Anxiety issues? Depression? What's going on with me?
I don't know. I don't know what's going on.
Sometimes, not often but sometimes I get so overwhelmed with loneliness that I cry.
Sometimes, I just sit and stare for mins.
Sometimes, I think I'm worthless.
Sometimes, I dwell on all my past sin and think God is so far away.
Sometimes, I feel so alone and like I always will be.
When someone comes and shows even a little understanding I cling to them because I feel like I have to. I'm scared to lose that.
I have trust issues with boys because one once told me "all I wanted from anda was sex"
My cousin passed away in Aug so I'm still dealing with that and wondering if the sorrow of that has anything to do.
My mother abandoned me when I was a baby and I know I have abandonment issues. She left my brother though too and he seems to be fine.
I'm needy, I'm clingy, I'm emotional.
I over-think things. I overreact.
I'm 20 so I can't wait to have my own apartment but when I imagine what it will be like, I literally picture myself just sitting on the dipan, sofa wrapped up in a blanket and staring at nothing.
I don't know if I have something wrong with me. Like a condition, but I don't want to think that I do. What if I'm just like this?
Also. . .I don't know if this effects how I am but my mom smoked when she was pregnant with me but not my brother. I don't think it was hard drugs but I don't know what it was.
komentar anything but please be nice.
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