Claire
Im 17 now, and all my life quil has been my side, i know how , atau why he has stayed atau why he has stayed the same.
He is oleh best friend, but it feels wrong for a man who used to change my diapers , to calling the parents of the little girls that picked on me, to now a man i had feelings for, and felt them back.
I am Quilette girl, so i have dark skin, and brown eyes.
I'm not athelete, nor am good with technology, i just know that my art is everything.
I paint my feelings. anda know how some people say, i ate my feelings, i painted them.
I wouldn't say im good, but anda can blame quil for that.
But now that I'm 17 i see things in different eyes, see people throught different eyes, and i want different things.
But i guess thats a good thing, because soon I'm going be alone, My mum is really sick , she is my only parent left.
The doctors use really long words which i dont know the meaning off, so i dont even really know whats wrong with her. Nor can i talk to her.
Shes been asleep for a long time, i just dont know when the right time is to say goodbye. But i have no doubt Quil will be there, holding me through.
Quil and Mum got on really great. She would let him do things that she wouldn't others. Take me out places on school nights.
Let me watch things i'm not supposed to, and mostly allowed him for me to him.
It was if i was missing something, as if there was a secret. An understanding.
i Always asked her why she let him do that stuff, and she always replied "He needs to see you"
I never know what she meant oleh that.
But sitting oleh her body now, non-moving. With her being in this state for soo long, im starting to pertanyaan my sanity, did all the time she took me to the ayunan and made me laugh, all the times she wiped my tears for father, and the times she stroked my hair when the storm was too loud.
were they dreams now. At least i got to keep them.
i cluthed her hand, hoping that there was warmth. I was let down. She was cold. As though the blood in her veins diddn't flow but just stood still.
i could feel her pulse, it matched the beeping of her machine.
But i felt the oppsite on my shoulder. A warm hand caressed me. Shook me but detached my glance.
I twisted my neck and found Quil looking down at me.
His face was soleman. he bent his knees so his face was level to mine. He hugged me loosely. But it was enough to me clutch on tighly, wanting more. it wasn't for my lust for him, nor my cinta for him, it for mum. I need him.
"Come on, I'll take anda home" he mumbled in my ear.
But i diddn't move. i just weaked my body. Letting grip of my muscles. Enought for him to instantly tangle me up in a bundle in front of hs chest.
The lump in my throat thickened up, and the hungry in my stomach growled. This made him snort.
"And drop in at Mine, for some food" His hands rubbing my back, as thought i was a weeping child. I guess i could pass for one.
Quil's house was my detik home, atau could even be my real home.
I even had my own room, which he cleaned.
But everyhing was the way i left it.
RING RING RING RING.
In my reflex i answered. I know its rude atau just plain wierd to anwer someones else's phone , but this is Quil we are talking about.
He just moved onto this pantry searching.
"Hello, Otera residence"
"CLAIRE! omg i have the best news!" Renesmee boom through the head peice , i surprised myself that i evne got the messsge.
Renensmee is my friend from school, shes friends with jacob, who is friends with Quil.
Well actaully she's dating him.
"What is it?" for some reason she always has the best surprises.
"ROSE AND EMMETT ADOPTED! He's soo cute! they want to call him henry. Ohh Claire, i can't wait till me and jacob have a baby"
"Thinking of that already? WOW NESSIE!, dont tell him that, it might freaking him out"
"No it wont, cause we've already tried if anda get my drift" she giggled!
"Oh my God no-way! anda diddnt, was it like?, DID IT HURT? You'r soo bad!"
"Oh my god it did, jacob has such a big.. oh crap dad is coming see ya tommorrow"
"NESSSSIE!!!" i edward roar.
"Bye nessie, have fun, wish anda luck. But her line had already gone flat.
Quil was now sitting on the counter puncak, atas with a smirk i cinta on his face.
It was if he hear the whole thing. But the was a shock. I knew how men talk. I bet quil already knows how big her boobs are, just from jacob.
"So hey i was thinking we could watch a movie. ohh i found these cookies"
His face was confident, But my eyes fell. I was tired.Tired of crying.
"I was thinkging of just going to bed." tuck me in, please spoon against me
"yeah actually me too" He held my hand in his. I felt a elecritric current buzz through us. Not just through me but us.
But he lead the way to my room,
Lemons ... get it?
