Well, some of anda had the idea, I tried to write something.
Cuddy is working in her office when her bleeper sounds : “Wait for anda in my office. Urgent”. She looks at it and is surprised when she sees that’s from Wilson. What the hell does he want? She has a lot to do and has no time to lose! Well, he berkata it’s urgent, maybe a problem with a patient. She stands up and goes to Wilson’s office.
Bip!Bip!Bip! … Bip!Bip!Bip!
-You don’t answer? asks Foreman.
-No, it’s probably nothing important, jawaban House.
Bip!Bip!Bip! … Bip!Bip!Bip!
-House! Please, look at it, this sound drives me crazy! says Foreman, annoyed.
-It could be important, anda should look at it, Marta adds.
-I know who calls me and I don’t want to see him.
-Oh, so it’s not Cuddy, says Chase.
-No, it’s Wilson and I don’t need his advices to manage my life!
Bip!Bip!Bip! … Bip!Bip!Bip!
Foreman, Chase, Taub and Marta stare at House.
-Ok, I go to see what this Mister Moral wants! balasa House with an irritated voice. Then he stands up and goes to Wilson’s office.
Just before arriving in front of the office of his friend, he meets Cuddy. They stop and stare at each other. Then Cuddy lowers eyes and goes to Wilson, House follows her. Both have a strange feeling.
-He bleepered anda too, says House and thinks. Do anda know why?
-No, and I hope for Wilson he had a good reason! she balasa irritated. She doesn’t want to see House, she avoids him since his wedding, she doesn’t want to talk with him, they screwed up their relation and it’s very hard for her. She loves him since 20 years, she thought he was the one who could make her happy, but … she was wrong … and maybe she knew since the beginning of it that it would end like this, but she was, and she still is, so attracted to him… House stares at her.
-Why are anda looking so sad, why are anda sighing? he asks her.
-It doesn’t concern you. She knocks at Wilson’s door.
-Come in!
House opens the door and moves slightly away to allow Cuddy to pass. When they enter the room, they find Wilson and … Doctor Nolan, House’s therapist.
-What the hell does it mean? Cuddy asks with some anger. I have no time to lose, I’ve got a lot of work, Wilson! selanjutnya time, call me for something REALLY important! she adds.
-Cuddy, wait! I can explain anda …
-Wilson, House says with a meaningful look and criticism in the voice. What are anda plotting?
-I … wait, I can explain, I …, Wilson begins.
Then Doctor Nolan, who so far had contented with observing them, speaks :
-Doctor Wilson called me because he was very worried about the two of you, he says and points his finger at House and Cuddy. And I see that he was right, anda really need to talk.
-I don’t think I’m gonna stay, Cuddy says. I don’t need to talk, I’m fine.
She is about to leave the room when Wilson holds her wrist and looks at her insistently.
-Please, Lisa, stay, anda really need to talk, anda can’t hide all your life!
-I really think anda should stay, Nolan adds. He looks at Cuddy calmly and with determination.
-Well, Cuddy needs maybe your advice, but I don’t, so … bye bye! says House and goes to the door.
-Doctor House, last time anda left my practice without any answer, maybe anda could try again, this time with Doctor Cuddy and Doctor Wilson, says Nolan.
Cuddy and Wilson turn to Nolan to be sure to have well understood what he just said.
-But, I don’t understand why I should be with them, says Wilson.
-I think you’re very close to both of them and I’m certain anda can help them and me to clarify the situation which seems to be very complicated, jawaban Nolan with a smile.
House who stands without moving selanjutnya to the door looks at them and finally says:
-I’m fine, I’m … happy with my wife, so I leave anda with your therapy.
-Are anda really certain to be happy? asks Nolan, I don’t think so.
-Didn’t anda hear what I’ve just said? I’m fine and … happy.
