new moon, bellas depresstion. the 1st few months
it hurts to live. life to me is a detik death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems lebih peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her jantung lost and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my jantung over and over untill all the feelings of cinta and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my jantung where my thoughts were aman, brankas from causing me any lebih unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much lebih beautiful then me oleh now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life oleh being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. atau maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt cinta me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but oleh one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my cokelat brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and lebih tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the dinding and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the pantai in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him halaman awal to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once lebih and broke my jantung again.
it hurts to live. life to me is a detik death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems lebih peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her jantung lost and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my jantung over and over untill all the feelings of cinta and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my jantung where my thoughts were aman, brankas from causing me any lebih unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much lebih beautiful then me oleh now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life oleh being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. atau maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt cinta me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but oleh one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my cokelat brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and lebih tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the dinding and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the pantai in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him halaman awal to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once lebih and broke my jantung again.
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mY NAME NAOMI AND I AM PRACTICLY IN LUV WIT PATRICK!! oMG HE SO SEXi!!! i WISH i COULD TALK TO DEM SOMED hari AND i'D LUV IF hari CUD CUM TO cHI~TOWN 1 hari AND HAV A CONSERT. iF THEY PERFORMED 4 ONE OF MY B-DAY PARTYS ID PROBABLY FAINT!! aNYWAY I LUV ALL OF B5 THEY GREAT SINGA AND hari A CUTE BUT I LUV PATRICK DA MOST. mE AND MY FRIEND JOCELYN WANNA MEET THEM SO BADD!! wE LUV B5!!!
Bella and Jacob
as it seems to be best friends with feelings Jacob's jantung beats for Bella and yet after all she put him through it can steel be beating for that girl that will one hari have the vampire's eyes and have to keep up with lies to keep herself a secret to stay alive, Jacob's jantung wants Bella but he gets Her daughter Renessme and he loves her much lebih so for now his jantung only beats a Little for her mother but so much lebih for her.
Bella and Edward
Edward can break her and put her back together so easy like the wind moving a leaf on a summers hari but steel yet there it stay in the new place. Bella will always cinta Jacob as a friend and as a son for her daughter will marry him one day. Bella and Edward will always be a perfect couple as there eyes to match there jantung for no beat there gaze to stare forever in each others arms.
as it seems to be best friends with feelings Jacob's jantung beats for Bella and yet after all she put him through it can steel be beating for that girl that will one hari have the vampire's eyes and have to keep up with lies to keep herself a secret to stay alive, Jacob's jantung wants Bella but he gets Her daughter Renessme and he loves her much lebih so for now his jantung only beats a Little for her mother but so much lebih for her.
Bella and Edward
Edward can break her and put her back together so easy like the wind moving a leaf on a summers hari but steel yet there it stay in the new place. Bella will always cinta Jacob as a friend and as a son for her daughter will marry him one day. Bella and Edward will always be a perfect couple as there eyes to match there jantung for no beat there gaze to stare forever in each others arms.
Selena Gomez: "He is a very very nice gentleman."
Kristen Stewart: "I cinta that kid. I would do anything for him. I would kill for him, literally.
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Ashley Greene: "I really really adore Rob and Edward's awesome, but I'm Team Jacob. Is just... anda gotta cinta Taylor, he plays an amazing Jacob, so... my jantung belongs to him. Hahaha."
Taylor Swift: "Aw, Tay-Tay. Well, see, I don't know Rob Pattinson, so I would just oleh default, I'd be on Team Tay."
As we all remember from last year, the cast went on a nationwide Hot Topic tour hitting up malls across the nation. As the film grew in popularity, the cast appearances became unruly as thousands of people waited to catch a glimpse of the brooding Pattinson. So keep in mind, that New Moon is ten times lebih populer than Twilight was last year, so be prepared and forewarned!
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I smiled at him. He looked at me and smiled his crocked smile. I got dressed fast and when I looked out the window he wasn't there. i looked to my side and there he was. Charlie must have left. "you ready?" he asked me "almost" I berkata I ran over to my room and got my book bag. "lets go" I said. We got to the school he steel did not say happy birthday. every body was staring at us again not that I can blame them I mean average old me with an Angel. He walked me over to the door were Alice and Jasper were waiting on us. "happy Birthday" they all yelled "thanks guys" we walked in and my malaikat and I had to separate tell lunch "see anda then" I berkata then Alice and I were off to class. "I have a surprise for you" she said......
I smiled at him. He looked at me and smiled his crocked smile. I got dressed fast and when I looked out the window he wasn't there. i looked to my side and there he was. Charlie must have left. "you ready?" he asked me "almost" I berkata I ran over to my room and got my book bag. "lets go" I said. We got to the school he steel did not say happy birthday. every body was staring at us again not that I can blame them I mean average old me with an Angel. He walked me over to the door were Alice and Jasper were waiting on us. "happy Birthday" they all yelled "thanks guys" we walked in and my malaikat and I had to separate tell lunch "see anda then" I berkata then Alice and I were off to class. "I have a surprise for you" she said......
And it isn’t a school on how to get over Robert Pattinson, atau how to be Robert Pattinson. It is an actual school in the UK! Its a College specializing in Language, Science, Mathematics!
In all seriousness guys, it is a real school. That is their real name. And it has nothing to do with the Twilight Saga’s Robert Pattinson! Just a mere coincidence! And no, Rob does not teach there! Sorry! lol
UPDATE: ROBSessedBlog berkata that this school used to be the #1 google cari when anda searched “Robert Pattinson” oh what a difference a tahun makes! lol
And there anda have.google it and see for yourself.