A/N: Going over to Jamie’s POV right now and last night, I had thought of a good storyline for Sean. It sets between his wife’s death and the pindah to Washington and it’s about what is going on for Sean and how he was reacting for it and I tell anda one thing: It’s a little crazy but he is going to be fine, I think. In other words, it will be the prequel to Wanting Someone and I might do it the moment I get the plot, the characters and the judul ready!
Chapter Twelve
Jamie watched Sean’s eyes which turned to azure the moment he turned to her and stared at her for a few detik before he looked back down to the picture of him and Kate and became very quiet but Jamie could heard Sean crying softly in the background.
Wanting to see if he’s okay and wanting to tell him that everything will be okay, right away, Jamie put her hand on Sean’s shoulder and gently squeezed it while staring at him and berkata to him with a soft voice, “Sean, everything will be okay. I am here to help anda with this and I want anda to tell me about it, Sean. Nothing bad will be going to happen to us. Nothing will.”
After saying that, Jamie watched the man selanjutnya to her to take it in for a while to understand it but the moment she watched his body language from being sad about it to being fine, Sean asked her while staring at the foto of him and Kate, “Jamie, can anda get a tissue?”
“Sure.” answered back oleh Jamie who smiled at him for saying something to her and to complete Sean’s request, Jamie unzipped the zipper of her bag, looked through it for her little packet of tissues, founded it, and after getting two pieces of tissues out of there, Jamie handed him those and after watching him wiped down the tears running down his eyes to his cheeks where his dimples make their appearance at when he gave her those grins of him. The ones that made her smiled every time even the times that gave her such a headache.
detik after seeing him wiping off those tears of his, Jamie watched Sean crumpled them up to little tissue balls and the moment he was done with those, Sean turned to her to start talking what had happened to his Kate, from looking at those blue eyes, Jamie wished that she gave her bottle of eye-drops to Sean to get rid of the redness in those baby blues. Before she was about to dig through her tas, dompet again for that bottle, Sean put his hand on Jamie’s shoulder and gave her an apology for his crying.
“Sorry about that, Jamie but now, can I tell anda about my wife’s death?” berkata Sean with a slight grin on his mouth. To tell him that she’s fine and want to hear everything about it, Jamie stared at his face and berkata to him with a smile of her own, “Sure.” In return, Sean smiled back to her and told her the story about one of the worst moments of Sean Connors’s life.
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It was about seven months ago. Back in February and a couple of days after Valentine’s Day. Both of them were working at the night shift with Sean at the Police Station and Kate at the Bistro. Around Midnight, Kate was leaving the restaurant to go to the police station to be with Sean instead of halaman awal for the rest of the night and the moment she got into her car and turned on the engine, she drove over to Manhattan oleh using the Brooklyn Bridge which was where the trouble came from.
When Sean heard the news about the accident, he was working on the massive paperwork on his meja tulis, meja and chatting with his partner and friend, Det. Danny Alvarez. Halfway through the paperwork and chatting with Danny, Sean was having a weird feeling that something bad is going to happen to Kate on the Brooklyn Bridge and without any thinking, Sean grabbed his suit jaket off his chair, put it on, and then, his mantel and put that over his suit jaket and after he did those, he left without telling any explaining to Danny who later joked and berkata to Sean, “So that was all about. I thought that anda left me all of the paperwork to piss me off!” After hearing that, Sean told the Latino detective that was half the reason.
Twenty menit later, when he got to the Brooklyn Bridge and saw the crash site sitting on the middle of the bridge, Sean drove 50mph to the site and once he got to it and got out of the car, shoved his badge in front of the people who was guarding the crash site’s faces to let him in, asked the EMTs and the police officers if they seen a five-six woman with shoulder-length blonde hair and brown eyes named Kate Connors anywhere and yelling to her, “Kate, Kate!” After doing that for almost five minutes, an EMT came over to him and told him that she and another EMT had founded his wife.
