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Riku114 berkata …
Shit man. Im starting to fall down the rabbit hole of Marvel. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Yall I dont want to gain another HUGE series to keep track of :v bintang Wars added to it and :v lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Like Im feeling urged to go back and actually fully watch the Iron Man film rather than half assing them too :v lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
That's good though. Embrace Marvel, Riku. anda know anda want to !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Fun story time. I dont really remember the details too well, but like... three atau four years ago, I was having some kind of a high anxiety day. I dunno if it was a panic attack that I didnt know of, an anxiety attack, atau some traumatic shit atau anything, but I was experiencing high anxiety and was excessively zoned out as to cope with it, and some guy came to like... touch me, hug me, atau pat me atau something diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
So like... I had a detik atau two of panic where I shoved him up against the railing of the upper floor and was like... a detik atau two away from instinctually pushing him over the railing of the detik floor before I snapped out of it and somehow managed to play it off as a joke lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Like I dont know HOW I played it off without any pertanyaan asked cos I pushed him like a good 5-10 feet to get him to the railing and I wouldnt be shocked if I had a crazed look XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Nah I didnt look sad. I have a resting menggerutu, jalang face no matter what emotion Im feeling lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
RIP all my classes from today meneruskan, ke depan tho XD My brain officially went from like 90% checked out, to like 100% checked out for the rest of the school tahun when I finished my AP Government test (even tho I still have an AP Econ test on Wednesday XD) diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
Awesome. Be lazy time? lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Lazy is life lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, the sheer degree of which I like Stephen Strange is.... STRANGE.

Like I watched the movie, enjoyed it a lot, but he wasnt all too high on my list, but out of no where suddenly Im just as hyped to see him on screen as the long term Marvel favorit of mine - Loki?

And I just get that natural "Hes a favorite" feel, but I dont know exactly why..?

I mean Imma make Wanta watch it and I wanna watch it to analyze and see why I might like him XD But still. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
My memory is iffy but maybe I kinda relate to him? Who knows. I know I do have some similarities lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I really dont have the ability to be comfortable saying I like a character just cos I like them. I need to be able to know what in specific I like :v lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
anda know, if anda think about it, being a hero, a famous hero, just honestly isnt fair. Its borderline toxic. At the point that someone becomes a famous hero, the pressure to constantly be the hero and be responsible of helping others and saving the hari just would consume the life of the 'hero'

Sure they are saving people and being great people, but it comes at the cost of their limited existence.

When anda think about it like that, anda have to pity superheroes diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
oh they undeniably have it pretty bad. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
As an idealist, I can assure anda gets rough having the pressure to always remain upbeat XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
IKR if I was a ‘hero’ I’d probably like idk lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I think I adequately fucked with Riku's mind right before she went to sleep. I'm satisfied with that diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Why does Faba not have a Flygon? diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I AM BEING SHAMED FOR HAVING AN ESTIMATE OF 300-450 ENGLISH SONGS PICKED OUT ON THAT LIST.

FIRSTLY, THATS ONLY LIKE THE puncak, atas OF THEM EACH

SECONDLY, I ADMIT IM A musik JUNKIE, BUT COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE I KNOW AND ZANHAR, IM A CUTE BABY diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
THIRDLY, I HAVE AN INSTUMENTAL PLAYLIST PROBABLY 9X LONGER, A JAPANESE PLAYLIST ABOUT THE SAME LENGTH (guessing), AND A KOREAN PLAYLIST THAT IS PROBABLY A BIT SMALLER lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
THIS IS NOTHING cangkul, hoe lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
*cough* My irl friends have no place judging me :v lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
My USB currently has 225 songs in the English folder. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, people in my school make fun of me for only listening to 'weeb' music, but truth is I probably like lebih English songs than most of the people saying that. Im a musik junkie. Its just I have so much I like that downloading all of it is overwhelming :v diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ #Relatable !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
musik is just really nice. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Without this musik I don’t know how I would’ve fought this - Lane Boy |-/ lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Ha. My English teacher had us 'read' like six buku in preparation for the AP Exam essay, then I did my mock on Romeo and Juliet (one that wasnt one of the six) and I berkata Id probably do it on the AP Exam cos I know that one better than I should

