bella angsa, swan

I remember the hari when i promised myself that i would never return back, the place where i am being forced to return. I have never been this scared before in my life. i would give anything right now to back to my dad, in my room, with Jacob, where i am aman, brankas in the slightest and not on a sunny,blizzering beaten road weaving throught the tropical streets of Jacksonville in the back kursi my mothers Commodore. Feeling my heartbeat throught my ears.
I can feel my lunch begin to rise as i started to remember the jalan, street signs, the local bakery and smells of humiddity. My Mothers belly inferred with...

Ok im sorry, for the wait, I just got hook on other and rah rah, Plus, i was menulis my new one In the new world can anda please tell wither anda liked that?

ok, here where we go.


I stood in the middle of the stage, still, lifeless. Edward, Alice Jasper stood in front of me, no hallianation this time , but really there.
My jantung weeped for the final time.
Do i move, do i even think. Edward, stood as perfect as perfect as he always have been. His bronze hair still sat in the same style, his face still soo beautiful , and his eyes were my peace.
"ALICE!" i screamed. My best friend, i missed her...

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My entire body was Frozen - departed from my mind which was moving a million miles an hour. The lifelessness in my body was battling with the outrage, placing me in an almost fog - like confusion. I stood still in my crouch, my lips stretched over my teeth for half a detik before the outrage finally won. I didn’t have a chance to look at Edward, but I could hear his growls and sense his indignation…
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Renesmee, to my surprise, had a great time playing dress up with...

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We were out on a hunting trip when we discovered Charlie’s gift. At first, Edward and I had no idea why we couldn’t bring ourselves to attack the deers that seemed to be almost crowding the forest that day. A sudden, inexplicable rush of sympathy washed through my entire body. Edward, too, was unable to bring himself to harm the deer, which we normally refer to as “food.”

Edward and I were confused beyond explanation. Our throats were flaming, we hadn’t hunted in days, yet we couldn’t bring ourselves to harm the deer. I suddenly felt horrible for...

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Although I knew it wasn’t possible, I still had to remind myself that vampire don’t sleep. I couldn’t be dreaming. The porselen skinned, red eyed, beautiful man that stood before me was real. oleh now anda would think nothing could shock me, but this… this was different. Everything I had been fighting to avoid, was standing right in front of me. Charlie was really standing there. He was really a vampire.

At first I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. I tried, but they wouldn’t move. I was momentarily unaware of everything else around me. I forgot...

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I have to tell him. At some point, I know he will find out anyway. And, after seeing Jacob literally burst into serigala form right before his eyes, I don’t think it should surprise him, too much.
Charlie needs to know. He needs to know the whole story, he needs to know what I am. I can’t keep coming up with excuses about my appearance, Nessie’s extremely fast mental and physical growth rate, and my cold, rock hard body. I can’t keep coming up with excuses as to why I can never be out in public on the rare sunny hari we have here in Forks. Most importantly,...

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There was a piece of white paper folded on my seat. I got in and closed the door before I unfolded it. Two words were written in his elegant script.”
Be safe.

I was visiting with Charlie today. This time alone. I figured that, since Sue wouldn’t be there today, we could spend some one on one time together, alone. I no longer worry about being alone around humans, either. Especially my family. I could never hurt Charlie. Somehow, his scent isn’t the most appealing to me, anyway. Needless to say, though, I did go hunting with Edward yesterday as a precautionary...

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Emmett and Rosalie enjoyed their hunt with Baylor today. They all seem to get along great. Emmett loves the early spring, when the bears are coming out of hibernation, and are lebih irritable than ever. Though not a challenge for him, Emmett likes to hunt grizzly when they’re lebih vicious.
Once they were finished hunting, they all came back to the Cullen house, where I was, along with Renesmee, Edward and Jacob.
I was a little hesitant about Baylor meeting Jacob, and aside from one small “bloodsucker” komentar under his breath, Jacob was relatively welcoming....

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I couldn’t see straight when Carlisle told me Charlie flat lined…
He had only flat lined for a quarter of a detik before Carlisle was able to bring him back. Dr. Cullen works wonders. He is the most amazing doctor around, and I am truly so thankful for him.

The bad news? Charlie has an infection where the bullet was lodged. He is taking antibiotics and Carlisle is keeping a close eye on him. We all are. I am so grateful for Sue too. She has been with Charlie the whole time. Never leaving his side. When she thought no one was watching, she would begin...

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The amount of anger I am experiencing at this moment is unexplainable. I can’t write for long, as I have a lot happening right now. This is the first time I have felt the full potential of my strength, the first time since being a new vampire that I have considered killing a human.
… Charlie was shot in the line of duty yesterday. A group of punks made their way to Forks from Seattle in an attempt the run from the police there. They were involved in a shooting in Seattle, and killed two people.
Charlie was on shift, and got a call of suspicious behavior...