“Are anda sure? Where is my Kate?” asked Sean who was freaking out right now. Once the EMT in front of him had finally calmed him with a threat of him getting a shot with a really big needle, the EMT put her gloved hand on Sean’s shoulder and berkata to him, “Det. Connors, your wife was in a really horrible car crash and sir, she’s badly hurt and bleeding out right now and one of the EMTs is stopping the bleeding from coming out with all he could right now. Can you…..”
The EMT was about to ask him to remain calming down and let the EMTs do their jobs while he waits when Sean walked away from her who was watching him away from her with a little shocked look on her face and looked for his wife and a male EMT. After five menit of looking for a woman lying on a gurney with blonde hair and a man in a navy EMT coat, pushing pressure on the place where the blood was coming out, Sean finally founded Kate, lying unconscious on a gurney while a black EMT was putting pressure on her abdomen and the moment he saw them, Sean ran over to them in the freezing cold, squatted his body down, and asking the EMT with enough panic to put him in a psych ward, “How’s she doing?”
While putting lebih pressure on Kate’s abdomen, the EMT told him that it is not looking well. She is just bleeding out lebih and more. After hearing that, Sean asked the EMT with a bit of unexpected anger in his voice, “Is there anything that I can do that doesn’t involved sitting around and doing nothing?”
After hearing that angry tone of his, the EMT looked at him with a ‘want me to stick a needle on your ass?’ look on his young, dark face. After seeing the same face the female EMT gave him earlier when he first freaked out, Sean just gave him a ‘come on, man. Let me help!’ look on his face and detik later, the EMT told him that he’s fine with that and told him some good news and bad news. Good news is that he can help him out but the bad news is that she isn’t having any longer and probably a few menit from now, she might die.
The moment he got the okay with the EMT, Sean nodded to him and right away, he don’t want the bad news to occur at all and oleh doing that, Sean accidently shoved the EMT over, took his brown wool mantel off, and putting it over the bleeding to make it stop oleh putting even pressure on it with his hands and keep his loving wife alive. While doing it, Sean started speaking to her oleh saying, “Kate, don’t die on me! Baby, don’t do this on me and don’t go to the light right now! I need anda because I cinta anda with all of my jantung and anda had been my cinta and my rock all of these years and I know that anda cinta me that way too but don’t leave me okay because I won’t survive without anda and want to spent the rest of my life with anda through the bad times and the good times.”
That sounded like ¾ of his wedding vows to Kate 12 years earlier but when he knew that his bride was almost at the gates of Heaven, Sean knew that he’s the very last person that Kate heard a voice of another person and before she leaves him, Sean Connors did two things.
At that last moment, Sean gently kissed his wife’s hand and after doing that, Sean immediately looked at his wife’s face and berkata to her, “I cinta anda and please wait for me, okay.”
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Milliseconds after hearing those sad words coming out of Sean’s mouth, Jamie looked at his face to see if he is okay with everything right now atau he will burst into tears again which was happening right now because it looked like that Sean is probably to do that again.
Knowing what to do, Jamie handed him lebih tissues and while Sean was getting rid of the tears coming out of his eyes with the tissues, Jamie put her left hand on Sean’s free hand on the table, her right hand on his shoulder, and berkata to him with a soft voice and ciuman him on the cheek in between, “Sean, please don’t cry. I know that anda want to cry your eyes out but right now, I knew that Kate doesn’t want anda to do that right now atau never because she loved anda very much and hated to see anda all miserable which I probably want anda to do right now. Please, Sean. Do that for us.”
Saying that throughout his crying and the sniffing from his nose, all that Sean could do for her was that he nodded for her, telling her that he truly understood Jamie and knew that Kate would hate this if she saw him like this.
After seeing that nod of his, Jamie asked him if he wants to get out of here and in return, Sean nodded to her again. The moment she saw him giving her another nod, with a now-awake Jake on her lap and a miserable thirty-five man selanjutnya to her, Jamie gave Erin the waitress a signal and once Erin came over to them and asked what she wants, with a smile on her face, Jamie asked her if Erin can bring a carton atau two for their uneaten meals and to pay for it, Jamie berkata to her, “And put it on my tab!”
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Once she paid for the food and Sean was finally at good quality, Sean helped her carried Jake out to the car while Jamie carried the bag of the two cartons of food. The moment the three of them got out and Jamie put Jake in his car seat, the unexpected came to them.
