number three, a little bit early thanks to school holidays! :)
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part 2
Bella snorted and I pulled my eyes up from the paper.
“Bella?”
“Be serious, Edward. Dartmouth?”
I lifted the application that she had shoved aside and placed it back in front of her.
“I think you’d like New Hampshire. There’s a full complement of night courses for me, and the forests are very conveniently located for the avid hiker. Plentiful wildlife.” I pulled out the smile that I knew would make her jantung beat faster.
She took a deep breath through her nose.
I knew she needed reassurance; after all, she hated anyone spending money on her.
“I’ll let anda pay me back, if that makes anda happy.” I promised. “If anda want, I can charge anda interest.”
That only seemed to annoy her further.
“Like I could even get in without some enormous bribe. atau was that part of the loan? The new Cullen wing of the library? Ugh. Why are we having this discussion again?”
“Will anda just fill out the application, please, Bella? It won’t hurt anda to apply.”
Her jaw flexed, and an intense look of stubbornness overtook her face. it was so Bella.
part 3
“You know what? I don’t think I will.” The look of childish stubbornness became easier to read, so I saw what she had planned before she actually did it.
I moved as quickly as I could, snatching the application from her outstretched fingers and tucking it safely in my jacket.
Bella took a detik to realise the application was no longer there. She stared, dumbfounded at the table, before looking accusingly up at me.
“What are anda doing?” she demanded with her kittenish anger.
I fought to keep my face straight. This was supposed to be serious.
“I sign your name better than anda do yourself. You’ve already written the essays.”
She leaned in closer, whispering. Obviously she thought Charlie would be listening.
“You’re going way overboard with this, anda know.” She berkata seriously. “I really don’t need to apply anywhere else. I’ve been accepted in Alaska. I can almost afford the first semester’s tuition. It’s as good an alibi as any. There’s no need to throw away a bunch of money no matter whose it is.”
I was hoping she wouldn’t bring this up, again.
I couldn’t help the pained look that swept across my features. “Bella—” I began but was instantly interrupted.
“Don’t start.” She said, frustrated. “I agree that I need to go through the motions for Charlie’s sake, but we both know I’m not going to be in any condition to be going to school selanjutnya fall. To be anywhere near people.” Her big brown eyes saddened at the thought, but her resolve never wavered, no matter how many times we had this conversation. I’d tried convincing her, arguing, bribing and reasoning, but she remained stubborn.
“I thought the timing was still undecided.” I reminded her softly. “You might enjoy a semester atau two of collage, there are a lot of human experiences you’ve never had.”
“I’ll get those afterward.”
“They won’t be human experiences afterward. anda don’t get a detik chance at humanity, Bella.” She had no idea. She couldn’t hear how much Esme atau Rosalie wished and longed for children. She couldn’t hear how hard it was for Jasper to be in a crowded room.
She sighed, looking down at the table. “You’ve got to be reasonable about the timing, Edward. It’s just too dangerous to mess around with.”
“There’s no danger yet.” I insisted.
Bella just glared at me. Well I was overstating my case a little. The danger was subjective, and she was taking it out of proportion. Alice was watching, I hardly ever left, and as much as I hated to admit it, the anjing had played their part in scaring Victoria off.
Bella because lost in thought, every one written on her face clearly. I watched with curiosity as surprise crossed her face. It wasn’t her normal surprised expression. It was lebih like the horrified surprise that would menyeberang, salib someone’s face when they realised their car was headed for a very big cliff. Very quickly her expression changed to one of sadness, then almost instantly changed to one of intense pain.
“Bella,” I murmured, my face twisting to reflect hers. “There’s no hurry. I won’t let anyone hurt you. anda can take all the time anda need.”
“I want to hurry.” She whispered, and then in an effort destined to fail, tried to make a joke of the situation. “I want to be a monster, too.”
Any other time, that might have broken the tension. But today, with the names of those killed in Seattle still fresh in my mind, I became frustrated and angry.
My teeth had clenched so I talked through them. “You have no idea what you’re saying.” I made a membagi, split detik decision, flinging the damp newspaper onto the meja in front of her. I pointed to the headline sharply, and watched as she read the words.
“What does that have to do with anything?” she asked, honestly curious.
“Monsters are nor a joke, Bella.” I berkata tightly.
She stared down at the page, comprehension dawning on her face, before looking back up to me.
“A...a vampire is doing this?” she whispered.
I smiled utterly without humour. “You’d be surprised, Bella, at how often my kind are the sumber behind the horrors in your human news.” I was trying for shock tactics, and it seemed to be working. “It’s easy to recognise when anda know what to look for. The information here indicates a newborn vampire is loose in Seattle. Bloodthirsty, wild, out of control. The way we all were.”
Her gaze dropped to the paper, denying me the only way I could guess her thoughts. I continued hoping she would look back to me.