-You want to believe it, but anda know that’s not the truth, your eyes, your voice, your behavior just say the contrary, Nolan insists and looks at House straight in the eyes. After a while of silence, he adds : Well, if anda want to sit down so we can begin…
House looks at Wilson, then at Cuddy, his eyes seem to say “I still cinta anda and if we have a chance to make things better, to be able to talk as friends, so let’s take it. They finally sit down on Wilson’s couch, Wilson between House and Cuddy. “Interesting” thinks Nolan who’s sitting in a chair in front of them.
-Well, who wants to begin? Nolan asks.
But none of them want it, they just remain silent. House plays with his cane, Wilson has arms crossed on the breast and stares at his shoes, Cuddy keeps her hands on her lap and looks at them.
-Doctor Wilson, why did anda call me?
-Hm, well … I called anda because I’m sick of seeing them torn, filled with pain, anger, sadness … I’m sick of their childish behavior, Cuddy avoids House, House makes a lot of stupid things… I know they cinta each other, they screwed up their relation but none of them even tried then to make up atau to explain, they didn’t even have a fight! And when anda know how impulsive they are, how much personality they have, it’s … it’s … weird! I don’t find a word to describe it, but … I had to do something to help them getting out of this painful situation!
-Why are anda so upset with their break-up?
-I’m not upset with it, Wilson balasa on the defensive.
-Oh yes, anda are! House exclaims, stops playing with his cane and turns the head to Wilson. Every hari anda come to me to give me advices in order to get back to Cuddy, anda ask me to talk with her, to talk with anda about this break-up, about his consequences on me, on my behavior, anda offered me to pindah in with anda …
-But I just want to help you, I just try to save anda from your self-destructive behavior, to avoid anda lebih pain and problems. anda need help House! You’re back to vicodin! And …
-Wilson, I know anda want to help me, but please! Let me! I don’t need your help, I have to go through this … mess-up alone. And oleh the way, I’m not alone, I have Domenica. Cuddy on the other side IS alone, why don’t anda go and talk with her instead of annoying me ?!
Cuddy doesn’t dare to pindah and keeps looking at her hands on her lap. Nolan observes her, he wonders why she doesn’t pindah atau say something. She seems lost in a far away world, a sad and dark world. She obviously needs to talk, she needs help.
-So, Doctor Wilson, anda didn’t answer my question. Why are anda so upset with their break-up?
-I … I don’t know. Maybe because they are my friends and I can’t beruang to see them sad and unhappy, I know that they are made for each other, that they are meant to be together … But they are so screwed up, each of them, they are so complicated… I don’t know how to help them, that’s why I called you, Wilson jawaban and looks at House, then at Cuddy.
-Wilson, the Good Samaritan! The man who gives his friends advices to manage their relationship, but who’s himself unable to have a long-lasting one! House says and sniggers.
-House! Cuddy exclaims suddenly. That’s petty and cruel! Wilson always defends you, he always protects anda from other people and from yourself, he’s your best friend! How can anda laugh at him so?
Wilson, House and Nolan are surprised oleh Cuddy’s outburst. They all look at her and wait for her to continue, but she adds nothing.
-And what about you? House says with an angry voice and turns to Cuddy and pushes Wilson to see her.
-What? she balasa in the same ton.
-Why do anda act like this? Why do anda accept all what I ask for, what don’t anda say anything about my behavior, about the vicodin? What didn’t anda stop my wedding? Are anda sure that anda loved me? I mean really loved me, that anda cared about me?
-House! Wilson speaks. Do anda listen to what you’re saying?
-Shut up Wilson! Cuddy! Answer!
-House! How … how can anda only think that I don’t cinta you? Cuddy replies, shocked, and she gives him a desperate glance.
-If anda really cinta me like anda say, why did anda let me gotten married, why did anda dump me? Why didn’t anda see all my efforts to be the man anda wanted me to be? Why don’t anda hold your promise?
-What? Cuddy is amazed, stoned. What are anda talking about?