She berkata I shouldnt because its been a while since I read it and since it doesnt cover all the topics that well and should study the other buku (not that I even studied R&J) diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
But fuck that XD Totally wrote my essay on Romeo and Juliet XD I know that piece too well solely cause its famous, cos I read Tybalt two years yang lalu and really liked his character lebih than I should have, watched an anime version of the play (which btw, had the plot changed a lot, I recommend the anime), and cos its jsut a good piece to analyze off of since a lot of stories can take a lot of inspiration and similarities off of it lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Even one of my side stories has a lot of parallels I didn't really intentionally do lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Despite never really watching the movie atau anything, Ive always been attached to the idea and things themed / inspired from Alice in Wonderland diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Same honestly. Have always found its whole concept fascinating !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Me too! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im sorry Im like.... on a tired high.

I only got 3 hours of sleep for a really busy hari XD

If I say weird stuff, enjoy XD diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
TIRED RIKU! DON'T APOLOGIZE! COME OUT FURTHER! DO MORE! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
If I talk too much I might start casually talk about murder atau shit. Im in a demented tired :v lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
A tired high? Oh so that’s what anda call it. That happens to me as well. So excuse any crazy stuff I say... I’m out of it a lot lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Seriously Riku needs to stop being all ansty about it and accept my offer to let her stab me with one of her knives. I mean sheesh. It's a flesh wound. MAYBE liver injury at worst. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Keep talking weird shit like that and itll be in the head lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
jk jk lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I am not going to lie. I am 'crazy' and 'insane'. I used to be even lebih so, but honestly even now I still can be. I've gone to the point of naming myself something else. I've talked way too excessively with people in my head, one of which tried to convince me I was a god before I realized I was getting way too off the rocker.

I've thought of excessively sadistic things with no guilt atau shame to back it up. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Personally, I strongly accept that part of me. The closer anda get to me, the lebih creepy and unsettling things anda might find my mind causing. But its honestly something I accept of myself. I am definately working out of it since it isn't a GOOD thing to be like this, but its not something Im going to let harm my esteem atau hold against myself lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I dont disclose too much of specifics of how... off... I can get at times since theres no need for that to spill out onto here, because I always sound like a psycho edgelord and I find that cringey, and because personally I dont like to attribute it to my secara keseluruhan, keseluruhan character. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
But yeah thats just kinda a ramble lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I want sleep diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
anda NEED sleep !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
Sleep? lebih dari setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 komentar…
ya deserve sleep so much lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
"If that's the case, then anda owe it to yourself to pick apart the games anda LOVE, not just the ones anda hate."

cinta that. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Person: Im so stressed out Imma pull out my hair!

Me, a person with Trichotillomania: https://tinyurl.com/y8fvjeqz diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Honestly, I'm not the type to be like "OMG anda ARE MAKING LITTLE OF MY DISORDER" because Trich is pretty poorly covered and that is a common saying, but I still kinda just take a pause whenever I hear it lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Cos like... menggerutu, jalang I doubt anda are literally gonna pull out your hair :v Stop appropriating my culture lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Jk jk lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I just find it funny-ish whenever I hear that line lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
I text Riku too much. Confirmed. RIP diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Ha I bet ya do! Y’all are so close! :) lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
*deep breath* *sigh* Honestly, searching for a roommate is a pain in the pantat, keledai with my family issues and vulnerability issues and just my secara keseluruhan, keseluruhan trust issues and stuff. Like I know I'll be fine regardless and I'll make friends and all just fine. Its just my brain being stupid about it while I'm waiting for a reply combined with how this whole "I cant just get this done with" stuff does not fit with me who likes to get things done with before moving onto the next. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Good luck buddy. Try not to listen when anda tell yourself stuff like that. You’ll get through it and everything will work out. :). [Wow. Listen to me, little motivationist. I’m trying.] Stay Alive |-/ lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Nah, to be honest, the things that concern me are genuine issues I need to keep in check. Some of the issues I have with making irl friends are deep rooted with family issues of mine and I actually genuinely do sabotage them myself with how my anxiety and stuff reacts to certain things. Its a work in progress and all and I know Ill get through it XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Its just a stinkin pain in the asssss lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts berkata …
Hi I’m back! A few days is like a tahun when anda live here diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Welcome back lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, Im waiting for lebih information on Osoro Shidesu specifically from Yandere Simulator. Cos honestly right now she kinda borders relatable, but there is so little actually diberikan out on her character.