“we’ve been monitoring the situation for a few weeks. All the signs are there—the unlikely disappearances, always in the night, the poorly disposed-of corpses, the lack of other evidence...Yes, someone brand-new. And no one seems to be taking responsibility for the neophyte...” I took a deep breath. Why was I telling her so much? But I knew without even having to ask. I wanted to scare her out of it.
“Well, it’s not our problem. We wouldn’t have been paying attention to the situation if it wasn’t going on so close to home. Like I said, this happens all the time. The existence of monsters results in monstrous consequences.”
I waited for my words to sink in. Would what I’d berkata effect her? Would she change her mind?
Still staring at the paper she whispered, lebih to herself than to me, “It won’t be the same for me. anda won’t let me be like that. We’ll live in Antarctica.”
I snorted, and Bella’s shoulders relaxed. “Penguins. Lovely.”
Bella laughed a quiet, shaky laugh, and knocked the newspaper the floor. The sound of it hitting the linoleum reverberated around the room, effectively closing that discussion.
“Alaska, then, as planned. Only somewhere much lebih remote than Juneau—somewhere with grizzlies galore.” She half smiled at me.
“Better.” I allowed. “There are polar bears too. Very fierce. And the serigala get quite large.”
Bella’s mouth fell open and her breath blew out in a sharp gust.
“What’s wrong?” I asked worried. I thought back over what I had said. Wolves. Dammit, those stupid dogs. The only way I could hide my disgust was to keep my face blank and cold. A word that should never be berkata in front of a lady passed through my mind before I gave a stiff apology.
“Oh. Never mind the wolves, then, if the idea is offensive to you.” My words were formal, my shoulders rigid. A string of profanities ran through my head, all related to those stupid dogs.
Bella looked at me, sadness clouding her beautiful brown eyes. “He was my best friend, Edward.” She muttered, flinching slightly with the past tense. “Of course the idea offends me.”
“Please forgive my thoughtlessness. I shouldn’t have suggested that.” I still couldn’t relax. I hated these conversations.
“Don’t worry about it.” Bella said, very quietly, focusing on her clenched fists.
We were silent for a moment, and I realised what I was doing. I was making it worse, not better. Whatever animosity I felt towards Jacob Black, I had no excuse to take it out on Bella.
I placed my finger under her chin, her warm skin feeling lovely against mine. I coaxed her chin up, before apologising properly.
“Sorry. Really.”
“I know. I know it’s not the same thing. I shouldn’t have reacted that way. It’s just that...” she became lebih cautious as she spoke. “well, I was already thinking about Jacob before anda came over.” She hesitated, gauging my expression.
so there we go!!! what do anda think?? :)
enjoy!
part 2
Bella snorted and I pulled my eyes up from the paper.
“Bella?”
“Be serious, Edward. Dartmouth?”
I lifted the application that she had shoved aside and placed it back in front of her.
“I think you’d like New Hampshire. There’s a full complement of night courses for me, and the forests are very conveniently located for the avid hiker. Plentiful wildlife.” I pulled out the smile that I knew would make her jantung beat faster.
She took a deep breath through her nose.
I knew she needed reassurance; after all, she hated anyone spending money on her.
“I’ll let anda pay me back, if that makes anda happy.” I promised. “If anda want, I can charge anda interest.”
That only seemed to annoy her further.
“Like I could even get in without some enormous bribe. atau was that part of the loan? The new Cullen wing of the library? Ugh. Why are we having this discussion again?”
“Will anda just fill out the application, please, Bella? It won’t hurt anda to apply.”
Her jaw flexed, and an intense look of stubbornness overtook her face. it was so Bella.
part 3
“You know what? I don’t think I will.” The look of childish stubbornness became easier to read, so I saw what she had planned before she actually did it.
I moved as quickly as I could, snatching the application from her outstretched fingers and tucking it safely in my jacket.
Bella took a detik to realise the application was no longer there. She stared, dumbfounded at the table, before looking accusingly up at me.
“What are anda doing?” she demanded with her kittenish anger.
I fought to keep my face straight. This was supposed to be serious.
“I sign your name better than anda do yourself. You’ve already written the essays.”
She leaned in closer, whispering. Obviously she thought Charlie would be listening.
“You’re going way overboard with this, anda know.” She berkata seriously. “I really don’t need to apply anywhere else. I’ve been accepted in Alaska. I can almost afford the first semester’s tuition. It’s as good an alibi as any. There’s no need to throw away a bunch of money no matter whose it is.”
I was hoping she wouldn’t bring this up, again.
I couldn’t help the pained look that swept across my features. “Bella—” I began but was instantly interrupted.
“Don’t start.” She said, frustrated. “I agree that I need to go through the motions for Charlie’s sake, but we both know I’m not going to be in any condition to be going to school selanjutnya fall. To be anywhere near people.” Her big brown eyes saddened at the thought, but her resolve never wavered, no matter how many times we had this conversation. I’d tried convincing her, arguing, bribing and reasoning, but she remained stubborn.
“I thought the timing was still undecided.” I reminded her softly. “You might enjoy a semester atau two of collage, there are a lot of human experiences you’ve never had.”