-After the crash of the crane, when we were in my apartment, I was scared of screwing up our relation because I know me, and anda gave me hope, anda reassured me and I finally believed we had a real chance of happiness. I told anda that I have done horrible things to you, and that I was going to make horrible things to anda again. And then anda came back to me and we talked. anda told me anda didn’t want me to change, do anda remember ? Cuddy agrees and House keeps talking. I was still scared, but I believed in us and I wanted to give us a chance, because I cinta anda Cuddy, I had always loved you, since the Med school. House gives Cuddy an intense gaze filled with sadness, pain and love. And then, we went through a lot of things, and finally anda broke your promise and anda dumped me. Can anda imagine how much anda hurt me? I’ve begun to open up to you, I trusted you, and anda … anda …
Cuddy feels bad, she knows he’s right on many points, she has a part of responsibility in this mess-up.
-Doctor Cuddy, do anda want to talk about this, about your feelings? Nolan asks.
Cuddy lowers the head and remains silent.
-Doctor Cuddy, I can’t help anda if anda don’t speak, I know it’s hard and painful, but if anda want to get better, anda have to get out your feelings.
-I don’t think, I can, she finally balasa in a breath.
Nolan waits a little then he decides to go back to Wilson. He hopes so that Cuddy will calm down and will be able to express her pain.
-Doctor Wilson, why do anda think that Doctor Cuddy and House are made for each other?
-Well, if anda know them like I do, you’ll be convinced of it. anda can ask the hospital staff, they will tell anda the same thing. When anda see House and Cuddy in the same room, it’s obvious that they have strong feelings for each other.
-And, how can anda see … that?
-When they look at each other, for example, anda can feel the sexual tension between them, it’s like they have sex through their eyes! And when they’re close to each other, anda can feel their bodies filled with desire.
House and Cuddy look at Wilson, they can’t believe that their friend berkata what he said.
-Wilson! Cuddy exclaims. What are anda talking about? Do anda hear what anda say?
-Lisa, are anda really also naive? Do anda believe that no one in the hospital has noticed how anda handle House? Some Doctors fought with anda because of your attitude to House, isn’t it true? Wilson asks.
-Yeah, maybe, but … I don’t agree to all his whims! I think I’m right in my attitude! I do what I think is the best for the hospital and for the patient.
Nolan observes the three persons he has for him. They’re really close to each other, they have really complicated relations and probably a long common past which could explain a lot of things, a lot of their current reactions. And it will be hard to make things better.
-So, Doctor House, says Nolan and turns to House. How can anda describe your relation with Doctor Cuddy?
-My relation with Cuddy? Which one?
-Are there many kinds of relation between anda and Cuddy?
-Of course! The first one is the boss/employee with all its bickering, then the friend relationship, the old cinta relation and the current relation, House answers.
-And don’t anda think that’s the same relation seen on different sides?
House doesn’t answer, he seems to think of what Nolan said.
-We listen to you. Talk about one of these, choose the one anda want, for me there’s just one relation, a very complex relation, but only one.
-I …, I have feelings for Cuddy since the Med school, since this night, House says and looks at Cuddy. But I don’t deserve to be happy, I’m too screwed up to be happy, he sighs.
Nolan, Wilson and Cuddy are listening to him. Nolan and Wilson stare at him, but Cuddy keeps her eyes on her lap. And House keeps on talking.
-But I know Cuddy so well, she hired me, she gave me a job, she was immensely patient with me, we argued a lot, sometimes I was very angry at her, but I knew deep inside me that she was right. I’ve done a lot of horrible things to her, but she’s still here, she still defends me. When she was dating Lucas, I was angry at her, at myself, I was jealous, I tried a lot of things to break their relation, but he was a good guy and one of the few friends I have, I thought I could shake her loss, but indeed I couldn’t. And when she announced me she’s getting married, all my world collapsed , all my hopes for cinta and happiness were ruined, the woman I loved since 20 years was going to be the woman of another guy. What would I become now? And then the all thing with Anna, I did my best to save her and she died. I was going to go back to vicodin when my malaikat came to me. I was so surprised to see her in my apartment. How did she know how miserable I was? And then, she told me she broke up with Lucas. I couldn’t believe it! My jantung was full cinta for her, my soul began to believe in a new life, a better life. And anda know the rest.