Im super interested tho. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
She looks interesting. Has a pretty cool appearance too !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So got back from Infinity War.

Not nearly as depressing atau sad as like.... 99% of people make it out to be. Maybe its the fact I bathe in tragedy atau because I write stories and tragedy as much as I do, but it didnt really hit me too hard.

Also rather predictable if anda ask me. Like I wasnt shocked atau surprised with anything other than the abrupt ending. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
With that being said. I loveeeed the movie. It was great and I honestly like how the first like... half of the movie had my favorit XD Thor, Loki, Dr. Strange, and Guardians of the Galaxy. Just awesome XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Oh and Stark. Thats the other one. XD puncak, atas Five Marvel Characters. ((Yes GoG is counted as one imo XD)) lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Great to know. Looking meneruskan, ke depan to seeing it myself !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
My dad pissed me off. My dad just wants us to keep breeding my bird and wonders why we arent letting Smokey breed and every time we tell him its not healthy for them, its abusive to make them breeders for money, and that it adds to the problem that most parrots go to shitty homes, he just scoffs.

I called him out at constantly scoffing at it and hes like "You could make money"

So like. Fuck that greedy pantat, keledai bastard. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Ill stuff that asshole in a cage with a woman and force them to have children for money. See how he fucking likes it. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Not really but still. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I dont HATE him as much as I sound like I do. I just refuse to forgive him atau give him any leeway atau even truly see him as my dad / family until he gets his behavior straightened a bit and honestly and genuinely makes amends and realizes how shitty of a person he was / still sometimes is lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, smart charismatic people are some of the last people anda want to trust. They can analyze people way too well, and with charisma, they can pull strings way too well to make things happe-

.... oh shit wait. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Lol! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also a acak fact

Birds are literally dinosaurs

I raise baby dinosaurus diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Also, anda doubt it until anda hear what baby cockatiels sound like. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
link lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also acak fact about Riku

On an average, I make sure to get at least 30-60 menit of bird video within each day.

It makes me happy. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
On another note, as I begin talking of my plans for the future and all, the rate of which my cinta and knowledge on birds began to become well known rapidly sped up

At this point, I can now expect that if I hear any talk of birds between two people and there seems to be disagreement atau uncertainty of facts, that within five menit Ill hear "Hey Riku! anda are the bird expert, give us some info on this topic!" across the room diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
It’s expected oleh now I imagine:) lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im just shaking my head here at this argument between two people over Akashi.

One side is arguing "Akashi doesnt care for team work and bringing people together and only cares about winning." The other side is arguing "No, Akashi is all for team work and bring people together. Its one of his strongest characteristics and his main role in his team."

And Im just like.... Neither of anda are right atau wrong. anda are just ignoring an entire half of his character. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Like I dont even know how they just ignore one side atau the other. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Honestly I really need to see "The Last Game" since there is a lot lebih interaction between Bokushi and Oreshi. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
GONNA WATCH INFINITY WAR TODAY.

#HYPE diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 komentar…
It was a great movie. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ #ThanosDemandsYourSilence lol !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Annnd my dad didnt understand me when I berkata we had to leave early cos itd be busy / sold out XD So going tomorrow! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Decided to take the trumpet solo in the Game of Thrones theme for Zeppie cos she seemed happy enough that we were playing it, I figured Id do that in her name as well. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, Im tired as hell despite me constantly sleeping at least an jam atau two early most nights.

I am really just a permanently exhausted and tired bun.

I just want a good night to sleep and all.

.... did I not have a weekend to rest atau something? I dont really remember 5 days back XD diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 komentar…
take care of ya riku =( and try to sleep if ya can , want to see ya healthy lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ This, pretty much. Make sure anda rest whenever anda are able to. Still hyped for #RelaxedRikubun at some point !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts berkata …
hey this probably sounds really weird but I cinta anda guys. Feel free to ignore this if anda want. Most people either feel very uncomfortable atau just don’t understand.
Stay Alive |-/ diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Its cool dood XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
nightiee komentar…
anda too lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Most people could feel uncomfortable but I doubt that they wouldn't understand. Your feelings are much appreciated. Right back at anda !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So in my school we have this thing called a Senior Exit Project required to let us graduate and all where we have to present a powerpoint to a panel of teachers about our plans and all

I dont get why everyone is freaking out, trying to memorize it, and some barely passing it.