After putting her son in his car kursi and slammed the car door, Jamie turned to Sean who was standing selanjutnya to the passenger car and the moment she was about to tell him that she was hoping that Sean will get well soon and she’ll see him tonight for makan malam with the kids, Sean reached his hand over her shoulder to her back, leaned her toward, and when their faces were inches away from each other, Sean gave her a slight smile while leaned toward her and kissed her on the lips with enough passion to last a life-time and Jamie didn’t stopped him yet.
Once she knew that this was the right time to stop it, Jamie broke the ciuman and leaned her face away from Sean and out of the blue, Jamie asked him if he’s going back to bullpen right now. In return, Sean told her no and knew what was going on right now, with a boyish grin; he asked her if right now is the perfect time to pick up the girls from school. With a smile on her face, Jamie berkata to him, “No, it’s too early for that. Want to come halaman awal with me and do anda know what?”
Seeing the most boyish grin on his face, Sean berkata to him, “Sure. The guys at work don’t mind an jam atau two without me.” After hearing that from the man she wants to get it on with, Jamie Thomas smiled at him again and after putting her arms around Sean’s shoulders, she leaned over and kissed him again for such a long time that someone she knows saw this and was shocked of what the person saw and reached for the cell phone, dialed the number, and told another person she knew for a long time what was going on from across the street.
Chapter Twelve
Jamie watched Sean’s eyes which turned to azure the moment he turned to her and stared at her for a few detik before he looked back down to the picture of him and Kate and became very quiet but Jamie could heard Sean crying softly in the background.
Wanting to see if he’s okay and wanting to tell him that everything will be okay, right away, Jamie put her hand on Sean’s shoulder and gently squeezed it while staring at him and berkata to him with a soft voice, “Sean, everything will be okay. I am here to help anda with this and I want anda to tell me about it, Sean. Nothing bad will be going to happen to us. Nothing will.”
After saying that, Jamie watched the man selanjutnya to her to take it in for a while to understand it but the moment she watched his body language from being sad about it to being fine, Sean asked her while staring at the foto of him and Kate, “Jamie, can anda get a tissue?”
“Sure.” answered back oleh Jamie who smiled at him for saying something to her and to complete Sean’s request, Jamie unzipped the zipper of her bag, looked through it for her little packet of tissues, founded it, and after getting two pieces of tissues out of there, Jamie handed him those and after watching him wiped down the tears running down his eyes to his cheeks where his dimples make their appearance at when he gave her those grins of him. The ones that made her smiled every time even the times that gave her such a headache.
detik after seeing him wiping off those tears of his, Jamie watched Sean crumpled them up to little tissue balls and the moment he was done with those, Sean turned to her to start talking what had happened to his Kate, from looking at those blue eyes, Jamie wished that she gave her bottle of eye-drops to Sean to get rid of the redness in those baby blues. Before she was about to dig through her tas, dompet again for that bottle, Sean put his hand on Jamie’s shoulder and gave her an apology for his crying.
“Sorry about that, Jamie but now, can I tell anda about my wife’s death?” berkata Sean with a slight grin on his mouth. To tell him that she’s fine and want to hear everything about it, Jamie stared at his face and berkata to him with a smile of her own, “Sure.” In return, Sean smiled back to her and told her the story about one of the worst moments of Sean Connors’s life.
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It was about seven months ago. Back in February and a couple of days after Valentine’s Day. Both of them were working at the night shift with Sean at the Police Station and Kate at the Bistro. Around Midnight, Kate was leaving the restaurant to go to the police station to be with Sean instead of halaman awal for the rest of the night and the moment she got into her car and turned on the engine, she drove over to Manhattan oleh using the Brooklyn Bridge which was where the trouble came from.
