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Hi somehting really bad happend to me 3 weeks yang lalu and it was really bad when i think about it i could cry my eyes out again and it haunts me in my dreams but after it happened i had a dream about Peter :i saw Peter and then i woke up ( in the dream) and saw a bintang that was really bright and it was like in the films like when Peter took wendy to Neverland and the bintang was so bright and big and it was green and i looked at it and it was getting smaller and then it was gone the bintang was normal it was shining but not anymore so bright and i sayed to bintang that i will always believe in Peter Pan and then it was the end because i woke up that was the dream. and last weeki had a dream that i was in the dapur with my mom and mybrother and it was night the stars were out and it was really beautiful and then there was a light and it looked like a explosion it was really beautiful and magical so we were going on the balcony to watch it and i felt like someone was watching me i felt that it was Peter but i didn't saw him i just had the feeling he was there and then we were going inside my mother closed the door and their side was all black but on my side i had light so i could see my shadow but it wasn't my shadow it was the shadow of a boy and when i was moving my arm i saw my shadow behind that boys shadow and i knew it wasn't my shadow because it just stand there and did nothing but i felt like i know this shadow like it was Peters shadow . Could that be? I just want to Neverland and i really hope that Peter will take there because i really can't live like a grown up that's not me and i don't want to. I wanna have fun and don't worry about something and i would always take that risk to die to live in Neverland with Peter . Please if anda see him could anda say him that i really need him he is my only chance . And i would do suicide if that helps me that i can be in Neverland so please say him that . 😭