I did little to no preparation other than setting up the power point and just oleh talking about what I did for my Job Shadow and why I wanna do what I wanna do, I got a perfect score on the mock diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Relax. Talk genuinely and tell them what anda feel and mean. Its not that hard. I get the shy introverts struggling with it, but even some of the large known extroverts are stressing out lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Good job. I bet you’re glad that’s over thou! |-/ lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly if I watched Madoka Magica again I feel Id relate to Kyoko lebih than I did the first time diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
I could see anda relating a LIL bit to Mai from Ghost Hunt lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Kyoko has always been one of the Characters that interested me the most in this Series. I am pretty curious about which Character I could mostly relate myself when I finally continue and go even further with this anime !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Yeah honestly though, I am such an extrovert.

Now that Im not a ball of anxiety, depression, angst, and massive distrust, I find that a lot of my goals surround people and having them around me and being a speaker and stuff.

Im not even an ambivert. Im a strict extrovert XD Just a highly selective one at that. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
link lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Wow 5hats pretty cool lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
❤️ lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Alright Im back. And with an emote of my own. -x- diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
lol lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Good to know. Welcome back !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 komentar…
welcome back wanta! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
sunny
TheLefteris24 berkata …
Attention everyone! ''Rikubun'' has been added to the daftar of Nicknames available for Riku. I would like to make this Official. Fluffy Rikubun will certainly be referred to as such from now on.

KANPAI !!!! diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Got it :^; lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Uh what was that I just did?! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ Are anda talking about the Emoji anda made? It certainly seems unusual. A Typo, I guess? lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Yup. lol lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts berkata …
<3 thanks for the hope diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Keep the hope alive. <3 lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Preach 🙏 !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
nightiee komentar…
Keep the cangkul, hoe alive lebih dari setahun yang lalu
2ntyoneplts komentar…
Oh Satan! XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I always wanna write but dont have the energy and/or the creative flow XD diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Gosh Im tired XD Im still good and all tho guys. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Sorry about all the trauma talk out here lately XD I usually like to keep things fun and all, but Ive been too busy to be full on obsessed with anything, and dealing with trauma has been one of my largest focuses and goals these days XD

I dont any of anda mind but I wanted to put that out there. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 komentar…
don`t say sorry riku we understand it totally lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 komentar…
riku it's your club. You're entitled to do anything anda want. It's a blog of sorts. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
XD I know. I just wanted to put it out there lebih dari setahun yang lalu
sunny
TheLefteris24 berkata …
Also......

HAIL HYDRA !!!! diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 komentar…
xD leftie lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
XD !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
sunny
TheLefteris24 berkata …
#PidgeonLivesMatterToo !!!! diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
#PigeonLivesMatterToo lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ Preach !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
So I asked my therapist out of curiosity and all, and I do have PTSD apparently. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
I see. It makes a lot of sense when thinking about it !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Just gotta keep urging Riku to shoot someone in broad daylight. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Aye lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Riku: The Highly Selective Extrovert. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I actually saw that while scrolling Tumblr and I think that keterangan fits me VERY well XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Better than Ambivert tbh XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
WOW MY DAD JUST DID THE MOST CARING THING I EVER HEARD HIM DO IN ALL MY CHILDHOOD

HE OFFERED TO GO ON A WALK WITH MY MOM TO GET HER OUT OF THE HOUSE WHEN SHES DISTRESSED COS OF MY SISTER diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
omg

My mom and dad are watching a horror tampil about where parents go crazy and try to kill their children and my dads like "Its like your husband" diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
At least we now know hes aware lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
I... Kinda have my concerns about your father watching Horror Shows... lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
^Eh... hes a child lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
What I planned on doing:
-Get all the last Z Crystals in Pokemon
-Write another piece to my stories
-Write RPs
-Relax
-Play Hitman and other Steam
-Take today off to relax and have fun as I rejected activities to do so

What I got done:
-Six scholarships
-Researched and planned out lebih of my college stuff
-Got my Health homework done
-Researched acak stuff
-Finished two essays for an application
-Finished everything I can do right now for Davis diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I had a super productive day, but Im not satisfied since I barely got anything at all I planned today done XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I did one post to the RP and like... Kinda took some Flight Rising time but thats not really there either? XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
UC Davis: For a chance at a $1000-4000 scholarship, write an essay on your leadership experiences and how it affected anda and will continue to help anda in the future