When Sean heard the news about the accident, he was working on the massive paperwork on his meja tulis, meja and chatting with his partner and friend, Det. Danny Alvarez. Halfway through the paperwork and chatting with Danny, Sean was having a weird feeling that something bad is going to happen to Kate on the Brooklyn Bridge and without any thinking, Sean grabbed his suit jaket off his chair, put it on, and then, his mantel and put that over his suit jaket and after he did those, he left without telling any explaining to Danny who later joked and berkata to Sean, “So that was all about. I thought that anda left me all of the paperwork to piss me off!” After hearing that, Sean told the Latino detective that was half the reason.
Twenty menit later, when he got to the Brooklyn Bridge and saw the crash site sitting on the middle of the bridge, Sean drove 50mph to the site and once he got to it and got out of the car, shoved his badge in front of the people who was guarding the crash site’s faces to let him in, asked the EMTs and the police officers if they seen a five-six woman with shoulder-length blonde hair and brown eyes named Kate Connors anywhere and yelling to her, “Kate, Kate!” After doing that for almost five minutes, an EMT came over to him and told him that she and another EMT had founded his wife.
“Are anda sure? Where is my Kate?” asked Sean who was freaking out right now. Once the EMT in front of him had finally calmed him with a threat of him getting a shot with a really big needle, the EMT put her gloved hand on Sean’s shoulder and berkata to him, “Det. Connors, your wife was in a really horrible car crash and sir, she’s badly hurt and bleeding out right now and one of the EMTs is stopping the bleeding from coming out with all he could right now. Can you…..”
The EMT was about to ask him to remain calming down and let the EMTs do their jobs while he waits when Sean walked away from her who was watching him away from her with a little shocked look on her face and looked for his wife and a male EMT. After five menit of looking for a woman lying on a gurney with blonde hair and a man in a navy EMT coat, pushing pressure on the place where the blood was coming out, Sean finally founded Kate, lying unconscious on a gurney while a black EMT was putting pressure on her abdomen and the moment he saw them, Sean ran over to them in the freezing cold, squatted his body down, and asking the EMT with enough panic to put him in a psych ward, “How’s she doing?”
While putting lebih pressure on Kate’s abdomen, the EMT told him that it is not looking well. She is just bleeding out lebih and more. After hearing that, Sean asked the EMT with a bit of unexpected anger in his voice, “Is there anything that I can do that doesn’t involved sitting around and doing nothing?”
After hearing that angry tone of his, the EMT looked at him with a ‘want me to stick a needle on your ass?’ look on his young, dark face. After seeing the same face the female EMT gave him earlier when he first freaked out, Sean just gave him a ‘come on, man. Let me help!’ look on his face and detik later, the EMT told him that he’s fine with that and told him some good news and bad news. Good news is that he can help him out but the bad news is that she isn’t having any longer and probably a few menit from now, she might die.
The moment he got the okay with the EMT, Sean nodded to him and right away, he don’t want the bad news to occur at all and oleh doing that, Sean accidently shoved the EMT over, took his brown wool mantel off, and putting it over the bleeding to make it stop oleh putting even pressure on it with his hands and keep his loving wife alive. While doing it, Sean started speaking to her oleh saying, “Kate, don’t die on me! Baby, don’t do this on me and don’t go to the light right now! I need anda because I cinta anda with all of my jantung and anda had been my cinta and my rock all of these years and I know that anda cinta me that way too but don’t leave me okay because I won’t survive without anda and want to spent the rest of my life with anda through the bad times and the good times.”
That sounded like ¾ of his wedding vows to Kate 12 years earlier but when he knew that his bride was almost at the gates of Heaven, Sean knew that he’s the very last person that Kate heard a voice of another person and before she leaves him, Sean Connors did two things.
At that last moment, Sean gently kissed his wife’s hand and after doing that, Sean immediately looked at his wife’s face and berkata to her, “I cinta anda and please wait for me, okay.”
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Milliseconds after hearing those sad words coming out of Sean’s mouth, Jamie looked at his face to see if he is okay with everything right now atau he will burst into tears again which was happening right now because it looked like that Sean is probably to do that again.
Knowing what to do, Jamie handed him lebih tissues and while Sean was getting rid of the tears coming out of his eyes with the tissues, Jamie put her left hand on Sean’s free hand on the table, her right hand on his shoulder, and berkata to him with a soft voice and ciuman him on the cheek in between, “Sean, please don’t cry. I know that anda want to cry your eyes out but right now, I knew that Kate doesn’t want anda to do that right now atau never because she loved anda very much and hated to see anda all miserable which I probably want anda to do right now. Please, Sean. Do that for us.”
