Whatever Jacob had berkata about Imprinting,, made no sense to me. Was it a new hip word that i haddnt tuned into .
Was it a word the boys use as something else. I now flash back to recall if he has berkata this to me. But nothing came possitive.
"Just go halaman awal bella, before Leah gets here." He tone both hard adn soft.
Leah? Like Leah clearwater?
"Why? is she your new Girlfriend atau something? Jacob please, what happened. This isnt anda getting back at me from the baby is it?"
He stopped, finally. But i knew the my words stopped him. His face went from anger to identical to mine. Confused.
"What are anda talking about bella? actaully i dont care, anda properly just lied"
"Why would lie about something like that!, Ok, im sorry. "
"WHAT ARE anda TALKING ABOUT !" He roared as he grapped my shoulders and tosed me all-over.
This left me in complete absolute awwe. I've never seen Jacob like this to me , atau to anyone in general.
His word cut me like a knife.
"I'm sorry jacob, I lost it" My words almost a whispered, husky and deep as i though, i feel the blood draining from my face, and my stomach dropped.
My jantung from loudly that i swear jacob could hear it , atau even feel it.
He loosened his gripp on me. Then instantly brought me in to his chest, in a embrace. His skin was warm, and his smell was aroming.
He was vick on your chest when your sick. The amazing feeling.
I wanted him back then ever now. He is my first love. The father of my lost child. I cinta him, i can't loose him. I've seen what loss does to people, my father of them, and my cousin, of whom had cinta lost and then lost her life.
I wanted to meninju, pukulan and ciuman and yell and caress him in one time!
But this moment diddnt last long.
His soleman eyes met mine.
"I'm sorry bella, that was my fault,it would've lived if.. just go halaman awal bella, i can't see anda anymore. Leah is going to be halaman awal soon, and she's not very,,"
"But i, Jacob, please don't do this, what happened? anda used to adore me, what changed! And why diddnt anda tell me!!!"
i was angry at him, flinging my lings at him, which he grapped before that hit him, not that it would've hurt him.
"Bella!JUST GO HOME! go back to charlie. I'll call him to pick anda up, and i'll your truck back tomorrow, ok just go home!"
"no, i need you."
"OMG BELLA! anda ACT AS THOUGHT I DONT cinta YOU!i do! oh god i do. but things have been made, and i cant change them, and my future has been set, and it's with Leah. I cinta you. But i cinta her too. "
" anda cinta her lebih then me?" i soundt like a frog, my voice croacky from the flem and tears flaming up.
"Just go halaman awal bella, I'll call Charlie ok."
"No, I'll get Edward to pick me up"
"NO! no i wont let him, he is not coming down here."
"Why? Jealous now?"
He sighed one heavy sigh, he was defeated. But something was occuring at the back of his mind.
"He's just dangerous ok"
"Says the man who broke my heart"
"bella."
My phone vibrated in my pocket. I broke my glance with jacob.
It was edward calling. I answered.
"BELLA! where are you? " His voice was frantic.he was always worried about me. I was surpirsed that he was tired from it all the time. as it is a 24/7 job.
"Im fine, I'm with jacob, can anda please pick me up?"
"He's is not going to touch anda bella" Jacob berkata as he snatched my phone from my cold weak hands.
He turned his back to me quickly.
he whispered something inot the ear piece before i interupt.
He turned back at me and handed me back my phone. He had hung up .
"jacob. oh my god. Fine"
i dont know why i couldn't just drve myself home.
driving halaman awal was a challenge, i diddnt know whiether it was my tears of the fog that was effecting my vision.
But i made it halaman awal in piece, depends what anda classify one piece.
Edwards volvo parked in the driveway, i saw him paceing outside the front door.
"Bella,"
Was it a word the boys use as something else. I now flash back to recall if he has berkata this to me. But nothing came possitive.
"Just go halaman awal bella, before Leah gets here." He tone both hard adn soft.
Leah? Like Leah clearwater?
"Why? is she your new Girlfriend atau something? Jacob please, what happened. This isnt anda getting back at me from the baby is it?"
He stopped, finally. But i knew the my words stopped him. His face went from anger to identical to mine. Confused.
"What are anda talking about bella? actaully i dont care, anda properly just lied"
"Why would lie about something like that!, Ok, im sorry. "
"WHAT ARE anda TALKING ABOUT !" He roared as he grapped my shoulders and tosed me all-over.