Cuddy feels very sorry, very sad, she has some tears in the eyes. Nolan notices it and asks her:
-Cuddy, what do anda think of what House said? Do anda agree with his perception of things?
Cuddy speaks with a voice filled with pain and sadness.
-Yes, I think he’s right. I cinta him since this night in the Med school, and when he was looking for a job, I thought it would be good for the hospital, he’s the best Doctor I have even if his practice of medicine is not really conventional. And I hired him also to see him, to have him selanjutnya to me, I …, well I don’t know what I expected, but …
-And what did anda expect?
-Probably I thought that we could go back to this night and I hoped to be in a relation with him. And when he went to Mayfield, I was very sorry, I thought it was my fault, I should have helped him, I should have been firmer with his vicodin. That’s a reason why I didn’t come to see you, she adds and for the first time she looks at House straight in the eyes.
After a silent while, Nolan asks her:
-And what do anda think of your relation with Lucas?
-Oh, well … I liked him very much, I felt aman, brankas with him, he cared very well of Rachel and me, but … House was always around me, trying to make things go worse between me and Lucas, and … as I told House when I went to him after our patient died, I was in my new house with my new fiancé and all I could think about was he, House.
-Thank anda Cuddy. House, how can anda describe your relationship with Cuddy, I mean the time where anda were dating.
-It was … it was great! How can I describe it? House shouts, sad and angry.
-Can anda at least try?
-It was like … I can’t find a word to describe it. I was terrified and at the same time I was, I was … happy. I was scared to destroy it, I told Lisa it was a big mistake, but … then we decided to take the risk, to give us a chance, to try… I was so in cinta with her, but I was terrified to feel pain, to be hurt. I knew it couldn’t last because … I can’t be happy on a long time. And I was really happy with you, Lisa, I really believed that this time the chance had turned, that this time I will be happy. anda know me so well, anda know how I am, how I react, but … I was wrong. I tried to be a good boyfriend… but it wasn’t enough for you, House says and gives Cuddy an intense gaze. What a mess-up they both think.
-House, I know anda tried, I know anda made a lot of efforts to care about me and Rachel, to answer our needs, I know it, she says in a voice filled with despair. But anda were never really there when I needed you, anda were always playing games, anda never really opened up to me, anda …
-I’ve opened up to you! And anda can see the result, I’m completely down, I destroy my life, I act like a stupid man, I’m so hurt! House shouts and stands up.
-I know, Cuddy balasa in the same ton and stands up too to face House. What do anda think? That it was easy for me to take this decision to break up with you? That I feel no pain, that my jantung is not broken? I’m completely devastated since I broke up with you, I cry every night, I’m like a ghost. My life is broken, I’m completely lost without you.
-So why did anda break up? I don’t understand!
-I need someone who’s there, oleh my sides, each time I need him. I need someone who opens up completely with me, who shares his pains, his fears, his hopes with me, I need someone who shares my pains, my hopes, my fears, someone who’s able to face and to feel the pain, someone who doesn’t need drugs to support the hard times in life, she says and feels some tears on her cheeks.
House looks at her, his eyes express the pain and the sadness he feels, and the cinta for her.
-Why can’t we be simply happy? Why can’t we simply cinta the other one? Why can’t it be simply nice? Why is it so complicated? He finally says.
-I don’t know, I wish it could be, I wish we could turn back time, I wish we could start again, a new life, a new relation, but … she jawaban while tears run on her cheeks.
Nolan and Wilson feel very sorry for them, and Nolan understands what Wilson berkata one jam yang lalu when he was talking about the glances between House and Cuddy, about the expression of their bodies. This man and this woman cinta each other lebih than anything else, they fancy each other and nevertheless they don’t succeed in maintaining a viable relation. It’s very sad.
-I think we need to see us several times to help anda getting ride out of your fears and doubts, and maybe you’ll be able to start a new relation, Nolan adds. I wait for anda selanjutnya week, same day, same hour.