Me: *flips through 900 things I could talk about cos leadership has played a major role in my life and Im super thankful for it and very passionate over it* diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Dude, Id write a 14 page essay on Leadership for free menggerutu, jalang lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Like I literally might even be dead if I never found myself in a leadership position some how. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
PLUS IF THEY ACCEPT ME THEY WILL BRING ME IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AND I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF ESPECIALLY IF ITS ON THE TOPIC OF LEADERSHIP lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Personally, I dont really believe too much in not chasing what I want. Its part of the reason I cant sit and relax too much, but if I determine I want something, I weigh out how badly Im willing to want it, then charge full on ahead.

I make excuses from time to time, but if I cant get something done in the long run, its often capable to blame myself for not taking action. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
At least partially blame myself that is. There is a level of rationality to how much one can and cannot control lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I personally wonder where I stand on the trauma scale. I know I probably fit under the "traumatized" title, but I dont really know if I actually fit one of the trauma disorders. Its something Ill probably ask my therapist atau psychiatrist about at some point. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I'm probably a lot better now. Had a really bad moment related to shitty stuff of the past and all but direclty after a lot of the depression and massive amounts of anxiety withdrew for the most part. Ive been shakey when I wake up for the past few days, but I think Im good so for anyone worried atau concerned, I should be fine.

Thank anda so much to everyone who watched out for me and helped. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Some part of the whole fiasco with Wanta 'triggered' something I think and it kind of let lebih of my really bad mental state thats usually disappears when Im online carried in lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Im back to normal I think. And now that I see a massive unprocessed wound, Ill probably take goals to addressing it in my selanjutnya therapy session and individually on my own. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
It is certainly good to know about the progress that has been made and will continue to do so. For the both of you, I hope. Always here when needed, Riku. We cinta anda too !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
We officially have a baby bird. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
NOICE! A NEW MEMBER IN THE FLOCK! CONGRATULATIONS, FANPOP'S LOCAL BIRDKEEPER !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
We might have two lebih dari setahun yang lalu
GDragon612 komentar…
congrats riku our birdmum =D *throws confetti and open a bottle of chamapaigne*, for the non alcoholics jus xD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
#StartingTheHitmanSeriesFromTheLastGame diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly though.

Akashi I am officially going to call my favorit character from now on. He super deserves it. He absolutely does deserve it. Outside of loving the character, he has always been consistently a significant figure in helping me process and work through issues, helping me make the right decision, calming down, self reflecting, etc.

And fun fact, his video can calm down one of my poor mental states so quickly and successfully diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
That I have this thing on my phone called "Emergency Akashi" since I could be in a really bad mental state and if I recognize it, Akashi video can almost always return that bad mental state to AT LEAST a neutral atau calm and managable mental state lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Even if his character sucked ass, the fact one fictional item could have helped me so much through my mental health journey and all, it alone is deserving of it lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Yeah Im doing better now but honestly, I still need to take time to chill. Who knows I might wake up and have another bad time atau something. I cant be sure but Imma take it somewhat easy. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I apologize if it takes me a bit to get back to being my old energetic and peppy self I like to be on here and usually am.

The baru saja events through me into a bad loop and pool that might take a while to fully get out of.

Im alright though. I just don't feel in the right place to have the energy and exorbitant positivity I usually do. Its not anything Wanta did atau anything Im pretty sure.

Thank anda to everyone that has been putting effort into this situation and helping me out. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Zeppie komentar…
Take all the time anda need. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
It is understandable really. Take your time, Riku !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Feeling better ish rn lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
A little lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Figuring out which Akashi icon to use when anda have so many is hard. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Literally every time I want to display a new icon showcasing favorit of mine. It takes a while !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
For me I have to like the icon and have that feeling like my mood at the moment likes the icon either cos it represent it atau because it soothes atau it just feels fitting at the time lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Its liking it and then finding one that I feel is kinda nice at the moment and like the look of how it looks when I post lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Same here XD Relatabilty is a major factor when I am going to display an Icon. It makes things all the lebih harder honestly with such a variety !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I can always rely on Akashi and KnB to neutralize shitty mental health crap. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
acak Anxiety: "I want to die."