This left me in complete absolute awwe. I've never seen Jacob like this to me , atau to anyone in general.
His word cut me like a knife.
"I'm sorry jacob, I lost it" My words almost a whispered, husky and deep as i though, i feel the blood draining from my face, and my stomach dropped.
My jantung from loudly that i swear jacob could hear it , atau even feel it.
He loosened his gripp on me. Then instantly brought me in to his chest, in a embrace. His skin was warm, and his smell was aroming.
He was vick on your chest when your sick. The amazing feeling.
I wanted him back then ever now. He is my first love. The father of my lost child. I cinta him, i can't loose him. I've seen what loss does to people, my father of them, and my cousin, of whom had cinta lost and then lost her life.
I wanted to meninju, pukulan and ciuman and yell and caress him in one time!
But this moment diddnt last long.
His soleman eyes met mine.
"I'm sorry bella, that was my fault,it would've lived if.. just go halaman awal bella, i can't see anda anymore. Leah is going to be halaman awal soon, and she's not very,,"
"But i, Jacob, please don't do this, what happened? anda used to adore me, what changed! And why diddnt anda tell me!!!"
i was angry at him, flinging my lings at him, which he grapped before that hit him, not that it would've hurt him.
"Bella!JUST GO HOME! go back to charlie. I'll call him to pick anda up, and i'll your truck back tomorrow, ok just go home!"
"no, i need you."
"OMG BELLA! anda ACT AS THOUGHT I DONT cinta YOU!i do! oh god i do. but things have been made, and i cant change them, and my future has been set, and it's with Leah. I cinta you. But i cinta her too. "
" anda cinta her lebih then me?" i soundt like a frog, my voice croacky from the flem and tears flaming up.
"Just go halaman awal bella, I'll call Charlie ok."
"No, I'll get Edward to pick me up"
"NO! no i wont let him, he is not coming down here."
"Why? Jealous now?"
He sighed one heavy sigh, he was defeated. But something was occuring at the back of his mind.
"He's just dangerous ok"
"Says the man who broke my heart"
"bella."
My phone vibrated in my pocket. I broke my glance with jacob.
It was edward calling. I answered.
"BELLA! where are you? " His voice was frantic.he was always worried about me. I was surpirsed that he was tired from it all the time. as it is a 24/7 job.
"Im fine, I'm with jacob, can anda please pick me up?"
"He's is not going to touch anda bella" Jacob berkata as he snatched my phone from my cold weak hands.
He turned his back to me quickly.
he whispered something inot the ear piece before i interupt.
He turned back at me and handed me back my phone. He had hung up .
"jacob. oh my god. Fine"
i dont know why i couldn't just drve myself home.
driving halaman awal was a challenge, i diddnt know whiether it was my tears of the fog that was effecting my vision.
But i made it halaman awal in piece, depends what anda classify one piece.
Edwards volvo parked in the driveway, i saw him paceing outside the front door.
"Bella,"
im in the devils playground
dont know anyone round here
i will try to stand my ground
and not let anyone sense my fear
cant confisgate a reality that is based on lies
i will not negociate with my pride
foolish as i was i am no longer that person
yes try to hold my gaze
my will wont lesson
and i am in the devils playground
i have my own toys
i try to not look around
to the erie noise
scrapping nails apon the pavement
and dried blood up on the walls
a smell that so nauseating
i feel i might fall
light headed i cant be
not in this place anyways
i walk further trying to find a way out of this place.
how did i get here where did i go wrong my morbid curisoty
of a unrealistic song.driven to a brink thats almost sickning
i cant find myself.a way out of the devils playground. my own personal hell
dont know anyone round here
i will try to stand my ground
and not let anyone sense my fear
cant confisgate a reality that is based on lies
i will not negociate with my pride
foolish as i was i am no longer that person
yes try to hold my gaze
my will wont lesson
and i am in the devils playground
i have my own toys
i try to not look around
to the erie noise
scrapping nails apon the pavement
and dried blood up on the walls
a smell that so nauseating
i feel i might fall
light headed i cant be
not in this place anyways
i walk further trying to find a way out of this place.
how did i get here where did i go wrong my morbid curisoty
of a unrealistic song.driven to a brink thats almost sickning
i cant find myself.a way out of the devils playground. my own personal hell