Saddness

The pelangi full of color and light
broken dreams and tears in flight
bedtime stories to fall asleep
nightmares awaken to disturb me

shadows glide across the room
shifting shapes and violent jerks
getting closer, setting fire
scary faces and disturbing smirks

these faces in my dreams are nothing as they seem
freeing demons to come control me
setting api to the rain as i sleep
you're nothing as i thought anda be

sparkles fall from the sky and burn my eyes
a haunting scene of melting light
tampil me something to set me free
to escape this place of foresaken reality

crackling embers burn my skin
sounds of bells ring in my ears
peoples misery drawing in fears
touch me and watch me fall to the ground

fancy charms, rude awakenings
multicolored hearts fill the pages of my mind
dark memorys erase once was
my soul forever lost never was kind

i know life isnt always
worth while but I know
Ill find someone who
will treat me like I should

Only In My Dreams

Nothing feels good anymore. I feel like every little bit of happiness is a pahit piece of permen that’s supposed to be sweet but instead makes my stomach churn . I feel messed up and out of place as if without the thing my mother ripped from my jantung I can no longer survive. Have anda ever felt as if someone was your rock and without them you’ll sink? Well, imagine that rock being torn right out from under you. All anda can do is sink. All anda can do is drown. When emotions became to much to handle I became an artist. I painting was my favorite. I liked to watch the paint drip and then dry. Nobody’s perfect. I’ve been trying to reach my mothers expectations and every time I seem inches away from them they seem to pindah farther. I don’t know what to do. I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I’m already drowning so it’s not like I can scream for help. If I do... I might choke.