to set, I started walking to Gemma’s [house]. I was like, “Wait, I’m not going to Gemma’s, I’m going to

 mean right now? I have to change my whole head space.” [

TVLINE | Is that why she pulled away from him when he hugged her?

Yes. It’s just too heavy and scary for her. And she doesn’t want to get hurt. The goal right now is to just be friends.

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TVLINE | The Wendy-Nero friendship has been interesting to watch. Why do you think she’s drawn to him?

They have such similar sensibilities. They’re both there for one reason and one reason alone, and that is for love. And they also have that little demon in the back of their heads that doesn’t mind the insanity and the excitement that comes with that world.

TVLINE | Part of me thinks they’ll be the last two standing and they’ll end up raising the kids together.

TVLINE | Wendy has always hated that her child was exposed to such a violent lifestyle, yet this season, she seems to be looking the other way and keeping her mouth shut. Why do you think that is?

She knows the rules, and she knows that she’s going to have to play by them in order to be closer to her son. She’s fully aware of how violent and ugly things are getting for Jax. But she’s not going to walk in there and say, “F–k you, I’m taking [Abel].” She’s going to come in and say, “I just want to help.” She has to play in the confines of that world and hope for the best.

TVLINE | How would you characterize these final three episodes?

I haven’t seen the episodes put together yet, and I haven’t fully read them, but the little bit I

 know… it might be one of the best series finales of all time. The final episodes are f—ing beautiful.

that his dream ending would be for Jax to wake up from a dream and be driving his Vespa into a Starbucks. And my continuation of that is that Wendy would be the barista. [

“But she’s not going to walk in there and say, “F–k you, I’m taking [Abel].” She’s going to come in and say, “I just want to help.” She has to play in the confines of that world and hope for the best.”

This shows Wendys smarter than Tara. If Tara did that she’d be alive and wouldnt have been arrested.

How does that make Wendy smarter than Tara? Wendy is a weakling. Tara was strong. She wanted to get her kids AWAY from the violence. Staying put and allowing her children to be exposed to the brutality of that world would have been stupid. Tara was arrested because she DID play within the confines of the world. She was working at the prison trying to get Otto to recant his RICO statement — to help the club. That is what led to the Pamela Toric murder and her getting arrested as an accessory. So, actually playing within the confines of that world effectively ended her career and sent her to jail. That’s when Tara got smart, and stopped thinking with her heart and put her love for Jax aside. She used her head and put her children first. That’s not what Wendy would do. Keeping them in Charming is the worst case scenario.

Tara always put the kids before her, in S5 she helped the MC out w/the Otto situation (which got her arrested) cause she ”thought” it would speed up whatever business they had so Jax can leave WITH TEHM out of Charming. Wendy has been a weak link since day 1, but I do give her CREDIT for trying and now being there for both Abel and Thomas at a time like this w/ Tara gone. Can’t wait to see this final episode this show has been insane and I don’t want this sh*t to end!!!!!

Now that she’s no longer a druggie I wish they’d tone down her make up. She’s much prettier without all that dark stuff around her eyes. I do think Wendy will survive what’s coming and possibly end up with both Thomas and Abel. I know everyone is rumored to die but I’m thinking Jax may survive also and possibly Gemma. We shall see. I really hope no spoilers get leaked.

I’ve been thinking that once the other chapter of Sons comes back into play and things continue to bite Jax in the butt, that Jury’s assumption that John Teller killed himself will turn out to be foreshadowing for what Jax ends up doing to himself.

Wendy will live, thank goodness, because someone has to take care of those two boys. I doubt very highly that either Abel or Thomas will die before series end. My dream final shot is her and Nero and the kids getting the heck out of Charming and away from that life. Gemma is definitely dead and Jax might be too, but Chibs is totally still alive.

Whoever does her makeup on the show should be fired. She is always over done – SO much eye makeup and lipstick. She looks so much older than she is. Also, I think it’s sweet that she still loves Jax but ummm this dude violently shot a speed ball into her arm and has threatened to essentially kill her on multiple occasions if she came close to his kids. Jax was always very very romantic and sweet to Tara and understandably so – he loved her more than anyone or anything. But he was heinous towards Wendy. She should have some self respect and not go back to him. I really hope that doesn’t become a thing. He instantly friend-zoned her when he was telling Abel that she was his first mommy, so I doubt it’s going to happen. Plus, Jax doesn’t have the capacity to ever love anyone again so I just hope he puts all of his energy into raising his children. But… that is unlikely to happen.

She’s in her 40′s – she’s older than Charlie/Jax. But yeah, her makeup is pretty terrible on the show. I really don’t like Wendy but I’m glad she is off the drugs and helping out. I don’t ever see Jax and her getting back together. Remember Jax told Tara that he married Wendy because he was lonely and called it a “sad time out.” He has only ever loved Tara.

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