Once
Twice
Three times
I'm Out!!!!

It dies for no reason
there they go....
burning off
piece oleh piece


those stitches that held me together
burning off
what was once whole
dead
dying
GONE
they are GONE
why?? why???
WHY ME?!?!?!?!???

what did i do to deserve this?

Does fate not want me to be happy?

Do i deserve to be happy?

what is the wrong that i have done?
I guess its my fault...
i guess that i will never be truly happy

Darkness creeps into my mind and into my dreams

I'll just learn to deal with it somehow
and find a way to fix it

What is death? A word used to decribe the afterlife? Who knows, nobody just another mystery. People say when anda die anda go to heaven, nirvana, they even say that your spirit leaves your body for another. I would feel cheated that I was left there oleh my self, not even my soul wants me.


Some say thats the feeling of alone is the worst feeling of all, I say a feeling is a feeling that is better than nothin at all. Nothin is to me the only pain anyone can really have nothin just simpley nothin.


Some talk about what anda think when anda die, they say that your life flashs in front of you. I would think of what is about to happen, i'm going to be nothin thats all just nothin, that is the worst pain.


But that is just what people belive but to me it's just another mystery never to be solved.






Writen by, Connor

What does the word life mean to you? Is it a clock counting down the time anda have here on earth? atau is it a word that gives feeling, emotion, sadnes.

What would anda do if anda had a life of no joy, sadnes, feelings, emotions. Some say a life that only dreams can reach. Some say a life wearth aiming for, Me? I think life as a word used to cover the reason were here and why is that? The resaon were here is like the reason for all things, its a mystery never to be solved and never can be solved.

So now anda know what I think when I here the word life, just another mystery never to be solved.





Writed by, Connor

if u dnt like my menulis then why the hell are u membaca this?

Dying on the inside
Screaming my head off every night doesn't help
i don't cry anymore, i can't cry anymore
The pain.. it never leaves burning at the stitches on my once whole heart

Burning
waiting for those last few stitches to burn off completely

Burning Burning Burning

My eyes are red & burning from the tears that just won't come
I can't cry, i won't cry

the blood that runs through
my veins once again
runs down my arm

leaving behind my story,
un shed tears, and blood

I don't have much longer to live

I will sit and wait
until my hari comes

red eyes and red arms
awaiting that hari to just come

I shall not fear death for
my time will come
and i will FINALLY
be at peace with everything and everyone

how could anda say we're bffs
and now your an pantat, keledai who
would pick her over me
i always was loyal to u
as afriend

and anda pick that menggerutu, jalang ova my
i pay for your moves we
under stand each other
better


but that menggerutu, jalang knew anda
long so i got the boot
and now your happy
with your old bff

and now i have no sholder to
lean on i guess ill alway
be lonely i hate my choise of

bffs y try any lebih
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

fuckem all fuck the world
thats my story i hat my bff
so now im searching for a new
bff ahhhhhhhhh

new bff need

I would go to the ends of the Earth for you

My love
My heart
My life
My Martha
No one else can have anda but me
me and only me
Sure anda don't want me
but i want anda
forever and ever
My Martha...I cinta You
anda are my reason to
wake up every morning
and to go to school
and to cheerleading practice

When i see anda
all the dark, bad, gambar
and clouds and thoughts go away
But once anda leave those
clouds and thoughts and images
come right back to me

They haunt me everyday
every detik of my life.
I will cinta anda forever and always

To anda I mean another "stalker"
but remember I was your first
and will always be at the
puncak, atas of anda "stalker list"

As long as i am on the puncak, atas of that list
i will be your friend. but
still
I cinta YOU!!

why laugh at my anger why get angery at my happenese why have emotions if u can
never express ur self
why try to fit in when they laugh at u

why? why? why? try any lebih than
being myself because myself is not good
enough for my sick twiced world
where your brother take a hoes side
over his sisters and when your happy with your cinta ones it gone in 1 detik and your the

one who loves themthe most but
your just the smart youngest sister that
ever one hates

in my world guy like u and your best friends but he to scard to ask uout and anda open your big mouthand mess it
all so go head laugh at my anger
get angery at my happiness i don't care any lebih just want to die in peace and haooiness
so il put up with it go head laugh.

Sometimes I think of the goodtimes of memories
and say anda know Im lucky.I mean like think about it the good is what makes anda in a great healthy way ,heck without happyness...We would be like heartless people.I got good friends,nice home,food,clothe and more.also think enjoy the life before your an adult I mean I'm 11 Im enjoying. So even if this doesn't make sence Im just happy Im makeing it!So don't worry be happy now, and be your cheerful person!

Without us the world would be nothing without are happyness.so be happy and enjoy!

Its like anda just ran out of life and anda can't get anymore back.You look out the window and say anda don't live forever its a small period of life in you.Take your worries and thrown them back...No don't it will come back somehow.The world is just not always fair so...be happy while it lasts,because your life is not so good.


But.....maybe there are some good...at least... its like the weight of your life when its good your happy when sad your as dead as a heartless..I don't see why we do all this.It makes lebih problems as are life ocntinues.

who needs guys they only like u for ur looks
and once anda lose them to him
ur his usely old ex girlfriend
and now your bff is dating him


and he likes he better
and now u want to go sico menggerutu, jalang on that
b but u stay calm and just let them have there fun until she rubbin it in your face
then u go sico menggerutu, jalang on that fool

and once anda had your fun betting
the shit out of your friend
u laugh at her but he takes her side
and here we go again untilyour bff gets a new
bff and he falls for her and now iyous want to go sico menggerutu, jalang on her but youlet your ex bff
better her up and anda pindah onto
the selanjutnya bingkah, cowok anda can find

my cinta life mito

guys are like a bus anda miss one another onecomes
and if its late at nite anda hop on any thing anda can get lol by:gabrielle c.