Me: How about no anda over-dramatic sensitive edgelord? Take your damn pantat, keledai medicine diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I don't have time this morning to read through the uh... five atau six messages since on early start days I always wake up for just barely enough time to work through my regular routine.

But I see there is a lot of misunderstanding the in meaning and intent of the words.

And also, I figured with how often Ive talked about my issues with relationships with other people before addressing it with them to anda specifically, that anda knew the difference between mine and Zeppie's stance diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I dont believe in going directly to the friend if the situation is serious atau important enough. Doing that is how anda make bad, emotional, and irrational ideas off of current feelings. For major and very important issues, it is best to go to other people for saran and a detik opinion. Ive always lived oleh that and only kept my avoidance of following it for Zeppie in specific since she gets majorly hurt oleh it otherwise. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I wanted to say that one for everyone who reads this. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 komentar…
Honestly I might be out of turn. But if something is really important. I wouldn't make an exception. It might seems like I would be a dick atau something. But I rather be a dick than let a problem fester with no easy way atau solving it. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
Feel free to say your peace as much as anda like, Blind. Riku apparently won't talk to me about it for another jam so...*shrug* lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Everyone gets all upset when things that aren't directly related to the story in Pokemon games are not post game. I loved gabung Avenue from Black 2 and White 2. I loved where they placed it and found it entirely relevant and helpful diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
anda know, one of the shittiest things about mental health, especially as a kid and teenager, is that it steals away your childhood.

A lot of people have good memories of their high school life, they remember the fun with their friends, they remember all the fun risks and activities they did...

But when it comes to mental health, anda just kind of have all those times stolen.

I personally realize... As a senior, I'm far too late to regather them

But Ill cherish what I have. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Ill be happy that I have it right now and not let what I have left go to waste because of what I already lost lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I do wish I could have my childhood back, heck I wish I could REMEMBER my childhood again, but theres no point in crying over spilt milk. Past is past, its time to accept it and pindah on. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I owe people in my highschool lebih credit and appreciation than I give them since I've spent most of my time around them being a reserved, angsty, emotionally-scared child.

Like one of my friends from 7th grade... never really opened up at all to him. Apparently I was a huge inspiration and role model for him. We talked a lot but it was really one sided

atau the trumpet brother of mine I'm not dating. He dealt with so much of my stupid jokes and I cinta him. Hes family. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Those two really helped me out even if it was no where near direct. Honestly, they both opened their doors to me if I ever needed to escape my house even though they dont even know the tiniest tip of the iceberg of how horrible my house can and could get lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Ill be honest. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
For the first time, Ill say it. I will miss them. I will be sad. But its not bad. Its kind of nice. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Geesh. Lucy - The Eternity She Wished For is a super sad story

#FeelsBad

#Sad diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
College: Has your dad been physically present in California for at least three years-

Me: Not emotionally present but sure I guess hes been physically present diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
"And squaring numbers are just like women, if they are under thirteen just.. do them in your head" ~ Bo Burnham diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Thats actually going to be my klub new quote lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
True, I suppose !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
My body is so damn worn out XD

Going to the fitness center for like 45 menit is always good for when the brain is being stupid. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
#Relatable !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
It is great to know Riku. Exercise will do anda pretty good !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Heres to never having heard your dad ever say the word "love" "care" atau "proud" to anda in a positive way over the seventeen almost eighteen years of being alive.

Heres to him instead liking to get violent and yelling when anyone even remotely asks for him to say something remotely similar to it

Heres to him getting your therapist to give up after thirty menit of being asked to compliment you. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
At the very least I get "good jobs" here and there for doing good things regarding his money and my money. Its something. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
TFW anda get hit oleh a sudden wave of mild depression and anxiety and are about to post about it

Then realize anda forgot to take your anxiety medication this breakfast and thats probably part of it. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I dont think I can watch the new season of supernatural atau really much of any of it until I deal with my issues entirely.

It brings back bad flashes of really bad coping mechanisms and mental states I used to way too heavily relate to back when I practically binge watched it.

