Blackness all around me.
I can feel the hate pulling me.
I can smell the blood that is puring form me.
I do not care.
I do not feel anything.
I am alone.
Lost.
Unloved.
Undesired.
The hate is stronger today.
I feel it.
I do not like it.
I will never tampil it.
I will never let it loose.
I am scared of I do I will never be able to control it.
I am crying.
I look in the mirrow.
I look like I've been crying black tears.
My makeup is running agine.
I laugh.
A laugh I have never heard before.
It did not sound like me.
But an evil person trapped inside of me.
She scares me.
She is evil.
I turn away...

The darkness of the night falls.
I feel myself give in to the temptation of sleep.
I lay down and I fall into a deep sleep.
I dream of a wonder place.
Peacful peoeple.
Loving family.
A loveing world.
I look to the side.
I see a beatiful red head looking back at me.
I walk to her.
She hugs me.
She tells me she is fine.
She is safe.
I cry.
I begg.
I plead.
For her not to leave me.
I tell her I am sorry for what I did.
That I want to be with her.
She holds me close.
She tells me not to worry.
She says I forgive anda baby.
She says I cinta anda baby.
I do not believe her.
I hold on tight.
Not wanting...

So lost.
So alone.
In this cold dark world.
Scared to breath.
Terrified of what will happen to me.
He says it everyday.
Im stupid.
Im ugly.
I do not deserve to live.
I should be dead oleh now.


No will cinta me.
No one needs me.
They say I care.
They say I'll never leave u.
But I know they will.
Dads right.
I should be dead.
I am alone.
All I ever do is cuz pain
I am a black rose.


I am not specail.
I am no pretty.
I am useless.
A no body.
Not worth anything.
Noe will want me when they find out.
NO one wants me anyway so who cares.
I care.
I am hurting.
A black rose.

I am not innocnent.
I am not...

I look out my window.
I prey for a worl full of love.
A world that would welcome me.
With open arms.
Not a world full of hate.
The tought of a hareful world.
Makes me die inside.
Makes me wish I was never born.

Sad lonely world.
A world that makes people kill eachother.
A world that makes people hate eachother.
A world I want nothing to do with.
I thought I found everything I need.
A love.
A family.
A home.
Even though it was threw a website.
I had it.
I had everything.

The light of a beatiful sun.
It was gone.
I was left.
I was alone.
I was deing inside.
Everything I loved and cared for was...

No one ever suspects the short ones

Sarcasm just one lebih service I offer

Easily distracted oleh shiny objects

National Sarcasm Society
Like we need your support

Blood sweat duct tape

Penny for ur thoughts five bucks if they're dirty

Do unto others the same crap they do unto u

I tried getting over myself but I'm just too awesome

What part of m-e-o-w don't u understand

You don't have to agree with me but I'm still right

If idiots grew on trees this place would be an orchard

A team effort is a lot of people doing what I say

Instant human just add coffee

On anda Mark...get set....GO AWAY!

Just me happy I'm...

Ever sense I joined this site ppl have been nice some not that much and other mean as hell when I found some I could trust in and tell secrets and confide in them I realised that some ppl aren't trust worthy ppl and at times I should have keep my mouth shut.

At times I was relieved to see that some ppl actully cared and tried to comfort me threw the bad times while others where mean and say nasty things before they got to know the real me some ppl desired proof and at the time I wasn't able to tampil they called me names such as (liar attention grabber screw over) which hurt.

I stayed with the...

I sit on the wooden floor hugging my black renda pillow.
I sit and I stare off in my own world.
A world that contains so much love.
So much wonder.
A world where I am in the arms of my beloved.
The fleids are full of sunflowers.
The breeze is light.
His arms are strong and warm.

I jerk awake my face wet my arm sore.
I touch my face.
When I look at my finder it is smeared with black wetness
I sigh and mumble about my eyeliner running and mixing with my tears.
I look at my arm red near blood from my hand.
I sigh which doesn't help my tears.

I am a dreamer my mind in a world that is not real.
My mind that fonders...