Clouds of happiness have covered my sky,i was thinking its a gift of god,i wish i could fly.Rain of cinta showered all the night,i found each hari so bright, i felt kind a sweet touch of flowers, i plucked each bud in the garden of wishes,i filled my bucket and sang the happy song ,i was walking,thinking about my cinta and life.on my way i met a single flower,i glanced at it,and i thought to pluck this one.but it looked so sad!i asked ,why are u so sad?he answered me i was just like you,i had wishes just like anda have,i was in cinta with rain,clouds and garden of wishes.clouds have gone,rain of cinta never came again to my garden,and my wishes left me alone!,now i admit that i have nothing to love,i smiled and take him in my hands and berkata dont cry !every thing will be fine, why do not anda cinta your self,it will give anda life,love your sky,spread your fragrance, make your own garden of wishes,clouds of happiness will soon come to anda and bring your rain of love......................

Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Do anda understand?
Do anda get it?
Do anda even care?
Do anda understand bit oleh bit?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Well I'm asking,
I'm pleading on my knees,
I'm begging to you,
Why should I believin' thee?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Ya, some friend I have,
Some friends I got,
Some friends care,
And anda were the friend, I never thought,
Why should I wonder?
why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.

Death of cinta arrives...

The Earth shakes
Lightning strikes
The living cry
Lands break open
Flames of the forsaken arise
All life will die

Will anda be there?
Would death be too much to bare?

Shadows creep closer
As the sun runs away
Demons come alive
The weak and lonely are not spared

Will anda be there?
Would death be too much to bare?

Loyalty will be tested
The failed will be condemned
As loveless souls are thrown into a pit
In darkness of eternity

Will anda be there?
Would death be too much to bare?

Death will come to all
Pure hearts, pure souls
Followers of the Goddess of Love
Will see a peaceful end

But will anda be there for me?
Would our death be too much to bare?
Our cinta shall be tested
But I'll be there...

“Unheeded warnings pushed me to the ground,

They pushed harder and harder till they knocked me down.

Only left with the desire to rise,

Into those lovely empyreal skies.

My wrongdoings, my feelings of hate,

Caused me to carry this troublesome weight.

To make things right is not always the goal,

I will be free when I earn someone’s soul.

I must win one heart,

Somehow, someway,

atau after ten years I won’t live one lebih day.

My dire situation, with my trust and my fear,

I must find just one person, one person to hold dear.

The skies are calling,

I’m wanting to fly.

My wings are broken, Frozen stiff and bare.

But I must find someone,

Somehow, somewhere,

To help with the search, to help with my goal,

I must capture,

An untainted new soul.”

(c) Waverly L. Harris

It was strange
how we met each other.
I knew from the first contact
that we are different from the others.


You, so unusual and sweet,
with magic in words,
anda left me dreams.


But dreams are afraid of
reality.
Afraid of the storm
and restlessness.


The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.


Everyone wants to dream,
fearing that reality may
destroy that moment of peace,
bringing pain and empty memories,
words that have gone with breeze.


Although anda make your peace
with reality,
anda still dream the same dream,
while the pain smolder in you.


Everything changes,
everything fades away with time,
but anda still dream the same dream.


The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.


In the end, anda realize
that everything is just a dream,
everything has its end.


And while the pain smolder in you
and everything fades slowly,
anda still dream the same dream,
anda still dream.

As we grow up we leave behind the simple things... what would the world be if we just stayed in our lala land of childhood?

When do wobbley steps turn in to fearless sprints? How is it that our mothers kisses lose their powers when anda need them most? When does a modest squart turn in to a slutty skirt? At what point does sparkely eyeshadow fill in for water colours? And eye liner replaces markers? When did pakaian dalam wanita, celana turn in to lacey panties? Why must holding hand with a friend mean something more? At what age are we when rain boots get tossed aside for hooker boots? When did "I cinta anda mommy" turn in to screams of hatred for the woman who raised you? Why must our evil story book witches come alive as mean, self-centered bitches? How is it possible that some were in our lives we stopped drawing and making jantung and started to break and mend others hearts? Why must songs of joy and fun turn in to to raps of hate and pain?

I can't smile,
i can't think,
my mind is poisoned,
my mind is trapped...

So many thoughts,
the fear is coming,
it's waiting.