Sam and Dean are strong members of my relatable character list, but theres a reason for it. Some of those kutipan hit way too close to halaman awal and their dynamic feels too personal. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Like anyone else get that 'flash' feeling in their head when something reminds them of something unpleasant atau tempts to bring anda back into a sebelumnya bad mental state? Like anda dont actually fall back to it, but anda feel the pull for a detik in your head and its kinda uncomfortable but not immensely so? lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Like a mini panic of a warning? lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
XD this is just a pertanyaan for anyone XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
@Me a tahun yang lalu saying "Am I the only one that wonders when my signature would randomly become something fancy? Like adults seem to always have one (parents and all) and some of my classmates have one then theres me thats all like "What is cursive?"

Yes, it did happen. I dont know when but it did diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly going through my dinding for an artikel is interesting cos firstly, this icon makes all the posts super hilarious and secondly, because Im really realizing how horrifically depressed I was.

Even lebih shocking since I actually tried not to post it on here too much and to keep it subtle.

Honestly super concerned for my past self diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Me: Okay I literally wasted an jam of my time doing the most stupid and wasteful things. Before I can feel comfortable doing osmething slightly unproductive but also not stupid and wasteful, I have to do something fully productive. *groan* Ugh fine diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Flights Rising is literally the largest waste of my time but I still do it so much XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
That's me with whatever acak app has my interest for the bulan XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, I have a weird relationship with change. I hate change coming into my life up until it hits me and there is no return. Cos once I jump straight into it atau get run over oleh whatever change came my way, I just kind of go 100% into it and embrace it to the point I cinta it.

Im someone really happy and comfortable with my natural normal schedule, but Im also someone who likes to take change as an opportunity to massively fix things. So its just interesting. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Im officially committed to UC Davis XD

God I have to many massively long trips coming up in the future diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
That is great to know. Wish anda all the best Riku. Have a good progress most of all !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Pokemon knew what they were doing when they let anda name your rival. Honestly it's the most cathartic release. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
IM FINALLY halaman awal AFTER A 15 jam ROUND TRIP OF DRIVING OVER A LIKE 35 TRIP OVERALL.

IM FINALLY NOT SITTING

...

and Im back at my computer. :) Nice. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Maybe even 16 hours idk XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Welcome back XD !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, being a "leader" is a great feeling and isnt something Id really ever want to give up. I always cinta having a team that I can work with and helping them / maximizing their potentials and getting work done and all.

Plus the respect and ability to influence another person's life positively is always nice. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Watching a PS4 gamer try PC Gaming for the first time is hilarious. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Currently off in Davis checking out UC Davis today and tomorrow. Took like... an eight jam drive to get here but Im here. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
link

Please do take and enjoy.

Wanta and I put a lot of work into it XD diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
I certainly did enjoyed it. Well done, to both of anda !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku confirmed that Professor Oak is a Totem Pokemon in Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon and can be unlocked with a sticker. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
There is something really wonderful about learning about yourself in all ways possible. Looking deep inside yourself and finding all the good, bad, weaknesses, and strengths and accepting them. Its really wonderful to be honest.

I never loved myself lebih than when I started doing this.

It hurts like Lucifer's wrath on steroids at first, but the longer and longer anda do it... the lebih magical and wonderful and secure and confident anda feel. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
It is certainly wonderful recognizing that. As I berkata before, pretty admirable !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Seeing anda making those positive remarks alone feels pretty satisfying to me as well :') !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
God Im tired XD diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Being tired honestly isnt good for my mental state Im guessing. Go wonder XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Im alright tho. Its just amusing the amount of intrusive thoughts Ive been playing baseball with lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
#StrikeAllThoseHomeruns lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Relatable XD !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Riku is oppressing me! diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Never name your Pokemon after mental issues.

Duskull used Foresight.

Codependance was identified.

Me: "...." diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
:v lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly, if I got into Harry Potter, Id probably fall in cinta with Snape. The issue however is that Harry Potter is everywhere. After bintang Wars and Kylo, I fear having two populer series holding characters I cinta diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 komentar…
anda would cinta Snape. Snape would be hands down your favorite. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
He currently is from the little, tiny bit I know from the series XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^^ I agree about Snape as well. He certainly is your kind of Character XD !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Jeesh. Yuki Kajura is an amazing composer. Pandora Hearts OST, Fate OST, Madoka Magica OST, Sword Art Online OST, Tsubasa Chronicles OST.

Those are all some of my favorit works geesh.