Cuddy is working in her office when her bleeper sounds : “Wait for anda in my office. Urgent”. She looks at it and is surprised when she sees that’s from Wilson. What the hell does he want? She has a lot to do and has no time to lose! Well, he berkata it’s urgent, maybe a problem with a patient. She stands up and goes to Wilson’s office.
Bip!Bip!Bip! … Bip!Bip!Bip!
-You don’t answer? asks Foreman.
-No, it’s probably nothing important, jawaban House.
Bip!Bip!Bip! … Bip!Bip!Bip!
-House! Please, look at it, this sound drives me crazy! says Foreman, annoyed.
-It could be important, anda should look at it, Marta adds.
-I know who calls me and I don’t want to see him.
-Oh, so it’s not Cuddy, says Chase.
-No, it’s Wilson and I don’t need his advices to manage my life!
Bip!Bip!Bip! … Bip!Bip!Bip!
Foreman, Chase, Taub and Marta stare at House.
-Ok, I go to see what this Mister Moral wants! balasa House with an irritated voice. Then he stands up and goes to Wilson’s office.
Just before arriving in front of the office of his friend, he meets Cuddy. They stop and stare at each other. Then Cuddy lowers eyes and goes to Wilson, House follows her. Both have a strange feeling.
-He bleepered anda too, says House and thinks. Do anda know why?
-No, and I hope for Wilson he had a good reason! she balasa irritated. She doesn’t want to see House, she avoids him since his wedding, she doesn’t want to talk with him, they screwed up their relation and it’s very hard for her. She loves him since 20 years, she thought he was the one who could make her happy, but … she was wrong … and maybe she knew since the beginning of it that it would end like this, but she was, and she still is, so attracted to him… House stares at her.
-Why are anda looking so sad, why are anda sighing? he asks her.
-It doesn’t concern you. She knocks at Wilson’s door.
-Come in!
House opens the door and moves slightly away to allow Cuddy to pass. When they enter the room, they find Wilson and … Doctor Nolan, House’s therapist.
-What the hell does it mean? Cuddy asks with some anger. I have no time to lose, I’ve got a lot of work, Wilson! selanjutnya time, call me for something REALLY important! she adds.
-Cuddy, wait! I can explain anda …
-Wilson, House says with a meaningful look and criticism in the voice. What are anda plotting?
-I … wait, I can explain, I …, Wilson begins.
Then Doctor Nolan, who so far had contented with observing them, speaks :
-Doctor Wilson called me because he was very worried about the two of you, he says and points his finger at House and Cuddy. And I see that he was right, anda really need to talk.
-I don’t think I’m gonna stay, Cuddy says. I don’t need to talk, I’m fine.
She is about to leave the room when Wilson holds her wrist and looks at her insistently.
-Please, Lisa, stay, anda really need to talk, anda can’t hide all your life!
-I really think anda should stay, Nolan adds. He looks at Cuddy calmly and with determination.
-Well, Cuddy needs maybe your advice, but I don’t, so … bye bye! says House and goes to the door.
-Doctor House, last time anda left my practice without any answer, maybe anda could try again, this time with Doctor Cuddy and Doctor Wilson, says Nolan.
Cuddy and Wilson turn to Nolan to be sure to have well understood what he just said.
-But, I don’t understand why I should be with them, says Wilson.
-I think you’re very close to both of them and I’m certain anda can help them and me to clarify the situation which seems to be very complicated, jawaban Nolan with a smile.
House who stands without moving selanjutnya to the door looks at them and finally says:
-I’m fine, I’m … happy with my wife, so I leave anda with your therapy.
-Are anda really certain to be happy? asks Nolan, I don’t think so.
-Didn’t anda hear what I’ve just said? I’m fine and … happy.