How strong are anda to
fight,
how weak are anda to
deny?

Don't find me,
i'd rather stay here,
so far away from
your ruthlessness.

Tears of despair
are calling your name,
and anda want to drag
me there...

The way anda possess me
is so cruel,
why don't anda leave me alone?

I'm not like the others,
they might be stronger
atau weaker,
it depends how anda
see it.

The darkness is all over,
poisoning my mind,
the fear is itching,
it's everywhere,
won't go away!

It stains my soul,
i'm shaking,
despair won't let me.

So many thoughts,
but nothing's resolved
yet,
it's just fear
holding me,
hauling me deeper
into its ruthlessness.

I don't want this,
so be gone,
anda live inside me,
but anda don't know.

Tears of despair
are calling your name,
they want to drive anda away,
so i could feel safe,
so i could be far away,
so far of your ruthlessness.

Wait on the sunset
pindah through your day
This quiet luar angkasa that anda fill

Here oleh a dark moon
Filled up from the rain in my eyes
My fingers are cold on your skin

Dream me away
Before the night becomes day
You'll see it all come true

This water is deep
anda go to sleep
And silently
Dream me away

I have a picture
It rests in my hand
I opened my window tonight

I have a feeling
It will be okay
My senses will guide me through

I'll dream us away
Before the night becomes day
I'll see it all come true

This water is deep
We’ll go to sleep
And silently dream us away

And silently dream
And silently
us
away
away...

A cold fog floats among the meadow
The moon above, full and bright, casts an eerie glow among the mist.

A gentle midnight breeze whistles through the winter trees
Waving ridgedly to the winter rhythm
The ground is hard from the freeze, the dirt cruches under your feet

In the distance a serigala howls, its haunting voice pierces your soul
The ghosts of the forest creep from the trees
Their cold embrace freezes anda to your core

Desperate to escape anda look into the shadows of the forest
A light in the distance softly shines, beckoning anda to gabung it.

anda run, ignoring the distorted screaming faces from the trees, desperate to reach the comforting light.

anda finally come to it, the light is bright, warm and welcoming
As anda get closer it engulfs you, sucking anda into its protective glow

Soon anda emerge into a different world but it is the same from where anda came

A mirror world...
Darkness to Light...

Once again, another one of my short yet dark poems...
I hope I don't cause any depression to anyone!
*NOTE* I am planning on menulis a lebih spiritual poem

Control


My life is controlled and I'll never know what its like to be free

I will never get out of this hole of sorrow and I will become burdened with a lifeless soul

I dont believe anything will change as I stay captive like an animal in its cage

The rage of my misery will never see the hari of freedom even though I long to fly above the trees to get away

But how can I if I am a prisoner?

I wasn't sure if I wanted to post this poem because it is quite personal but I figured why not...



Brother


Are anda my brother atau are anda a vicious stranger?
How could anda stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?

anda wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face anda portray nothing but lies and hate...

hari after hari anda throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...

No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and anda will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery

While anda will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you

(I'm just gonna put this here...)

The kupu-kupu on my wrist
Gave me a goodbye kiss.
I broke my promises
And now look at this.

Tonight I'll stay up late.
Four AM, still awake.
With my smiles so fake,
This will make her jantung break.

I know that I'm loved.
I always return your hugs,
But my thoughts are like thugs,
And the razor my drug.

This isn't the last time,
And I will pay for my crimes,
I'll pay for each self-made line,
But keep saying that I'm fine.

So tonight I'll sit and think.
From bitterness I will drink.
With the fading wounds pink,
And stains filling the sink.

If anda promise to stay,
Don't leave me atau push me away,
Then I promise to try.
I promise to not die.

I'll slow down just for you.
Because of all the things that anda do.
I will try to stop bleeding
If anda say "I cinta you" like anda mean it.

Once upon a time,
The beginning of all stories,
But this is not a story,
So once upon a life,

I saw a young and beautiful woman
Who wears a golden face,
And she has a shining smile
One stair at her & my jantung gets stolen,

I tried to stay away but I was blinded with only her image.
The image has your reflections, which makes me feel so free.

Pretending to know the future but yet the faith is endless.
As she turned n looked at me she became the deepest feeling.
I went to ask her name, and then I found it was you.