They say things change for the best. I don't really understand why there is a need for change. Some things are better left unchanged in my opinion. I liked the life I once had. Living in my apartment, not having a care in the world, only supporting myself, and my lady at the moment. I could adapt to any change……or at least I thought I could.
    Ava came to me on natal Eve and told me that she was pregnant with my future baby. Well, what could I say? "There must be a mistake….I always use protection. Are anda sure I'm the father? Must anda keep it?" Of course I couldn't say any of that…..I just berkata calmly, "Oh, that's grand…..well, what color should the nursery be?"
    Don't get me wrong, I loved Ava with all my heart, but I, london Rafferty, am no father. I always admired my Da. He was a great man turned drunk, and now he was a mute. He was my hero as a child, but as I got older, I realized he had no backbone. He gave in to everything my Ma berkata through her snaps. Was this the life in store for me?
    I couldn't beruang to think about it. I just kept blocking my clouded judgment. As the months progressed, I realized that this baby was coming and there was nothing I could do to stop it. As Ava's belly grew, I was able to feel my baby's kick. It was beautiful in that a life had been created. After that day, I decided to marry Ava. She was the cinta of my life and it was only right, that we became a family.
    We had a small church wedding; the priest didn't care for us and our eccentric ways, but to please both Ava and my families, we went through with it. Charm, my dearest friend, was my best man. He helped me get through the hari and he helped me make the most important decision of my life. I don't remember much of that day. It seems like so long ago. Bonnie, Charm's beautiful daughter, was our lovely bunga girl and Alfred, Charm's jubilant son, was our ring bearer. I can remember the day, May 23. I can remember the time, 11:00 A.M. I can even remember all of those who came; friends and family sat before us awaiting our union, but I cannot remember our vows. I just remember saying "I do," right when the thunder and lightning struck outside. They say that when it rains on a wedding day, the marriage is somewhat cursed and will not last. I never thought much of this, but now, it makes sense.

Months passed, and finally the ninth bulan came. September arrived, alat pendingin, pendingin than usual, and seemed to appear in a blink of the eye. Ava was now very large looking, her belly extended far out.
"Any hari now, this baby is going to come. I can feel it," she berkata with a smile.
I remember her smile that day; so sweet and sexy. Things changed after that day…..

    The hari finally arrived. September 16th…….the hari that would change my life forever. Ava's water broke at home. She seemed extraordinarily calm.
    "Woman! Get in the car! A baby is coming out of you! Let me call Charm!" I exclaimed as I grabbed my car keys.
    "Lond, I'm fine hun……just some contractions. Grab my suitcase," she said.
    "Right…..," I answered. I did what I was told and got her into the car. I got on my cell and called the hospital, Charm, the lot of my friends, and my family.

    We arrived at the hospital, got into our room, and before I knew it, the baby was coming. Ava winced in pain and held onto my hands tightly. If she squeezed any tighter, I would have lost all circulation in my hand. I remember telling her to breathe in and out. I stared down at her. She was the cinta of my life and she couldn't have been lebih beautiful on that day. The room went silent. And then suddenly, we heard a cry. There he was…..my son.
    
    The doctor handed him to me after he was all washed off. He was swaddled in a blue cloth. I cradled him in my arms. He had a mess of curly, dark brown hair. Several tears slid down my cheek. For once, I understood what being a parent was about. I brought him over to his mother. I handed him to Ava. She held him in her arms and kissed his head. I leaned down and kissed her.
    "We did something right," I whispered to her.
    She nodded. "I cinta him and you. London, anda take care of him and promise me that nothing will ever happen to him."
    "Honey, we both will. He's our little angel," I berkata as I kissed her head.
    She handed him back to me and closed her eyes. As I was cradling my son, I heard the jantung monitor drop and start flat-lining. That baby let out a cry and I turned in excitement at the sound. One of the nurses came over and grabbed my baby from me. The doctor came over and yelled to his nurses. "She losing too much blood!" Several nurses came in and began handing the doctor some tools. I looked back at Ava. Her eyes were closed and she looked like she was asleep. I ran over to her.
    "Ava! Wake up, honey! anda can't die! Our son is right there……he needs you!" I screamed. I stroked her face. "Open your eyes for me."
    One of the nurses came over to me. "Sir, anda need to leave. Let the doctor work." She started to drag me out.
    I continued to try and break free of her grasp. "Ava!"
    Ava opened her eyes, and looked at me. "Keep your promise," is the last thing she ever berkata to me.

    I was taken outside of the room and paced in the hallway. I was worried about her. Was she okay? Was my baby okay? Why were the doctors taking so long?
    About fifteen menit had passed and the doctor came out. I eagerly awaited the news. "I'm sorry Mr. Rafferty, but we did all that we could. I'm sorry, but your wife is dead."
    I stared at the man. "What? Is this some sort of a joke? Let me go see her! Is she recovering? She can't be dead!"
    "Mr. Rafferty, anda wife was hemorrhaging and we couldn't stop the bleeding. It was out of our control," the doctor replied as he placed his hand on my shoulder. "I am sorry for your loss."
    "What!? How?" I roared. I was so angry. This didn't make sense. All I remember from that dreadful day, was that I broke down and was left to care for my son alone in this life.
    
    I walked into the waiting room, where my family and friends awaited the news. I walked out, my eyes puffy and red. They all saw me and stared with concern.
    "Ava………Ava………is dead," I finally managed to choke out before I began to sob. Charm ran to me and hugged me. He stayed cool and collected and helped me get through that day. mobil van, van and Charm were chosen as the godparents for my son. mobil van, van lost all of her composure. She cried into her boyfriend, Conner's arms. She realized that she was never going to see her good friend ever again, only a lifeless body in a casket.

    I went back to check on my son in the maternity wing. I walked into the nursery and picked up my son. "You're Mum was a wonderful person and she will always be with you. She was my best friend….well selanjutnya to your Uncle Charm and Auntie mobil van, van of course. We are going to have a good life, kid. And I'm going to tampil anda all of the finer things in life. Just anda wait. Now, I need to name you…..well, you're Mum and I liked the name Jace. So Jace, I am your Da, and I am going to keep the promise I made to your Mum. I will keep anda aman, brankas and nothing will ever happen to you." I held Jace close and cuddled him. He was all that I had left of Ava.