“I’ll get those afterward.”
“They won’t be human experiences afterward. anda don’t get a detik chance at humanity, Bella.” She had no idea. She couldn’t hear how much Esme atau Rosalie wished and longed for children. She couldn’t hear how hard it was for Jasper to be in a crowded room.
She sighed, looking down at the table. “You’ve got to be reasonable about the timing, Edward. It’s just too dangerous to mess around with.”
“There’s no danger yet.” I insisted.
Bella just glared at me. Well I was overstating my case a little. The danger was subjective, and she was taking it out of proportion. Alice was watching, I hardly ever left, and as much as I hated to admit it, the anjing had played their part in scaring Victoria off.
Bella because lost in thought, every one written on her face clearly. I watched with curiosity as surprise crossed her face. It wasn’t her normal surprised expression. It was lebih like the horrified surprise that would menyeberang, salib someone’s face when they realised their car was headed for a very big cliff. Very quickly her expression changed to one of sadness, then almost instantly changed to one of intense pain.
“Bella,” I murmured, my face twisting to reflect hers. “There’s no hurry. I won’t let anyone hurt you. anda can take all the time anda need.”
“I want to hurry.” She whispered, and then in an effort destined to fail, tried to make a joke of the situation. “I want to be a monster, too.”
Any other time, that might have broken the tension. But today, with the names of those killed in Seattle still fresh in my mind, I became frustrated and angry.
My teeth had clenched so I talked through them. “You have no idea what you’re saying.” I made a membagi, split detik decision, flinging the damp newspaper onto the meja in front of her. I pointed to the headline sharply, and watched as she read the words.
“What does that have to do with anything?” she asked, honestly curious.
“Monsters are nor a joke, Bella.” I berkata tightly.
She stared down at the page, comprehension dawning on her face, before looking back up to me.
“A...a vampire is doing this?” she whispered.
I smiled utterly without humour. “You’d be surprised, Bella, at how often my kind are the sumber behind the horrors in your human news.” I was trying for shock tactics, and it seemed to be working. “It’s easy to recognise when anda know what to look for. The information here indicates a newborn vampire is loose in Seattle. Bloodthirsty, wild, out of control. The way we all were.”
Her gaze dropped to the paper, denying me the only way I could guess her thoughts. I continued hoping she would look back to me.
“we’ve been monitoring the situation for a few weeks. All the signs are there—the unlikely disappearances, always in the night, the poorly disposed-of corpses, the lack of other evidence...Yes, someone brand-new. And no one seems to be taking responsibility for the neophyte...” I took a deep breath. Why was I telling her so much? But I knew without even having to ask. I wanted to scare her out of it.
“Well, it’s not our problem. We wouldn’t have been paying attention to the situation if it wasn’t going on so close to home. Like I said, this happens all the time. The existence of monsters results in monstrous consequences.”
I waited for my words to sink in. Would what I’d berkata effect her? Would she change her mind?
Still staring at the paper she whispered, lebih to herself than to me, “It won’t be the same for me. anda won’t let me be like that. We’ll live in Antarctica.”
I snorted, and Bella’s shoulders relaxed. “Penguins. Lovely.”
Bella laughed a quiet, shaky laugh, and knocked the newspaper the floor. The sound of it hitting the linoleum reverberated around the room, effectively closing that discussion.
“Alaska, then, as planned. Only somewhere much lebih remote than Juneau—somewhere with grizzlies galore.” She half smiled at me.
“Better.” I allowed. “There are polar bears too. Very fierce. And the serigala get quite large.”
Bella’s mouth fell open and her breath blew out in a sharp gust.
“What’s wrong?” I asked worried. I thought back over what I had said. Wolves. Dammit, those stupid dogs. The only way I could hide my disgust was to keep my face blank and cold. A word that should never be berkata in front of a lady passed through my mind before I gave a stiff apology.
“Oh. Never mind the wolves, then, if the idea is offensive to you.” My words were formal, my shoulders rigid. A string of profanities ran through my head, all related to those stupid dogs.
Bella looked at me, sadness clouding her beautiful brown eyes. “He was my best friend, Edward.” She muttered, flinching slightly with the past tense. “Of course the idea offends me.”
“Please forgive my thoughtlessness. I shouldn’t have suggested that.” I still couldn’t relax. I hated these conversations.
“Don’t worry about it.” Bella said, very quietly, focusing on her clenched fists.
We were silent for a moment, and I realised what I was doing. I was making it worse, not better. Whatever animosity I felt towards Jacob Black, I had no excuse to take it out on Bella.
I placed my finger under her chin, her warm skin feeling lovely against mine. I coaxed her chin up, before apologising properly.
“Sorry. Really.”
“I know. I know it’s not the same thing. I shouldn’t have reacted that way. It’s just that...” she became lebih cautious as she spoke. “well, I was already thinking about Jacob before anda came over.” She hesitated, gauging my expression.
so there we go!!! what do anda think?? :)