Saying that throughout his crying and the sniffing from his nose, all that Sean could do for her was that he nodded for her, telling her that he truly understood Jamie and knew that Kate would hate this if she saw him like this.
After seeing that nod of his, Jamie asked him if he wants to get out of here and in return, Sean nodded to her again. The moment she saw him giving her another nod, with a now-awake Jake on her lap and a miserable thirty-five man selanjutnya to her, Jamie gave Erin the waitress a signal and once Erin came over to them and asked what she wants, with a smile on her face, Jamie asked her if Erin can bring a carton atau two for their uneaten meals and to pay for it, Jamie berkata to her, “And put it on my tab!”
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Once she paid for the food and Sean was finally at good quality, Sean helped her carried Jake out to the car while Jamie carried the bag of the two cartons of food. The moment the three of them got out and Jamie put Jake in his car seat, the unexpected came to them.
After putting her son in his car kursi and slammed the car door, Jamie turned to Sean who was standing selanjutnya to the passenger car and the moment she was about to tell him that she was hoping that Sean will get well soon and she’ll see him tonight for makan malam with the kids, Sean reached his hand over her shoulder to her back, leaned her toward, and when their faces were inches away from each other, Sean gave her a slight smile while leaned toward her and kissed her on the lips with enough passion to last a life-time and Jamie didn’t stopped him yet.
Once she knew that this was the right time to stop it, Jamie broke the ciuman and leaned her face away from Sean and out of the blue, Jamie asked him if he’s going back to bullpen right now. In return, Sean told her no and knew what was going on right now, with a boyish grin; he asked her if right now is the perfect time to pick up the girls from school. With a smile on her face, Jamie berkata to him, “No, it’s too early for that. Want to come halaman awal with me and do anda know what?”
Seeing the most boyish grin on his face, Sean berkata to him, “Sure. The guys at work don’t mind an jam atau two without me.” After hearing that from the man she wants to get it on with, Jamie Thomas smiled at him again and after putting her arms around Sean’s shoulders, she leaned over and kissed him again for such a long time that someone she knows saw this and was shocked of what the person saw and reached for the cell phone, dialed the number, and told another person she knew for a long time what was going on from across the street.
i was a normal 18 tahun old colledge student until that night that horid night the night that all saftyein my life died it was a cold winters night and me and my friend trent were going to stay the night at the most haunted hospital in the world ( lebih like most haunted place of death and despair)waverly hlls sanitoryoum. "come on tristen were going to be laughing stocks of the city if we dont go" "trent." i berkata " i dont think we should go" " are u chicening out." he berkata " no" i snapped " but its not right" i argued to him "its these millions of death beads and u have famly that died there and so do i" " he looked mad at me mentioning his uncle who died there but i had to make him stop. "no" he berkata " we are going." to hell i thought if only i new
inch oleh inch
bringing me closer
to my doom
kupu-kupu of
anticipation
flutter nervously
in my stomach
knuckles whiten
jaws clench
what have I
gotten myself into
the suspense
is killing me
I'm going to hate it
I'm going to cinta it
I might lose my lunch
but I don't care
heaven help me
here it comes...
...
I hold my breath...
...
and then
I scream
my stomach
drops
my breath
is stolen
my heart
is pounding
adrenaline
courses
through
my veins
amid screams
of sweet terror
I fling up
my hands
and ride on
the wings
of Thrill!
I remember the hari I fell in love.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for anda love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place anda could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with lebih api then anda could ever imagine.
lebih passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the hari I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
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This is dedicated to my first real bola basket coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for anda love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place anda could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with lebih api then anda could ever imagine.
lebih passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the hari I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
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This is dedicated to my first real bola basket coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Just a poem. I hope it isn't much of a bother to rate.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
atau I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told oleh hidden scars
Unable to tampil themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
atau I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told oleh hidden scars
Unable to tampil themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.