-You want to believe it, but anda know that’s not the truth, your eyes, your voice, your behavior just say the contrary, Nolan insists and looks at House straight in the eyes. After a while of silence, he adds : Well, if anda want to sit down so we can begin…
House looks at Wilson, then at Cuddy, his eyes seem to say “I still cinta anda and if we have a chance to make things better, to be able to talk as friends, so let’s take it. They finally sit down on Wilson’s couch, Wilson between House and Cuddy. “Interesting” thinks Nolan who’s sitting in a chair in front of them.
-Well, who wants to begin? Nolan asks.
But none of them want it, they just remain silent. House plays with his cane, Wilson has arms crossed on the breast and stares at his shoes, Cuddy keeps her hands on her lap and looks at them.
-Doctor Wilson, why did anda call me?
-Hm, well … I called anda because I’m sick of seeing them torn, filled with pain, anger, sadness … I’m sick of their childish behavior, Cuddy avoids House, House makes a lot of stupid things… I know they cinta each other, they screwed up their relation but none of them even tried then to make up atau to explain, they didn’t even have a fight! And when anda know how impulsive they are, how much personality they have, it’s … it’s … weird! I don’t find a word to describe it, but … I had to do something to help them getting out of this painful situation!
-Why are anda so upset with their break-up?
-I’m not upset with it, Wilson balasa on the defensive.
-Oh yes, anda are! House exclaims, stops playing with his cane and turns the head to Wilson. Every hari anda come to me to give me advices in order to get back to Cuddy, anda ask me to talk with her, to talk with anda about this break-up, about his consequences on me, on my behavior, anda offered me to pindah in with anda …
-But I just want to help you, I just try to save anda from your self-destructive behavior, to avoid anda lebih pain and problems. anda need help House! You’re back to vicodin! And …
-Wilson, I know anda want to help me, but please! Let me! I don’t need your help, I have to go through this … mess-up alone. And oleh the way, I’m not alone, I have Domenica. Cuddy on the other side IS alone, why don’t anda go and talk with her instead of annoying me ?!
Cuddy doesn’t dare to pindah and keeps looking at her hands on her lap. Nolan observes her, he wonders why she doesn’t pindah atau say something. She seems lost in a far away world, a sad and dark world. She obviously needs to talk, she needs help.
-So, Doctor Wilson, anda didn’t answer my question. Why are anda so upset with their break-up?
-I … I don’t know. Maybe because they are my friends and I can’t beruang to see them sad and unhappy, I know that they are made for each other, that they are meant to be together … But they are so screwed up, each of them, they are so complicated… I don’t know how to help them, that’s why I called you, Wilson jawaban and looks at House, then at Cuddy.
-Wilson, the Good Samaritan! The man who gives his friends advices to manage their relationship, but who’s himself unable to have a long-lasting one! House says and sniggers.
-House! Cuddy exclaims suddenly. That’s petty and cruel! Wilson always defends you, he always protects anda from other people and from yourself, he’s your best friend! How can anda laugh at him so?
Wilson, House and Nolan are surprised oleh Cuddy’s outburst. They all look at her and wait for her to continue, but she adds nothing.
-And what about you? House says with an angry voice and turns to Cuddy and pushes Wilson to see her.
-What? she balasa in the same ton.
-Why do anda act like this? Why do anda accept all what I ask for, what don’t anda say anything about my behavior, about the vicodin? What didn’t anda stop my wedding? Are anda sure that anda loved me? I mean really loved me, that anda cared about me?
-House! Wilson speaks. Do anda listen to what you’re saying?
-Shut up Wilson! Cuddy! Answer!
-House! How … how can anda only think that I don’t cinta you? Cuddy replies, shocked, and she gives him a desperate glance.
-If anda really cinta me like anda say, why did anda let me gotten married, why did anda dump me? Why didn’t anda see all my efforts to be the man anda wanted me to be? Why don’t anda hold your promise?
-What? Cuddy is amazed, stoned. What are anda talking about?
