Friendship Poem

There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if jantung is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with cinta that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart

Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
____________________________________________________

Only knew anda for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
anda always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
anda always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
anda just laughed and helped him
And always forgave

No one knew anda would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying

We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
anda and I were fine

I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
anda ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never berkata goodbye

I wish i could of berkata goodbye
For anda are here
No more
__________________________________________________
In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss anda and anda will never be forgotten

When I talk to my friends I pretend I am standing on the wings

of a flying plane. I cannot be trusted to tell them how I am.
atau if I am falling to earth weighing less

than a dozen roses. Sometimes I dream they have broken up

with their pasangan and are carrying food to my house.
When I open the mailbox I hear their voices

like the long upward-winding curve of a train whistle

passing through the tall grasses and ferns
after the train has passed. I never get ahead of their shadows.

I embrace them in front of moving cars. I keep them away

from my miseries because to say I am miserable is to say I am like them.

—Jason Shinder

I am mysterious yet sweet
I wonder what the future brings
I hear serigala bernyanyi to the moon
I see diamonds swimming in a black sea above me as I lay in the grass.
I want people to understand me completely

I am acak yet shy
I pretend I am always going on new adventures
I feel misunderstood
I touch shards of my past, remembering them
I worry that I won't find someone who can view things the way I do

I am courageous yet cunning
I cry because the blames fall on me
I understand people's problems
I say witty things that persuade people
I dream of an absolution & life of adventure
I try to fit in but it's just so boring
I hope to travel around the world making lebih friends along the way.

I am all that I am, I am all of me

The Cure



Good and evil
cinta and hate

The balances of life
Makes everything flow just right
Until misery takes control of your world...

Misery is a parasite
Feeds off other's to become stronger
It hunts for those who are happy
Only to bite and infect them
With it's disease

It penetrates deep into your mind
Death and despair flood the thoughts
The virus spreads further...to your soul

anda are sick with misery
Contagious
anda don't want to infect
Forced into isolation
A weak body and a weak mind
There is no cure for anda to find

Until the hari comes when an antidote called Love
Finds it's way inside
And kills the virus

But cures are hard to find
Like any cinta is...

my jantung beats clear and frees me
to see, feel, hear, touch and taste
your eyes, your lips, your hands
anda are everywhere

a touch, soft and tender
a whisper, full of desire
a gasp of sweet surrender
as passion fuels the fire

and though we still have far to go
that's alright, we'll take it slow
and though the days are often long
with anda here I can be strong

there's no time in life to judge
only time enough for love
so as another night slips by
let’s dance beneath the sky

in our secret garden
cinta took power over our will
progressively, gently, tenderly, lover to lover

love, you’re all I ever needed
and I want anda now. now being forever.

this is my eternal vow.

A silver glint in your eyes; heartbeats clean.
A simple chord enrages me; warm smiles.
The melody plays slow; performed quite keen.
I stop midway, but memory redials.

The octave jumps to brilliance; intense.
They cinta attention and thought; quarter notes.
Continuous trills and glissandos; dense.
Already chosen hum no other votes.

To accidentals for wit; humor dark.
Yet, the lebih necessary; balance sweet.
Some kindness with speed; held out at the hark.
Released the pedal to kill the soft beat.

All are strong to my heart’s will; every song.
The echoes beneath that for which I long.

malaikat and demons were circling above me
through the thorns to the stars
The only one who doesn't know happiness
is the one who couldn't understand its call

I am Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer...

Stand alone... Where was life when it had a meaning...
Stand alone... Nothing's real anymore and...

...Endless run...
While I'm alive, I can try not to fall while flying,
Not to forget how to dream... how to love
...Endless run...

Calling Calling, For the place of knowing
There's lebih that what can be linked
Calling Calling, Never will I look away
For what life has left for me
Yearning Yearning, for what's left of loving

To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer.......

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Fearless jantung beats
in my chest,
strong and proud,
sensitive and fragile.



Collecting all these words
anda gave as if
those are significant,
but your jantung has never
spoken to me.



Empty words anda gave,
the depth that lies in them
anda treaded,
though I still remember that
glow in your eyes,
I still remember,
though your false love
is spreading its wings
only in dreams of my own
world.



It was me who left,
and yet
I'm still trying to forget,
still trying to erase every
moment of happiness
we lived.
And my jantung is not weak,
even though it's lonely,
loneliness itself doesn't fear me,
for it loves me,
loneliness chose me.



Loneliness is jealous,
won't leave me be,
loneliness is in cinta
with me,
filled within my heart,
it has chosen me.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~