Did any of anda have loved ones who died?

heres my story:

12 in the afternoon i woke up, i went to check on her and...oh my god shes laying on her back with her neck kinda twisted

i tried to open the cage door quickly and...she cant pindah her feet and mouth...well she kinda flap her wings when her boyfriend was calling.oh god i started to cry because...she is really dying this time. i was telling her how sorry i was, i tried comforting her but i tried giving her food and water and her mouth isnt moving...i know shes starving to death.shes been in my childhood, shes the happiness to my life...
great.I lost Jessica, my blue parakeet, and an malaikat so special(Cindy)...


now i lost part of my family.
my jantung is crying,bleeding.

oh god my spring break is turning into a nightmare ill never forget.im so scared to check on her.i dont know what to do. i told myself i promise to take extra care of my other birds because THIS IS THE LAST TIME I WILL LOOSE THEM.


note:dont worry i placed her laying on her stomach.ive been using towels since the hari she was sick so i gave her warmth