-After the crash of the crane, when we were in my apartment, I was scared of screwing up our relation because I know me, and anda gave me hope, anda reassured me and I finally believed we had a real chance of happiness. I told anda that I have done horrible things to you, and that I was going to make horrible things to anda again. And then anda came back to me and we talked. anda told me anda didn’t want me to change, do anda remember ? Cuddy agrees and House keeps talking. I was still scared, but I believed in us and I wanted to give us a chance, because I cinta anda Cuddy, I had always loved you, since the Med school. House gives Cuddy an intense gaze filled with sadness, pain and love. And then, we went through a lot of things, and finally anda broke your promise and anda dumped me. Can anda imagine how much anda hurt me? I’ve begun to open up to you, I trusted you, and anda … anda …
Cuddy feels bad, she knows he’s right on many points, she has a part of responsibility in this mess-up.
-Doctor Cuddy, do anda want to talk about this, about your feelings? Nolan asks.
Cuddy lowers the head and remains silent.
-Doctor Cuddy, I can’t help anda if anda don’t speak, I know it’s hard and painful, but if anda want to get better, anda have to get out your feelings.
-I don’t think, I can, she finally balasa in a breath.
Nolan waits a little then he decides to go back to Wilson. He hopes so that Cuddy will calm down and will be able to express her pain.
-Doctor Wilson, why do anda think that Doctor Cuddy and House are made for each other?
-Well, if anda know them like I do, you’ll be convinced of it. anda can ask the hospital staff, they will tell anda the same thing. When anda see House and Cuddy in the same room, it’s obvious that they have strong feelings for each other.
-And, how can anda see … that?
-When they look at each other, for example, anda can feel the sexual tension between them, it’s like they have sex through their eyes! And when they’re close to each other, anda can feel their bodies filled with desire.
House and Cuddy look at Wilson, they can’t believe that their friend berkata what he said.
-Wilson! Cuddy exclaims. What are anda talking about? Do anda hear what anda say?
-Lisa, are anda really also naive? Do anda believe that no one in the hospital has noticed how anda handle House? Some Doctors fought with anda because of your attitude to House, isn’t it true? Wilson asks.
-Yeah, maybe, but … I don’t agree to all his whims! I think I’m right in my attitude! I do what I think is the best for the hospital and for the patient.
Nolan observes the three persons he has for him. They’re really close to each other, they have really complicated relations and probably a long common past which could explain a lot of things, a lot of their current reactions. And it will be hard to make things better.
-So, Doctor House, says Nolan and turns to House. How can anda describe your relation with Doctor Cuddy?
-My relation with Cuddy? Which one?
-Are there many kinds of relation between anda and Cuddy?
-Of course! The first one is the boss/employee with all its bickering, then the friend relationship, the old cinta relation and the current relation, House answers.
-And don’t anda think that’s the same relation seen on different sides?
House doesn’t answer, he seems to think of what Nolan said.
-We listen to you. Talk about one of these, choose the one anda want, for me there’s just one relation, a very complex relation, but only one.
-I …, I have feelings for Cuddy since the Med school, since this night, House says and looks at Cuddy. But I don’t deserve to be happy, I’m too screwed up to be happy, he sighs.
Nolan, Wilson and Cuddy are listening to him. Nolan and Wilson stare at him, but Cuddy keeps her eyes on her lap. And House keeps on talking.
-But I know Cuddy so well, she hired me, she gave me a job, she was immensely patient with me, we argued a lot, sometimes I was very angry at her, but I knew deep inside me that she was right. I’ve done a lot of horrible things to her, but she’s still here, she still defends me. When she was dating Lucas, I was angry at her, at myself, I was jealous, I tried a lot of things to break their relation, but he was a good guy and one of the few friends I have, I thought I could shake her loss, but indeed I couldn’t. And when she announced me she’s getting married, all my world collapsed , all my hopes for cinta and happiness were ruined, the woman I loved since 20 years was going to be the woman of another guy. What would I become now? And then the all thing with Anna, I did my best to save her and she died. I was going to go back to vicodin when my malaikat came to me. I was so surprised to see her in my apartment. How did she know how miserable I was? And then, she told me she broke up with Lucas. I couldn’t believe it! My jantung was full cinta for her, my soul began to believe in a new life, a better life. And anda know the rest.