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As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried—late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses—that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, atau the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but I must remember them. Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live—I had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure....

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Remember my 1953 Chevrolet pickup truck? The one Charlie bought for me from Billy Black when I moved to Forks? Well, if you’ve been following my story, anda would know that Edward purchased me an “after car”, for when I was turned. It’s a beautiful car. It’s fast, too. Different from my old pickup truck, to say the least. It’s a Ferrari F430. Nice to look at, but Edward always knew I missed my old pickup truck. It’s been parked on Charlie’s lawn for the longest time. To my disappointment, it stopped running. I thought I’d never get to drive...

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From time to time, human emotions encapsulate me. If it weren’t for Zafrina, my friend from the Amazonian Coven, I don’t know if I’d be able to tampil Edward those emotions. She helped me realize my capabilities, and taught me to use them to my full potential. He loves it though, when I do let him in. Somehow however, I think he’s quite happy not knowing everything. It’s foreign to him, exciting. I guess it keeps him wondering, which isn’t something Edward is used to. Mostly, I’ve used this capability to tampil Edward how deeply, truthfully and...

"Tanna, please, your going to wake your mummy" Alice pleded downstairs.
IT was too late for that, how could i with this strain on my back? the cuts are still burning.
But too Many things are too late, like the fact that i'm pregnant, again.
I never taught i would be again, jacob and I never even wanted a baby, so unexpected, and i had told myself so many years ago, that i dont need children when im with edward.
When Tanna came, i Knew, this was it, she was all i wanted, so beautiful, and that i diddnt need anything else.
I Think im stranded on a burning bridge between "Take it out" and "Just...

i dont understand why bella gets her happy ending with that parasite its not like im jelous atau anything im just saying.All i wanted was my (SAM ULEY) somtimes i wonder at night how would my life be if i didnt turn into this stupid wolf. Would me and my fairytale long lost lover have kids but that would nevr happen now that my female organs dont work.I learned to get over after me and jacob had that long talk in the woods that hari in the woods at the cullens house on potrol.But only if i could take back the hands of time i wouldnt have ever invited emily daown here she wouldnt have ever meeet...

The room was silent , no-one spoke a word as i entered the room.
Tanna laid silent in the deepth of my hair.
A chilled palm rested on my shoulder, i turned.
"I can take her, if anda want bell" Rose offered.
i tightened my grip on my baby. no i wanted to keep her, i needed something to hold on to, now with Edward.
"no it's ok Rose, i need her" i moaned silently.
I heard low groans and murmurs from Carlisle.
I scuffed my feet accross the floor.
I glided past Alice who seemed all healed, well that one down, one to go.
edward came into sight.
I lost all breathe, and stength in my legs, i felt esme's...

"hey bella, wake up ,bella" Alice whispered while she shook me awake lightly. i woke from a deep sleep, i tried to shake off the exhustgin off my eyes. I just wanted lebih time, i felt like i was back at school, early mornings. but i dont why it was such a surprise anyway, being a mother of a 4 bulan old, really gets anda up at all hours.
"im sorry, Bella, but i was going to do the shopping for you. what do anda need? what do i get?? i haven't been shopping a long time." she chuckled. This was the first time she has smiled the since port angles trip. I dont remember much. only because i was knocked...

Waking to his side. what lebih can be said.

A light knock sounded from the door a few feet away.
"Bella"i knew this voice, my best friend, Alice.
"Yeah come in" i groaned. I still felt hazy from the night before. man i have a lot of explaining to do.. how my jantung will need a excuse.a pretty good one. but what the hell, wow i feel like a rebel, noew i feel like a loser for jsut thinking that...
Alice stepped throught the door so gracefully, she put malaikat to shame, i rocked back, she was soo beautiful, she dressed in a caress voilet jumpsuit, it clung to every perfection of her body, oh my envy....

ok i really cant remember who i promised chapter 14 to, so this is that person, that will remember, im soo sorrryyy!!!!

anyhoo!
JACOBS POV!

I wasnt listen to the argue, i jsut knew that i ran, i ran the whole distance that was between me and where bella lied.
This was like de ja vu.
her hair parted on her neck, there for the first time, i have ever notice, the block letters.
SPELLED OUT HIS NAME, HIS NAME.
i stopped still. i froze, stunded. how could i be such a fool, how did i ever feel that i could ever heal the parts of her jantung that was broken.
She would hold on forever if she was allowed....

i woke with the sun lieing on my legs, and alone,
i rolled to see jacobs side empty, but what could i expect, this was the morning routine, the way it was was since our marriage five months ago.
he had his werewolf duties along side sam.I dont know why this morning felt different to every other.i had a feeling today was different, like for some reason today is a hari i was going to remember and jacob wasnt there to see what it was.
It was early 9.00, and i was shocked to see the sun, out , instead of the gloomy clouds as always.
I had hoped to raise Tanna in Pheonix, in the sun and the heat,...