One day, I almost picked up a pair of scissors to cut myself with. My father hid the pocket pisau from me. I then saw my guitar. As I was strumming, a few words began to pop into my head. I got a notebook I wasn't using otherwise and a pen, and I wrote some words down. They were very sad, but they seemed to give me some comfort. Just then, my mother came into my bedroom and said, "Aubrey, your friends are here." I came downstairs, and my friends Chelsea, Sam, and Brian were standing at the door. I said, "Hi, guys. What brings your here?" Chelsea said, "We're going to the mall. My mother is driving us there. We're just going to hang out." I said, "Okay." My mother said, "It might be good for her to get out of the house. She could use a change of scenery." I went with my friends. At one point, we looked in a store called FYE. It had all kinds of things, including musik things. I thought that I could use something different to listen to. I had been listening to grunge bands that my father liked in his twenties in the 1990's. Although I enjoyed them, save for Nirvana, I decided I wanted something different. I looked at a Rolling Stones CD. Brian said, "Seriously, Aubrey? The Rolling Stones?" I asked, "What's wrong with them?" He said, "They're ripping off a certain Liverpool band." Sam said, "They're all right, but they're not as good as the Beatles." I titled my head. "Beatles?" I berkata curiously. Brian said, "You'd cinta them. If anda like grunge, anda like the Beatles. A lot of grungers were influenced oleh the Beatles in some ways." I said, "Cool." The only albums that were in stock were Past Masters and Abbey Road. I went with Past Masters. Brian said, "Ooh, that's a good one! It has all the best from the early years and all the best from the later years!" I said, "Okay." He said, "I'll tell anda a little secret. I was named after their manager, Brian Epstein." I laughed and said, "You were not!" He laughed and said, "Okay, anda got me!" Once at home, I listened to Past Masters. The Beatles were really great, and I could see how grunge musicians were influenced oleh the Beatles. anda see, what most people don't understand about the grunge movement is that, despite the angst-filled lyrics, these musicians were actually about peace and love, much like the bands in the British Invasion. Angst is actually anger and despair, but there is still a glimmer of hope, unlike with anxiety. That was how I had been feeling since Jim's death. After listening to the Beatles, I went for a jog. I enjoyed it, but I wished I had a companion. I thought, A dog would be the perfect jogging companion for me. I began to do research on the perfect dog for me.
September 8, 2011
I am feeling much better today. I don't feel great, but I feel much better than I did a few days ago. I was able to go to school today. Michael, Sabrina, and Bridget helped me get caught up in my classes. I'm lucky to have such good friends. Of course, I did feel a bit tired after finishing my homework. I took a nap for a while. When I woke up, it was almost 6:00 pm. I didn't realize I had slept that long. When makan malam time came, I ate really well. I didn't feel like eating much for the past couple of days. My appetite has returned. I think I will go to tempat tidur early tonight. I'm feeling pretty tired right now. I'm not completely better, but I'm close to it.
I am feeling much better today. I don't feel great, but I feel much better than I did a few days ago. I was able to go to school today. Michael, Sabrina, and Bridget helped me get caught up in my classes. I'm lucky to have such good friends. Of course, I did feel a bit tired after finishing my homework. I took a nap for a while. When I woke up, it was almost 6:00 pm. I didn't realize I had slept that long. When makan malam time came, I ate really well. I didn't feel like eating much for the past couple of days. My appetite has returned. I think I will go to tempat tidur early tonight. I'm feeling pretty tired right now. I'm not completely better, but I'm close to it.
June 11, 2011
Summer Vacation has been great so far. While I've been enjoying school lebih since I've gained a couple of friends, it's nice to have a break from it. I also received some exciting news. On July 9, I am going to be in Chicago to see The Devil Wants Peace in concert! I was so excited when my uncle told me he was able to afford the tickets. I later told my friend, Michael, "You should have seen me when my uncle told me the good news. I was jumping up and down, crying tears of joy." Normally, I'm not that excitable, but The Devil Wants Peace is one of my favorit bands. Since I was six, I dreamed of seeing them live, and now, I can stop dreaming. This dream is becoming a reality. I don't know if I'll be lucky enough to meet them, but the fact that I'm lucky enough to see them is great.
Summer Vacation has been great so far. While I've been enjoying school lebih since I've gained a couple of friends, it's nice to have a break from it. I also received some exciting news. On July 9, I am going to be in Chicago to see The Devil Wants Peace in concert! I was so excited when my uncle told me he was able to afford the tickets. I later told my friend, Michael, "You should have seen me when my uncle told me the good news. I was jumping up and down, crying tears of joy." Normally, I'm not that excitable, but The Devil Wants Peace is one of my favorit bands. Since I was six, I dreamed of seeing them live, and now, I can stop dreaming. This dream is becoming a reality. I don't know if I'll be lucky enough to meet them, but the fact that I'm lucky enough to see them is great.