PICTURE NOT MINE!
Disclaimer: I own Nothing
Warning: yaoi (boyxboy), Violence, short sexual scene. Read at own risk.
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The first time was the worst one. It left me broken, scared, and confused. The moment his fist collided with my left cheek everything I thought I knew about him shattered. Hot tears ran down my face as the realization of what he had done sank into me. He had done what I never thought he was possible of. He must have seen the fear in my eyes because he instantly pulled me toward him. I tried to get out of his hold, but he was stronger.
"I'm sorry… I-I'm so sorry, Naruto." He whispered over and over again as he caressed my shaking body.
"I didn't mean it, anda know I cinta you, I cinta you." He repeated. At that moment something in me changed. I slowly brought my trembling arms toward his back and I hugged him tight. A soft, "I cinta anda too" left my lips.
That had been the first time he told me he loved me.
Weeks passed and everything was perfect. He always lavished me in gifts. He always took me out to makan malam and spoiled me to whatever I wanted. He also always found a reason to start an argument. Not one hari would pass that he wouldn't get mad about something and I was always responsible for it. At first I would fight back, my temper flaring. However, this only angered him more. The arguments always occurred behind closed doors never anywhere near his atau my family atau friends. Later this wasn't a problem anymore because those family and friends disappeared. No longer was I hounded with endless pertanyaan about my odd behavior and no longer did I make up lame excuses for a particular sore spot in my body. Oh so very soon it was just the two of us.
The detik time was fucking heart-breaking. It had been a wonderful day, he had again taken me out to makan malam to celebrate our one tahun anniversary. Everything had been perfect… that is until we got home. That's when the shouting began.
"Don't play fucking dumb! I saw the way he was fucking staring at you!" He yelled. I stared at him in shock. Not again.
"S-Sasuke what the hell are anda talking about?… Please just calm down." I begged, not wanting him to lose control again.
He didn't listen; he never listened anymore. I cried out as he pushed me against the dinding of our house. My head made a disgusting sound as it made contact with the hard concrete.
"You're mine! And no one else can fucking have you!" He shouted at me just as the back of his hand met my right cheek, leaving a stinging sensation behind. He then pulled me into a rough kiss. His hands gripped my waist possessively as he bent down to whisper in my ear.
"I cinta you."
Once he berkata that tears flowed freely from my eyes. It wasn't the painful sensation on my cheek atau head that caused the tears, no, it was those three words that pulled at my jantung strings and made my head spin in agony. Every time I berkata those words to him he never berkata them back. The only time he had berkata those three words to me had been months ago. With a low growl he grabbed my face and forced another ciuman to my lips, this time I returned it.
"I cinta anda too." I whispered as he began to remove my clothes.
The third time destroyed me.
"Where are anda going?" He asked. His voice shook and his eyes widened once he saw the suite case in my hands. I had finally had enough; I was determined on finally leaving him.
"I can't stay anymore. Not anymore." I mumbled, not meeting his dark eyes. I knew that if I faced him I would instantly regret this. As much damage as he had done to me, both physically, emotionally and psychologically, I still loved him with all of my jantung and soul.
"What? No… no anda can't leave me." He pleaded, he ran toward me and pulled me into a tight embrace. I shut my eyes and prayed he would let me go.
"Let me go, Sasuke. I can't stay… let me go." However, he didn't listen. His body shook as he began to cry. The sight made my jantung clench.
"I-I won't! I need you, Naruto. anda don't know how much I fucking need you. I promise I won't ever hurt anda again. Never again." He cried. After I berkata nothing he continued, knowing he was going to have his way again.
"Please, baby. I'm so sorry… I need anda to stay with me…" He berkata as he made me look up at him. His right hand stroked my cheek and then he leaned down and kissed me. Once the ciuman finished he took the suit case from my hands and guided me inside the house. I didn't say anything, but I knew I wasn't going anywhere anymore. It was kinda funny how easily he could convince me. He had absolute control over me, I was no longer myself, I was all his…
I cried out as he pushed back into me. With each thrust I could feel myself go higher and higher. Moans, groans and the creaking of the tempat tidur filled our bedroom as we made love. A hiss left my lips as he ran his tongue over a newly formed bruise just under my rib cage.
"I cinta you." He groaned. That alone sent me over the edge and I came all over our stomachs, screaming his name the whole time. He came soon after me, filling me to the brim, and collapsed beside me. His arms wrapped around me and he placed a ciuman on my forehead. The promise he had made that hari was broken no less than an jam ago. Somehow I knew that it would be. I knew that it had been a lie, simple as that, a lie that he knew always kept me at his side. I needed those lies, no, I craved them, I loved them. Just as I loved him. Somehow I knew that one hari these hands, that were now wrapped around me in a loving gesture, would kill me. However, if it were these hands, his hands, it wouldn't be so bad. After all I had chosen this path, I had chosen him, and I would never ever leave him.
"I cinta anda too, Sasuke."
~End~
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AN: No one should be in an abusive relationship anda should always try to get away from that person however, that is easier berkata then done. I'm not trying to preach but it is always good to keep an eye out for your friends, family and lebih importantly yourself. Hope anda enjoyed my fic and stay safe! ^-^
~Owari~