*knows lebih anime osts than animes* diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
I have listened to some of them and I agree that there are quite a few amazing Tracks. Pretty interested to check out the rest !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
BlindBandit92 komentar…
You've listened to the fate ost even though anda haven't really seen the anime? lol lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
anda continue to sin, Riku. Not that I cannot understand that but still lol !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
I decided and I am committing to it.

I am going to process through my trauma and try to see if I can clear the fog on my memories and bring back, experience, remember, and accept what happened for everything it is.

Its not going to be fun, but I want to be able to pull myself back together before I leave off to college.

Honestly the hard part is though I only get really bad over my trauma when its abruptly brought up. I dont really get connected to it much on command diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
The thing about trauma though, especially at a young age, is that it steals away a lot of yourself and a lot of your ability to be an entire person. anda forget a lot. anda loose your history and your past. anda loose your childhood. anda loose your sense of identity. anda become a grandly incomplete person lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I really cant be me at my full potential until I work through it fully so as much as I hate it, I want to do the most with my life. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
That is quite an admirable way to look at things, Riku. Making peace with the past is a major step towards one's Improvement. I too believe anda can do it. There is no doubt about that !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Honestly one of the things i appreciate the most in friends and people close to me are people who have experienced stuggle and can manage and handle it well.

I really appreciate and like that since they usually do good with saran and keeping me under control when Im at my worst. c: diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I often, especially in thr past, need people who can handle and keep things in a good perspective while keeping me from doing anything stupid off of stress atau anything lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Cos I can lack self control at times and have too many demons on my shoulder. Its kinda why I like Lefteris a lot. Hes my "positive echo chamber". Hes full of nice health lines to encourage positive growth. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
I am all about encouraging one's Growth XD It helps when I feel myself strongly relating with berkata person. I am always here for you, Riku ^_^ !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
DUDE. POKEMON GENERATIONS LOOKS SICK.

THEY A ADDRESSED POKEMON BLACK 2 AND WHITE 2 SCENE SO NICE.

IMMA WATCH IT. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Wantadog's depressing introspective about Love.

cinta is nice when anda think of it like "Oh two people who were meant for each other" but sadly the case is that when they say true cinta is one in a million, they mean it. 90% of relationships are not true love. 90% of marriages are not true love. 90% of true cinta CASES are NOT true love. Odds are no one here has even seen "true love" in action. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
"Love is not equal" lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog komentar…
I won't dismiss someone else's relationship, but my statement on the main post holds true. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
^ I'll have to agree with it !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
wantadog berkata …
Three cheers for depressing yourself oleh asking for the impossible diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Also, Im a really strong advocate for taking medication for mental health issues, especially when it starts to get too extreme.

Taking medication for anxiety, no matter how much actually thinking about taking it gave me lebih anxiety, was probably one of the best decisions of my life

It lowered how bad my anxiety got to a manageable level. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Personally before I got it, I got the horrible feeling like I was going to kill my real self off. It felt like a half assed indirect suicide. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I actually got super suicidal over it I think. But it really helped in the long run. lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
I mean I was already suicidal during that time, thats why my therapist was like "You really need to see a psychiatrist and get medication", but it made it worse lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Ive been on medication for like.... ten months I think now. Its been helpful without a doubt lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Its interesting how Psychosis and Dissociation are commonly seen talked about in the same areas. They are strictly different, but I can see where a lot of the similarities come in play.

Psychosis is a break away from reality, dissociation is a cut off from reality. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Baujel is such a wonderful character lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
The only issue I have to be honest with menulis his character is that I oleh no means depict him oleh his actual age XD There is no way a kid would act this way at his age XD lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
But sh.. this isnt a formal menulis peace. I dont have to be that realistic. Its just hobby menulis and its a side story to depict things. Maybe Im menulis it how he remembers it so it comes out as lebih mature since people have trouble fully making themselves as immature as they were when they think back to their past experiences :v lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
tfw anda have symptoms of a large portion of mental health issues but write a character whose main issue is the ONE anda dont so anda gotta research :v diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
Okay I decided. I will cinta Lusamine begrudgingly diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu
TheLefteris24 komentar…
Riku: I hate you... But I cinta you... But I hate anda !!!! lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 komentar…
Accurate lebih dari setahun yang lalu
Riku114 berkata …
But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks anda into doing the first statement. diposting lebih dari setahun yang lalu