Cuddy feels very sorry, very sad, she has some tears in the eyes. Nolan notices it and asks her:
-Cuddy, what do anda think of what House said? Do anda agree with his perception of things?
Cuddy speaks with a voice filled with pain and sadness.
-Yes, I think he’s right. I cinta him since this night in the Med school, and when he was looking for a job, I thought it would be good for the hospital, he’s the best Doctor I have even if his practice of medicine is not really conventional. And I hired him also to see him, to have him selanjutnya to me, I …, well I don’t know what I expected, but …
-And what did anda expect?
-Probably I thought that we could go back to this night and I hoped to be in a relation with him. And when he went to Mayfield, I was very sorry, I thought it was my fault, I should have helped him, I should have been firmer with his vicodin. That’s a reason why I didn’t come to see you, she adds and for the first time she looks at House straight in the eyes.
After a silent while, Nolan asks her:
-And what do anda think of your relation with Lucas?
-Oh, well … I liked him very much, I felt aman, brankas with him, he cared very well of Rachel and me, but … House was always around me, trying to make things go worse between me and Lucas, and … as I told House when I went to him after our patient died, I was in my new house with my new fiancé and all I could think about was he, House.
-Thank anda Cuddy. House, how can anda describe your relationship with Cuddy, I mean the time where anda were dating.
-It was … it was great! How can I describe it? House shouts, sad and angry.
-Can anda at least try?
-It was like … I can’t find a word to describe it. I was terrified and at the same time I was, I was … happy. I was scared to destroy it, I told Lisa it was a big mistake, but … then we decided to take the risk, to give us a chance, to try… I was so in cinta with her, but I was terrified to feel pain, to be hurt. I knew it couldn’t last because … I can’t be happy on a long time. And I was really happy with you, Lisa, I really believed that this time the chance had turned, that this time I will be happy. anda know me so well, anda know how I am, how I react, but … I was wrong. I tried to be a good boyfriend… but it wasn’t enough for you, House says and gives Cuddy an intense gaze. What a mess-up they both think.
-House, I know anda tried, I know anda made a lot of efforts to care about me and Rachel, to answer our needs, I know it, she says in a voice filled with despair. But anda were never really there when I needed you, anda were always playing games, anda never really opened up to me, anda …
-I’ve opened up to you! And anda can see the result, I’m completely down, I destroy my life, I act like a stupid man, I’m so hurt! House shouts and stands up.
-I know, Cuddy balasa in the same ton and stands up too to face House. What do anda think? That it was easy for me to take this decision to break up with you? That I feel no pain, that my jantung is not broken? I’m completely devastated since I broke up with you, I cry every night, I’m like a ghost. My life is broken, I’m completely lost without you.
-So why did anda break up? I don’t understand!
-I need someone who’s there, oleh my sides, each time I need him. I need someone who opens up completely with me, who shares his pains, his fears, his hopes with me, I need someone who shares my pains, my hopes, my fears, someone who’s able to face and to feel the pain, someone who doesn’t need drugs to support the hard times in life, she says and feels some tears on her cheeks.
House looks at her, his eyes express the pain and the sadness he feels, and the cinta for her.
-Why can’t we be simply happy? Why can’t we simply cinta the other one? Why can’t it be simply nice? Why is it so complicated? He finally says.
-I don’t know, I wish it could be, I wish we could turn back time, I wish we could start again, a new life, a new relation, but … she jawaban while tears run on her cheeks.
Nolan and Wilson feel very sorry for them, and Nolan understands what Wilson berkata one jam yang lalu when he was talking about the glances between House and Cuddy, about the expression of their bodies. This man and this woman cinta each other lebih than anything else, they fancy each other and nevertheless they don’t succeed in maintaining a viable relation. It’s very sad.
-I think we need to see us several times to help anda getting ride out of your fears and doubts, and maybe you’ll be able to start a new relation, Nolan adds. I wait for anda selanjutnya week, same day, same hour.